When Love Only Remains a Name

Can I Be Honest?

After the meal, Love and Alvin go to the back garden.

"It's cold in here, Cin." Alvin said while breathing fresh air.

"Yes, that's why I often spend my rest here."

The back garden is indeed beautiful, verdant grass, shady trees, far from pollution. Even though the weather is hot if sitting under a shady tree it feels cool let alone there is a waterfall in the middle of the tree. Not only that makes this garden look attractive but because there are roses, bunva orchids, jasmine flowers, frangipani flowers and so on, everything is arranged so neatly. Mr. Hoirun is indeed smart in taking care of this park. Oh yes, mr. Hoirun is not a garden that takes care of the park at school.

But baby, even though the garden is this beautiful. Not many come to this park because they often spend time in the cafeteria, to the school cafe decket, some go to a hangout not far from the parking lot, there are also those who spend time in class and some who go to the perpus. There are even those who go to the Mall during rest hours because the Mall is not far only about 1 km from the school.

If Cinta prefers to spend her rest hours in the musholla or in the back garden. If so, he went to the cafeteria just to fill his stomach so that he had energy during the lesson hours because indeed Love could not be constituted if his stomach was empty.

"Cin?" call Alvin disperse the reverie of Love.

"May I be honest?"

"Yes, please."

"Cin, I like you. But you don't worry, I won't ask you to return my feelings. Enough like this. Honestly, these past few months I have been watching you from afar, I wanted to get close but I was embarrassed. I don't have the courage to approach you. But just so you know, I'm so grateful to know you. Thanks to you, I can be a better person. I'm very grateful.

I remember the first time we met, you caught me when I ran away from school, you pulled my shirt and told me to sit down. At that time, I wanted to rebel but to see your face, I somehow became obedient. You advise me on this and that but I try to ignore it. Then the next day, again you saw me hanging out and not going to class. Without ba bi bu, you take my hand to class and along the way you don't stop advising me. And for the second time, I can no longer fight or fight you. You are good but very firm. Until no one dares to fight you. I salute your courage. But your advice only goes in from the right ear and out from the left ear. I was still skipping school, until 2 weeks later you saw me being rocked by them. You help me and try to treat me. You never get tired of continuing to advise me until finally I also feel bored with my own nature. I started to change little by little and finally here I am now. But for some reason since I changed, you've been getting away. You no longer advise me and when we meet you just smile without greeting me. I don't know why you're acting like that. I wanted to ask but I was still not ready and this time I tried to gather my courage and reveal all my uneg. Not even a liability, I also express my feelings. I don't care, once you know how I feel. Are you going to get angry and move away from me or are you letting me out with my feelings." Alvin tried to be open, it was enough all this time he kept the feeling alone.

"Ka, I'm sorry for my attitude that has hurt kaka, not to avoid or stay away from kaka. It's just that I don't like being too familiar with the opposite sex which will later lead to slander. I'm glad we're changing, no longer as naughty as we used to be. And for my feelings, I appreciate that too. I'm not gonna force you to stop liking me because it's your right but I'm sorry I can't change your feelings." Answer Love with a smiling face.

"Thank you, Cin for allowing me to continue liking you. No papa even if you don't feel my feelings. I'm glad kog. And I realize who I am, I don't deserve a perfect woman like you. But if you have anything, you should not hesitate to tell me. I will always be there for you. From today on, I promise I will no longer approach you but I will always see you from a distance. You are the source of my happiness, ever since I knew you. I feel like my heart is no longer as empty as it used to be. Thank you for taking your time just to hear my obscure rant. Excuse me first." Without waiting for an answer, Alvin immediately left Love who was still struggling with his own mind.