When Love Only Remains a Name

Ila Hysterical

After the funeral, everyone was home and the rest of the family stayed at Jay and Ila's house.

They couldn't have come home if Jay and Ila were in this state of grief.

They (the great family of Love and Taufiq) want to always be near Jay and Ila, so that they are not too sad about the passing of Alina.

Jay still continues to be beside Ila who until now is still not aware. It was too sudden and it was like a dream. Yesterday all day still joking at the house of Love, the night Alina still had time to eat a lot of cake. The next morning he had a fever and died, even now he was underground.

In a matter of hours everything changed.

"Son, eat first." said Cinta because it's 1 pm and time to eat. Love cooks Jay's favorite food hoping Jay wants to eat even a little. Love doesn't want Jay to be sad like this and not eat.

"Gak bun's. I don't want to eat, I don't want to. I just want to wait for my wife to come to her senses." Jay replied with tears in his eyes.

"You have to be patient, son. Allah is testing your patience, may this be the case. God lift up your degrees." said Love trying to strengthen and advise his son.

"Yes bun" Jay said in a weak tone.

"Mother stay first. Rice and side dishes Mother put here, later if you are hungry. You can eat right away." said Love gently and Jay only replied with a nod of the head.

After that, Love came out because he did not want to disturb Jay. Love should also give Jay time to calm himself down.

After the departure of Love, in the room only stay Jay and Ila who are still unconscious.

"Yank wake up, don't make me sad."

"I'm sorry, 'cause I'm our daughter's dead. If last night I hadn't invited you two to a party maybe Alina would still be with us. Though Alina should not be too tired because it is easy to get sick but I did not pay attention to it until it finally became like this."

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I'm so sorry." said Jay, clasping his wife's hand.

"Yank you have to be patient, you have to be able to accept all these tests even though it feels very heavy."

"Yank, I'm scared. I'm afraid you'll leave me like Alina. I don't want yank. I love and love you very much. I don't want to live alone. You are very valuable to me. So please, just be aware and don't be like this anymore because it feels really painful. My heart aches to see you lying weak like this."

Jay kept crying. Jay is afraid that Ila will leave him for a long time.

When Jay shed tears, he saw his wife's hand begin to move and before long Ila began to open her eyes little by little.

"Yank, are you awake?" ask Jay

"Where am I?" ily asked without answering her husband's question.

"Alina where is mas? Where is our daughter? I dream he left us. I'm afraid." said Ila sadly as she continued to cry. Jay hugged Ila very tightly.

"Where's Mas Alina?" ask Ila.

"He's gone, baby. You have to be patient. God is testing our household." Jay answered as he continued to hug his wife.

"No, you must be lying. Aye? You want to work as usual, right? I can't believe Alina's gone. He came all day playing with us, playing with your family even earlier he was still busy eating while nari nari at your tea party. I beg you, please answer me, where is Alina?" Ila asked hysterically while trying to get her hug off Jay's body.

"Alina is no yank. Even he was buried." replied Jay who made Ila even more hysterical.

"They're lying, I don't believe the same. I must be kidding. If Alina ever leaves me, I'll catch up with her. I'll catch up with her." said Ila while trying to get out of her husband's arms and take the knife that was on the table. Yes, the knife is always in his room to peel the fruit if you arrive to eat the fruit. But even if it is just a fruit knife, the knife is sharper than a kitchen knife.

"Ila, don't be like this. You want to leave me? Da? Alina has left us and now you want to leave me too. You don't pity me? You don't think about how I feel? If you don't exist then what about me? Can you make me live alone? You can ruin my life and make me die slowly because I feel my life is not perfect.

I know it's hard, but I beg you. Please don't do something like this. You're not the same as me? With Mama Elsa? Papa Angga's? Mother Love? Taufiq's father and your twin brother Ica. You don't pity them all? You do not get along with the people around you who love you.

Please don't do anything stupid. Every household has its own test. You don't want to be with your twin brother Ica, he also lost his first son. Even before Ica took care of her, she was already not in the womb.

You don't know how Will and Aisyah's house is. Just a few days after they were married, they had to crash and put Will in a coma and even felt frustrated when he realized, but his wife was not there.

They even separated for a year and a half. They are still the newlyweds. But God tested it just as we do now.

Do you think you killed yourself and then you'll meet our daughter in person.

Plis, I beg you. Don't act recklessly that could hurt you yourself. You still have me, you have a mother, you have a father, you have a mother, you have a brother and everyone around you.

Please, don't do that. It's really heavy. But this is our household test. All this time we have always lived luxuriously, whatever we want, we just buy. We also have people who love us. Our life has been so perfect.

Maybe it is time for God to give us a test so that God knows where our patience will be in the face of this test.

Hopefully with this problem, God bless us.

God will not test his servant beyond the limits of human ability. I beg you not to do that" Jay said in a very pleading voice.

"But I can't live without Alia mas." said Ila in a soft voice.

"I know, I understand how you feel. I totally understand. She is also my son so I know very well how you feel yank but we can not harm ourselves just to catch up with Alina who may have been happy at God's side. We must be able to draw near to God and do good deeds so that we can be reunited with Alina in His heaven." jay said, who constantly advises his wife not to try to kill herself. Jay doesn't know how to live this life if there's no Ila next to him.