When Love Only Remains a Name

Will gives Jay Advice

After Ila finished buried. Jay just shut himself in the room. He only prayed, wiridan and naji for a while and then slept again. Wake up after the Adhan only for prayer. Jay did not fill his stomach with food at all. Already several times Cinta, Taufiq, Ani, Ana, Will, Pram tried to persuade Jay to eat but still, Jay refused and did not talk much until they gave up one by one.

Ila itself is still pretentious, but she still wants to eat because however she is still breastfeeding which means she needs a food supply (There are several factors that can affect the quality of breast milk; the health of the mother, which means she needs food supply, adequate rest, as well as the intake of food consumed.

Remember that not only the quality of ASI needs to be considered, but also the quantity. Therefore, it is very important to determine the type and amount of food to be consumed by nursing mothers.

Most breastfeeding mothers need 500 calories more than their normal calorie intake before pregnancy. Of course, the calorie needs of each individual depend on their metabolism and physical activity.

Some experts in the field of nutrition recommend that nursing mothers consume about 2,700 calories per day. But recent research shows that the calorie needs of nursing mothers every day is about 2,200 calories.)

Because she does not want her daughter why napa, Ila still have to eat if it is time to eat, because she does not want to lose Angel just because she is selfish. Ila is now mourning the death of her nephew and twin brother but that does not mean she has to let Angel starve. Angel still continues to suckle at her age.

Finish suckling, Ica will give Angel to Pram and he will go to his mother's room to comfort Elsa who until now is still pretentious and can't believe that Ila and Alina are now really gone.

What makes it even more pretentious is that what Ila did was a very fatal mistake. It should be that although he was very sad because he was living by his daughter, Ila should not have done that act. Even all the families regret the stupidity of Ila in facing a problem. Suicide is something you shouldn't do.

Suicide is for people whose priests are weak.

Jay himself also regretted what Ila had done. He thought, his wife was trying to sincerely remember the fame of Ila so according to what was said oleh Jay. Although Jay saw a blank look in both of Ila's eyes, Jay did not think that Ila would hang herself on the tree. Even a little bit, Jay didn't think up to it.

Although his wife tried to commit suicide with a knife but when Jay advised him, Ila began to melt and comply. But it turned out to be a trick, in fact Ila still committed suicide that took her own life.

Jay hugs a picture of Ila holding her daughter Alina.

"Darling, why would you leave me here alone. Why are you so foolish as to do the thing that God hates so much. But you know, no matter how hard our tests are, we cannot choose to take our own lives.

Yank, you've managed to make my heart melt. I've lost our little daughter, and now I've lost you as my wife. Are you satisfied to make me suffer like this. Why do you only think about yourself without thinking about how I feel, how your parents feel and how your twin brothers and the people around you feel.

I know it's heavy, but that doesn't mean suicide is a last resort. There's a lot of things we need to do, maybe we can secure some of our possessions for Alina there, as well as giving all our daughter's belongings and toys to the orphanage so that her charity flows to Alina.

We can also make another child if you really want a child after the death of our daughter. We can do many things dear, but why can you make me this sad, make me feel this pain. This pain honestly made me crumble. It was very painful, this chest even felt very tight.

Yank, in the years we've been married, you've been a part of my life. You are my life's encouragement, you are my life's friend, you are half my life. You who have always been there for me, always faithful to accompany me in a state of joy and sorrow. You can always make my day happy, you always make me feel comfortable being around you.

Then what about now? After you're gone, what should I do. My life spirit is gone, but you are like medicine to me. You're like a vitamin to me. When I am tired, I will come to you to make my body and my brain refreshed as well as the routine that I do out there.

Honey, why do you make me like this? Why do you leave me yank? Wh why? You just think about your feelings and ignore my feelings. You don't care about my life.

Ah, I don't even know what to say anymore. You're so cruel to let me have to live alone without you and our son. You're so cruel to leave me like this alone. You're so mean, baby." Jay said, hugging a picture of Ila and Alina. Jay really felt the pain in his chest, the tightness that made him feel like he felt an incredible pain all over his body.

