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Choose Me Or Him

Vita shook her head slowly. He was disappointed and confused by something bad that happened to him again. Why is Yudha here? Where was Yudha yesterday? Why is he coming now? Did Yudha want him to be angry and upset always?

But it's not too important to ask. The most important thing now is: how to get away from Yudha even though the man already knew his intentions.

“Let me go ... Please don't stop me,” said Vita. His chest was starting to feel tight again.

Aware his voice was too high, Yudha lowered her tone, “We talk below, yes.”

Of course Yudha and Vita are ashamed because right now everyone's view is centered on them both.

“No, don't block me,” replied Vita once again.

“I do not allow you,” firmly Yudha still in a soft voice. They don't want their arguments to sound too loud in front of a lot of people. Luckily the music sound has started to play so that it can slightly disguise their sound.

“Mas This bus is leaving. Pity the other passengers have been waiting very long,” said the bus crew reminded.

Vita returned to shake. Eyes glazed. “I don't want to. I'm going home to my own house.”

“We talk under.” Yudha pulled her hand and brought her bag down.

“Please, Mas.”

“Listen to me, Vita. We're down!” yudha said again with a tone of emphasis.

With great force, Vita followed in her husband's footsteps. What he had planned carefully, about the continuation of this story as if it had collapsed without a trace. Vita felt like she was being forcibly expelled and was taken very roughly from the other hopes that were coming her way. He got off the bus with tears streaming down, and with a feeling that could no longer be contained. Why is life so cruel to her?

“Sorry in advance for interrupting his time, sir,” Yudha said as soon as they got off. Both are still at the door.

“So this departure will be cancelled or how?” ask the officer to clarify.

“Iya just canceled,” said Yudha did not care.

“But I'm sorry yes, Mas. The data has been inputted and reported to the center with the number of passengers. So I can not reimburse the cancellation fee, or in other words, the ticket is declared forfeited.”

Yudha nodded. Just responding.

Vita looked at the bus that was traveling without carrying herself. Why is destiny this joking?

‘Yes Allah what is my fault and sin so that again stuck with this man. I've been living without him. Please keep my life out of their shadows again.’

“At whose order did you go?” yudha asked after the bus had moved away. They were still in that place. Feels roomy because most of them, the car has been scattered to leave the Terminal. Even with the other traders and humans there who didn't seem to care much about them.

Not getting an answer made Yudha repeat again. “At whose order did you go?”

Vita's still tight-lipped.

“Jawab!” Yudha snapped at him again. The real thing he didn't want to do. But she was pushed because the fear of losing her to this woman was so great. “Do you think going without permission from a husband is the right thing to do?”

“You should be thinking why I could go secretly from you,” Vita replied soon after. “That's because you didn't let me go well.”

“Iya, I know. I need some time to explain. Be patient a little, my life is not just taking care of you.”

“I've been patiently accepting my honeymoon. I'll take you with him. What else do I have to be patient with?” ask Vita in a low voice. As if there was no more power to fight. He was completely limp in the face of his worst reality.

“From the beginning I told you, give me back. Divorce me if you finally just want to torment my inner self. My life is as much better without you as it was before you came. But what answer have I always got all this time, Mas?” vita said pausing for a moment. “Your answers are always disappointing. Ignoring all my requests as if it doesn't really matter.”

“I behave like this because I want to keep, so that our quarrel does not get widened. Please understand!” Yudha cupped both of Vita's cheeks with teary eyes. “I love you so much. I was so scared you left me.”

Vita took off Yudha's hand. “Your love for Rahma is not for me.”

“Why do you always say that? Don't you see the amount of love I have?” yudha asked in great astonishment.

But Vita kept shaking. “I'm nothing more than an impingement.”

There was a rough breathing from Yudha. He was too confused, how to make Vita believe him.

“We're home, yes. We moved to Umi's house. I'm sure you're just lonely,” Yudha persuaded after a while.

“I don't want to. I still want to go home by myself,” replied Vita kekeh with his stance.

