
After Jay continued to advise Ila, Ila finally collapsed. Jay was so relieved that Ila didn't commit suicide.
Jay hugged Ila very tightly, Ilapun also returned her husband's embrace.
"Now you eat? My mother made me a dish that I like but I can't eat if you don't eat. Later after eating you can rest again." said Jay softly. She could only nod her head without answering her husband's words.
Jay smiled to see his wife a little steadfast although the sadness was still visible in both eyes.
Jay feeds his wife gently and lovingly. They ate one plate together.
Finished eating Ila slept again by hugging the photo of her little daughter. Ila continued to cry while staring at the photo "Patience yes dear. Mama promised to catch up with you soon." said Ila inwardly. After that Ila was sound asleep because she was tired of crying continuously
Jay himself, he immediately entered the bathroom to clean his body, after finishing bathing. Jay immediately put on the clothes and gloves he took from the closet.
Jay was wearing that shirt and holster. And after that, Jay prayed dhuhur because the clock still shows at 2 past 10 minutes.
After the prayer, Jay prayed a very long prayer until he shed tears. I don't know what Jay's asking, only he and God know.
Finished praying, Jay read the Qur'an to calm his heart. Only the Qur'an can make the heart calm again even in a state of grief.
Allah ta’ala has reminded this in verse (which means), “Those who believe and their hearts can feel at ease by remembering Allah, who are not, know that only by remembering Allah will the heart feel at ease.” (QS. ar-Ra’d: 28). Ibnul Qayyim rahimahullah mentioned that the chosen opinion regarding the meaning of ‘remember Allah’ here is to remember al-Qur’an. This is because the human heart will not be able to feel tranquility except with faith and confidence embedded in his heart. While faith and belief cannot be obtained except by absorbing the guidance of the Qur’an (see Tafsir al-Qayyim, p. 324)
Ibn Rajab al-Hanbali said, “Dhikr is a delicacy for the hearts of those who understand.” Likewise Malik bin Dinar said, “It is not those who feel delicacy can feel as delicacy is achieved by remembering Allah.” (see Jami’ al-’Ulum wa al-Hikam, p. 562).
Note the following words of Rabi’ bin Anas, maybe we will be able to find the answer. Rabi’ bin Anas said a phrase from some of his friends, “The sign of love for God is a lot of remembrance/remembering to Him, because in fact you do not love anything unless you will certainly call it a lot.” (see Jami’ al-’Ulum wa al-Hikam, p. 559). This means, the weaker the love for God in a person, the less ‘his ability’ to be able to remember Allah ta’ala. This indirectly describes our inner condition that is so alarming, even though the outer condition seems fine.
If so, then the solution to be able to achieve peace of mind through dhikr is to cultivate and strengthen love for God. And the only way to obtain it is to know God through the majesty of His names and attributes and to observe the greatness of His verses, which is stated in the Qur’an or which is the form of His creation.
Shaykh Dr. Muhammad bin Khalifah at-Tamimi hafizhahullah said, “Truly love for something is a branch of knowing it. The man who knows God the most is the one who loves Him the most. Everyone who knows God will love Him. And there is no way to reach this ma’rifat except through the door of knowledge concerning the names of Allah and His attributes. It will not be strong to justify a servant to Allah except by trying to recognize His names and attributes mentioned in the Qur’an and as-Sunnah…” (Mu’taqad Ahlis Sunnah wal Jama’ fi Tauhid al-Asma’ wa as-Shifat, p. 16)
The heart of a servant will be alive, filled with pleasure and tranquility when it is the heart that always knows God, which in turn produces a sense of love for God above all else (see Mu’taqad Ahlis Sunnah wal Jama’ah fi Tauhid al-Asma’ wa as-Shifat, p. 21).
On the other hand, the delicacy in the achherat that a servant acquires is when he sees His face. While it cannot be obtained unless it feels the greatest delicacy in the world, that is, by knowing God and loving Him, and this is what is meant by the heaven of the world which will always cool the hearts of His servants (see ad-Daa’ wa ad-Dawaa’, p. 261)
Many people are deceived by the world by all the pleasures it offers so that it forgets them from remembering the Lord who bestowed upon them. It began, when love for the world had seeped into the recesses of his heart. Without feeling, the love for God gradually faded and disappeared. Moreover ‘supported’ ambience that is far from the flush of instructions al-Qur’an, let alone the introduction to the majesty of his names and nature. The further away is the figure of a weak servant from the circle of his Lord's guidance.
Prayer feels empty, dhikr lives tongue movements without meaning, and al-Qur’an was dusty untouched by his hands. O brother...What are you looking for in this life? If you are looking for happiness, then remember that true happiness will never be obtained except with Him and always remember Him.
Allah ta’ala says (which means), “Akan but it turns out you put the life of the world first, while the acherat is better and more eternal.” (QS. al-A’la: 16-17). Allah also says of the call of an apostle who wills for good for his people (which means), “O my people, follow me I will surely show you the way of guidance. O my people, indeed the life of this world is only a pleasure (a pseudo), and indeed it is the true place to live.” (QS. Ghafir: 38-39) (see ad-Daa’ wa ad-Dawaa’, p. 260)
If you weep because of the loss of your property, or because of the loss of your office, or because of the one who left you, then now is the time to weep for your broken heart…
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Jay always remembers what the teacher said when he was a kid. For this reason, whenever Jay feels sad and a lot of problems, Jay will pray, recite and also read the Quran because it is the only thing that can and is able to calm his heart.
When Jay had read one juz, the voice of Ashar reverberated. Jay immediately prayed Ashar after that, he approached his wife and slept next to her while hugging her tightly.