Jay continued to mumble, saying that he was very disappointed with what his wife had done.

As Jay holds his chest, Will goes in to check on Jay's condition, but how shocked he is, seeing Jay whimpering us while holding his left chest.

"Jay, why are you?" ask Wil in panic.

"I'm sick, my chest is tight." replied Jay. Wil immediately checked Jay's condition.

"Jay, you take a breath and exhale slowly. You repeat it over and over again." Will said. Jay followed his twin brother's words. Jay, take a breath and exhale slowly as Will ordered. After a while, Jay felt a little better.

"Why you?" ask Will. He sat next to his twin brother.

"I don't have a papa." Jay replied smiling, even though his heart was in pain. The pain in his chest had also gradually started to disappear.

"I know what you're feeling and it's very heavy. It's even tougher than the exam Pram and I felt. When I heard my wife disappear somewhere, I was like a very frustrated person. Looking for him even like crazy. Although my body still hurts, I still try and force myself to find my wife.

Although everyone sentenced my wife to death but not me. I'm sure my wife is still alive and I just don't know where she is.

But honestly, it really hurts. I just got married but God tested my marriage so badly. When you and Ila are happy to love your marriage even when Pram is also happy with his wife. I feel very sick. Moreover, your wife and Pram's wife were pregnant at the same time. While my wife is still missing, no one even knows where she is.

I could only pray and try to calm myself by reciting the holy verse of the Quran while continuing to search for clues as to where my wife was. Honestly, I've been jealous of your lives. You and Pram, you look like such a happy family while I, I languish, I feel God is so unfair to all three of us, why am I the only one being tested. God gives you happiness.

Every time I see you guys laughing happily, I feel my heart ache. If my wife was around me, I might as well feel the happiness you feel. But unfortunately, I don't know where my wife is, she's gone like she's swallowed up the earth. I don't know if he's alive or dead but my gut always says he's alive just I don't know where he is.

I always looked alone even though everyone gave up and said my wife was dead. But not with me, as long as his body is still unaccounted for, I believe he's alive.

Honestly, the weight of even the very weight of the exam that I went through. I've only been married for a few days but God tests me, God tests my marriage.

But the happiness did not last long, because when my wife arrived at the home of father and mother. Ica even miscarried. I feel like fate is playing us all.

Well, I did not expect that after I found my happiness again, I instead saw a deep sadness in the eyes of Pram and Ica. Why, why does God test our family. Is it because all this time our lives are happy and even too happy until now God tests us with endless tests.

On the one hand, I was very happy with my wife's presence but on the other hand, I felt sad and very sad because I saw such a deep sadness in my twin brother's heart.

Moreover, at that time Ica was very frustrated when she knew the son she would look forward to being born in this world turned out to be dead.

Well, after God tested my marriage. Now God tests Pram's marriage and Ila's. I know that God will always test his servant, and no man will escape the trials that are always given to him. It's just that I didn't expect it to be this heavy.

And now that God tested my marriage with the accident, it kept me and my wife apart. God also tested the marriage of Pram and Ica by taking the fruits of their love. Dam now God test your marriage.

I know it's hard to be you, Jay. You lost your wife and child at once. Even if I were you, I wouldn't be able to even imagine that I couldn't.

Maybe God gave you this test, because you are a strong person, a person who is able to pass all the tests after the tests that come in turn.

I know, I even really understand how you feel. But I can't do anything, I can only advise you like this. But I hope you don't keep falling like this. Poor father and mother. They worry about thinking about you.

Father and mother are no longer young, they cannot think much. If you are like this, father and mother become worried, especially mother. It will affect your health. You don't want to, Mother left us all like Ila and Alina who left us? Just 2 people, don't add any more." Will said at length.

"Yes Will you're right. I have to get up for the sake of the people I love. It is heavy, even very heavy. But I don't want you to get sick and leave me because I keep thinking about me. I will try to toughen up, maybe it is true this is the destiny that I must live. May God give me the strength and patience to get through all this" said Jay, who again tried to toughen up. He does not want Love to be sick because he thinks of himself. Jay does not want to be a selfish person who thinks about himself and ignores the feelings of those around him.

