When Love Only Remains a Name
Your smile is my happiness
The next day, Cinta goes to school on an angkot ride. He arrived at the High School at exactly 6.50, there is still 10 minutes for him to clean the class.
"Cin, aren't you tired of what clean keeps going?" asked Ulfa while enjoying her snack.
"No, Ul. If I were tired, I would clean it. I don't like it when this room is dirty. I also can't study quietly if I see where the dust is. The trash is also scattered." Love just about every day sees garbage here and there. Already often Love caught his friends who litter carelessly. Sometimes under the table, under the chair, under the table. Sometimes in the seat even tucked in the corner sometimes stacked. Even though in class there is already a garbage reservation but they still throw it away. Cinta has advised them several times and they say "yes" and "sorry" and promise not to repeat it again. But the fact is they still like that until finally Cinta is saturated and lazy to reprimand them again or advise him. Because for Love it is useless, just waste time and energy.
Clean finish, Love immediately sat in class. He tried to relieve his fatigue. After he felt immediately again, Cinta immediately took the MTK book and studied it.
"Hey." Elsa came and sat down near Love.
"Tumben is coming, mepet. Usually also at half-seven is here." asked Love without looking at Elsa
"So, my car's tires are in trouble. I had to nelvon the driver to take him to the workshop. I came here on a grab.
" Oh..." Love no longer responds. He was too focused on the MTK formula he learned.
"Emang MTK has Pr?" ask Elsa.
"Nothing is."
"Aren't there any more impromptu replays like yesterday?."
"Where do I know."
"Then why are you learning."
"Well, I can't learn."
"Can anyway. Just wonder. Why are you so serious about learning it. Usually even though you study, you still want to talk. It's from earlier, not as usual. Just talking is sober.."
"It wasn't like I used to be like El. Never mind, don't mess around with something trivial like this. You better learn. Well even though there is no repetition or PR, at least we must be ready to be on standby, who knows there is an impromptu repetition. But even if there is no, at least our brain can still remember the formula formula that has been taught by Mr. Ridwan. So surely later on Deuteronomy semester, we are not too shaky to learn because we have learned it every day."
"Yes yes. Oh yeah by the way when's the semester exam."
"Log's not wrong for another 2 weeks."
"I don't know if we've spent nearly two years in school here. We are in 3rd grade. Then graduate and we can get over it. Usually on campus, guys are handsome."
"Don't fantasize too high, El. It's still morning, anyways you kulyah will want to do some science or just look for a guy."
"Both are hehe."
"Oh yeah, what about Alvin."
"How did you feel?" Tanya Love balek.
"Because I saw you with him. You guys have a relationship."
"No. I told you I would never have a relationship with anyone before I got married. I don't want to disappoint my husband. I want to take care of myself for my husband."
"But brother Alvin, does he express his feelings as you do.emmmz is like a phrase of like, love, love or what that is." Ask Elsa heart.
"Yes. But I told him I couldn't."
"Hemmm, oh yes brother Alvin just graduated, and we'll be going up to 3rd grade soon. After graduation, you'll never be able to get involved with Alvin again."
"I don't care, he's not special to me. I used to be close to just helping him, advising him not to continue being such a bad boy. After he changed, I felt like my job was done. Then let alone me deket deket same him. I don't give harapab to anyone, El. Yesterday I was the same brother Alvin had a chat but yes like that. Nothing important in my opinion. So you must not misunderstand. Oh yeah you know, Ferdi temen Alvin? ask Love
" Yes, why?"
"Somewhere he sent a letter. You can guess what the letter is about."
"Oh my God it is the 21st person to express his feelings in a letter. I am envious of you. Lots of guys like you but baby, they have to be heartbroken over your rejection. Sometimes you just ignore them."
"I don't want to hurt them but I can do anything. I told you, I went to school not to find a boyfriend or a guy. Even if it is time, I want him to love me because of God, accept me with all my lack, love my father and mother, who never leave prayer, smart salary. Gratitude if he is a hafidz al qur'an. Understand religion because I want him to be able to guide me, educate me and take me to his paradise. If there will be such a thing, then I will accept it without having to think twice. Especially if he is able to pull my heart out, making me always vibrate if it is nearby. How nice it would be to have such a priest. I'd be willing if I graduated High School I immediately married that origin like the man I craved. After that, he and I can build a SAMAWA family. I don't need a high diploma because I don't want to be a career woman, I want to be a good wife for my husband and be the best mother for my children." Love smiles her own smile imagine it.
"Ah, you Cin, he thought in the distance. You want to marry the age of Moses."
"If God wills, what can we do. I will accept all of his destiny with sincerity. But if the man I want does not come, then yes I will continue college while praying that God will give me the best soul mate that can make me happy in the afterlife." Not even Love finished his speech, suddenly he was shocked by the presence of Ivan who came to arrive.
"Morning, Van." Elsa said with spirit
"At first, El. was talking, seriously." asked Ivan, when in fact he knew what was discussed by the two of them because actually Ivan had come from earlier but he did not immediately enter and just stood behind the door. Love and Elsa's seat by the door. Ivan could hear it clearly.
"Female, you can't know." Elsa replied, Love just smiles.
The smile that made Ivan's heart tremble. I don't know seeing Love smiling is like a happiness to him
He never gets tired of seeing the face of love. Especially when Love smiles, it looks so sweet. In Ivan's heart he begged that Love, who would later become his wife, be the mother of his children.