“Then what do you want to go home?” ask Yudha growled. “Didn't you see for yourself the bus you were riding left this place? No other vehicles here can get you to that damned village.”

Vita replied, “I can wait until tomorrow morning.”

“I don't need your seduction, I still want to go home, you hear it or not?” annoyed Vita finally went up.

“What do you want, Vita .. Why are you so stubborn?”

“Is there not enough Rahma by your side? Or maybe if you feel less, you can marry again,” said Vita later. He spoke because he was already hurt.

“This is not a problem enough or not enough,” replied Yudha held back to stay in her patience. “Can you have a better language. You are too demeaning to me as if I am a man who once married a woman.”

“It actually does. You marry two women at once. Not knowingly? Go!”

“Only you are a man who can speak this profanity with me,” said Yudha later.

“Yes, and you wonder, why am I not like Rahma who always keeps quiet and thinks to you?” vita said he would not lose. “That's because Rahma is close to God, while I'm not!”

“ENOUGH!” snapped Yudha. “How will our lives be happy if you always just provoke a debate?”

Vita replied no less loudly, “You are the cause!”

“Aren't you the one who's been fighting me all along and you're so skilled at sparking fights every day with me?” yudha is not playing. “Come home. We talked about all this at home.”

“I said no!” push Vita out loud. “I wouldn't share with any woman. Big lie if there is a woman who wants to be pitted by her own husband.”

“Then what do you want? Want me to divorce Rahma to make you happy, do you?”

“Certify me,” challenge Vita.

DEG!

Yudha. A pained light covered his heart.

“Are you sure?” tanya Yudha made Vita suddenly turn pale. “Do you understand what you say?”

Is Vita ready to listen to ‘talak?’ Verily he said this for the purpose of bluffing him only. Because Vita wants to see how much Yudha loves her. But will Yudha grant it?

“Have you thought about it carefully?” ask Yudha again firmly. His eyes glared sharply. His chest expanded in deflation according to the roar of his fierce breath holding back the rage.

“Today I have been patient. I let you be like that because I hope your nature will slowly change. I keep trying to repair the damage you caused. But even you keep trying to ruin it back!”

At a glance Yudha floated the field in any direction, before she focused her gaze again. “Originally you know. There's pain here that I keep and I patch up every time you ask for a divorce. Silence me for various reasons that actually make no sense just because of the jealousy that so blinds you,” he said again while pointing at his chest.

Vita interrupts, “Then from that, finish everything now. It's okay if I become one of us who succumbs. It's for my own good too. I want you to be happy with him, Mom. Really,” Vita trying hard. He smiled sincerely. “Let me go from your life ...”

Yudha. “Please believe .. I love you. I meandly mean. Stay here.”

“Choose me. Then I will stay here,” said Vita made the man stunned. This is the most difficult question. Moreover, the state of Rahma who is currently pregnant. Vita would not have realized this if she had thought all the way there.

For a long time, they were in silence. It was as if the earth was just the two of them.

“I'm sure you're having a hard time answering. Because you do not love me,” said Vita again mingled with tears.

“There are only two options, Mas. If you choose me, I will stay. But if you choose Rahma, I'll go and we'll get divorced. I promise I won't demand anything. We are still married siri.”

Yudha rubbed her face rough. He turned around and closed his eyes for a moment of thought.

“I already know the answer,” said Vita again after a while with a voice as you like. “I am a stupid woman. Yeah, I'm the stupid one. Same love wrong people.”

Slowly Vita retreated without Yudha knowing.

Yudha sighed deeply after a long while the man thought. And with all the confidence he had, he finally decided, “Alright ...,” the man said with trembling lips.

“I will choose you. But after Rahma—” but unresolved because by the time he turned his head, Vita was no longer behind him.

Yudha. Brow wrinkled. His breathing is irregular. Over time, water gushed from his eyeballs.

“I've chosen you, you hear? Why are you leaving?”

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 To be continued.

Saturday jan week too ngarep-ngarep update yes. This is a lot. The important thing is to prepare the same points as the vote.