"If you need anything or need a friend to confide. You can call me, will always come and always be there for you. We are twin brothers. Even since in the womb we are always together even until we grow up. It's just that since we married, we are rarely together because we already have their respective activities. But honestly, I love you so much. You are my twin brother. Even though all this time, I was nowhere near you. But you are always in my heart and in my mind. Me, you, Pram, Ani and Ana. We are siblings who must take care of each other.

Later if you are better. What if we go together. Walk the way it used to." said Will.

"What about your wife?" ask Jay

"My wife lives with my father and mother. So I can leave Aisyah and Khaleed to them." replied Will

"Since when have you lived with your father and mother?" tany Jay's.

"Since kemaren. When we gather together. You go home first with your son and wife and follow up with others. Until I stayed, Aisyah and our son who had not returned home. And when I want permission, I see sadness in the eyes of father and mother. And from that moment Aisyah who understood the feelings of father and mother invited us to stay there.

Honestly, I feel guilty and even guilty. The home of our father and mother was so crowded with us. But since we got married, one by one we all leave father and mother in the house until they are lonely but trying to nahan and not tell how they feel. Maybe they're scared, afraid that they're going to burden us all.

If I had known from a long time ago our departure made father and mother sad and lonely. Maybe I'll choose to stay with my dad and mom.

Unfortunately, I am not aware of their feelings. And it makes me feel guilty for letting my father and mother feel lonely for years. Moreover, the company of the father and the mother's resto they have given to Ani and Ana. Until they just stay at home and do not say anything other than well you know yourself, the father planted a variety of vegetables and fruit in the side and back of his house while keeping fish to drive away boredom. Likewise with mothers who almost every day just try to make various kinds of food recipes and cakes some cakes. There is nothing more they do than repeat their activities every day.

I'm sure they're bored but they can't do anything about it.

And when Aisyah and I said we were going to stay there, my mom and dad looked so enthusiastic. Even his eyes were emitting happiness that everyone could read.

I'm so happy to see them happy Just by staying there I can already make them happy. If I had known for a long time, maybe I would have lived there a long time ago and would have lived in the house that my father bought me." Will said

"Yes you're right Will, as a child we've become selfish children. We never think about how dad and mom feel. Will, can I stay there too. I want to get together with my mom and dad too. Anyway if I stay here, I'll always stay with my son and wife. However, this rumag has too many memories." said Jay.

"I'm even happy if you want to stay with your father and mother again. Let's make the house as crowded as it used to be. This part of the house does have many memories and you should not stay here because it will make you sad every day. Oh yes my house is also I contracted but until now no one has come to contract the house. I don't dare sell it because anyway it's dad's purchase for all of us."

"Yes the same, I can't bear to sell this house. But if I live in your father's and mother's house then what about your wife. Does he not mind?" ask Jay

"I'm sure even very sure, he wouldn't mind. Even he's happy if you want to stay with us, with your father and mother." replied Will smiling.

"Oh yeah how's Ica and mama Elsa? Are they better?" jay asked because what he heard, they were both very shocked even to the point of fainting as well as Mother Love. Just love trying hard for his son, Jay. Only Elsa and Ica remain who are still not sincere and do not believe in the death of Ila is so tragic and sad.

"Ica is better, she already wants to eat because however she is breastfeeding her daughter who would not want her to have to eat so Asinya stay awake. Usually finished breastfeeding, Ica will immediately give Angel to her husband, Pram.

While Ica will go to Mama Elsa's room to calm her and give her spirit. Indeed, the hardest hit here is you, Mama Elsa and Ica. But you three have to get through this." replied Will.

"Yes I will try to recapitulate everything that has happened, which is the destiny of my life. Thanks for all the advice" Jay said.

"Yes the same. Now you go to sleep. I'll bring you some food, we'll eat both here." Will said.

"Yes." Yeah."

After that Willpun left Jay's room and closed Jay's door slowly. Wil gave himself time to let Jay rest