When Love Only Remains a Name

My prayer

Love woke up at 14:00, he immediately took a bath, took ablution, dressed and prayed dhuhur because it was after school, he did not have time to pray because his fist felt so dizzy that he chose to sleep.

After he finished praying, he went straight to the dining table to fill his stomach which had started rumbling. He saw at the table there was only rice, sambal, lalapan, grilled chicken, goat satay, red cooked sea fish, soto, fried tempeh and fried tofu, and crackers. Honey, it's all cold because the rest of this morning. Mommy is still not home, so inevitably Love must eat what is on the table because he is lazy to cook. Actually Love does not like if you eat food that is already cold. But what can I do, there's just that. Instead of starving, he would rather eat.

After eating, Love returned to the room and continued reading the unfinished novel until it did not feel like the clock showed at 16:00. He immediately took ablution to pray ashar. "O Allah, I apologize if the end of this time I often complain. I know I shouldn't be like this. But somehow this feeling is really torturous. I promised I would never love anyone but my husband. But somehow the servant can not refuse when the sense of comfort, this affection is present in the servant. The servant cannot lie that the servant already loves Ivan and I am sure that he also loves the servant. Sorry servant yes Robb, I realized I shouldn't be a servant like this but want how else, I've tried to eliminate this taste but the more I try, the more I try, it is not that this taste disappears but instead becomes more burning so that the servant no longer knows how the servant must control this feeling. And he also promised to propose and marry the servant when the servant graduated from school. And I am happy about that. But the father and mother match the servant with someone else, a person whom the servant has never known. But hearing her story from my father, sometimes makes me curious because somehow he is like the person I always call in prayer all night. O Allah, O Robb, give the servant guidance so that the servant does not misstep. If Ivan is the soul mate of the servant, please make it easy, but if he is not the soul mate of the servant, then remove this affection from the servant so that the servant is no longer tormented with this taste. And if indeed the person who will be betrothed to the servant, he is the best for the servant. Please help me to admire him, love him and love him. Verily, You are the One Who Turns His Heart. To whom else should the servant complain and complain other than to M. To whom else should I ask for help other than You, Robb.

After the prayer, Love wants to find fresh air. Her father and mother have not returned. So he decided to wander around looking for something that might comfort his heart. Suddenly he was eager to go to Caffe. Eating ice cream would be good. Say it in the heart. He immediately parked his car and entered the Caffe. But how cruel he was when he saw a man and a woman who looked so friendly. He felt his chest so tight, he did not feel his tears flowing. He did not expect, that the man who was always with him had such bad qualities.