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His Absence By My Side

Yudha felt like she was at the lowest point. Many times he convinced himself that all would be well, all must pass, and this was another stage he had to go through. For a while, he could control himself and feel calm but after a few minutes later, he returned to the abyss of propitiation.

It is still printed clearly in his mind how the disintegration of the figure of Rahma that passed from before him. Makes him feel pain. Shadows about their memories sprung up, spinning on his head like broken tapes. Remembering how he loved that woman.

But on the other hand, it is also impossible to divorce Vita for Rahma. How will it be in front of God? Throw away his own wife for the sake of the happiness of another woman who is forbidden in all things. Is that not an unjust act?

Yudha wondered to herself. Who is true love?

Back to reality. Yudha drained tap water located next to the house. Wash his face so that his head feels cooler and feels better. When he finished, he went back inside to meet his wife who was currently looking down lethargic.

“We go to the room,” said Yudha trying to force a smile, although actually Vita knows, Yudha is just pretending to look okay in front of her.

Vita gave him a quick glance, then stood up and followed where Yudha was heading. In the room that was five times five meters, Yudha closed the door. Some of his stuff, already seen barking there.

“This you can finish later in the afternoon,” said Yudha stopped Vita who was about to open her bag. “About tired?”

Vita shakes.

“Bathroom is inside here.” Yudha pointed out another door located not far from the entrance. “I stay first, want to go directly to the hospital to visit Umi.”

“Yes, go,” replied Vita without being able to say anything else again.

“If you need anything can ask for help to the back, there is Bi Retno.”

“Don't be too long gone.”

“Why, you can't get away from me?” godanya smiled.

“Not to be too GR. I just arrived and you left yourself here. How can I not be confused?”

“Why should you be confused? I didn't tell you to do anything. Think of this house as your own home.”

“Can I stay at home in this house?” Vita sat her body on the edge of the bed. And Yudha did the same.

“What makes you say that? You haven't even five minutes sitting here.”

“How about ... Rahma?” asked Vita holding her breath.

“Don't ask that if you don't feel comfortable,” replied Yudha understood what Vita was feeling. Yudha knew, this was indeed not easily accepted by any woman. “Let that be my business. You think of me enough.” Yudha tried to provide comfort by holding Vita's small body into her arms.

“I should never have been present among you. I am the cause of the breakdown of your relationship with her,” Vita expressed regret.

“Sst ... don't think about it.”

“How can I not think about it? I'm the center of that mistake, Mas.”

Yudha shook her head and tightened her embrace. “Maybe you are my soul mate, as we planned, all provisions remain in the hands of God.”

“I ... I want to go home,” Vita said with quivering lips. Making Yudha suddenly distanced her body and looked at her fixedly. Waiting for a speech that has not been fully revealed Vita.

“What should we just split ...,” said Vita faltered. “I promise I won't ask for anything. Already been in your arms, it's enough to make me happy.”

Yudha interrupted immediately. “Dragon talks, Vita!”

For the first time Yudha struck him. From the look of his face was a tinge of anger and disappointment. “You said yourself that this marriage is really for you. You know what it really means? Seriously means not toying with her!”

‘But I call for being happy above the suffering of other women. Even though I wouldn't want you guys to be together either. I don't know how to and I really hate myself.’

“You don't love me don't you?” ask Vita a few moments later.

But that simple question did not get an answer. And Yudha said something else.

“I will not divorce you, until anytime,” Yudha said slowly but firmly. “Please yourself first. I'm going to the hospital now. I hope after I get back I meet you in better shape.”

After saying this, Yudha came out of the room and left her alone.

But there was not yet a minute, the door opened again, seen Yudha re-entered this room and immediately embraced him. He kissed her hand as usual and apologized many times.

“If I don't love you, how could I possibly bring you here with all the risks that I would face. You also introduced to everyone I met in this house as my wife, and you know it.”

‘Your lips may say that, but your heart can say something else. There must be a difference in number and I am the one in the position with the lowest rate.’

***

Under the hot sun, a white car with a plate number that starts with the letter B leads to the hospital building in the Adiyasa highway area. After making sure the car was safe where it should be, Yudha took the elevator to the floor where Uminya was being treated.

The intended room number. After arriving in front of the room, Yudha opened the room and said her greetings. “Assalamualaikum.”

His eyes immediately turned to Umi Ros who was lying weakly with a piercing intravenous needle in his right hand. There is Abah and Alif. But the first person approached was Umi Ros.

“Alhamdulillah, you go home,” said Umi Ros very grateful. He repeatedly rubbed the head of his son who kept his head down kissing his hand.

“Quickly healthy,” says Yudha with a wiry.

“Iya, Umi is healthy.”

Abah joined in knowing, “Umi is only low tension and less fluid alone. can already go home tomorrow, said doctor.”

“How are you, healthy?” Umi asked.

Yudha just nodded. He could not hold back this atmosphere. His longing was so great towards the family he had left behind for so many days. Turning around, Yudha embraced her Abah longing. “Sorry, Bah. Yudha has made you difficult.”

“Absolutely not,” replied Abah. Then they both held out hugs. “Alif said, you brought home a wife is that true?” ask Abah directly to the main point.

Yudha looked one by one the three people who were there. Oh, so Alif told you?

But they should know, right? Now or later it will be the same.

“Sit down, talk to us,” Abah said firmly and wisely. “Explain everything without exception.”

“Please don't think Yudha did a despicable deed, Abah, umi. By Allah Yudha did not do that.”

“Yes, therefore, explain to us what really happened,” said Umi wisely too. “For us to remain prejudiced against you.”

First Yudha let out a long sigh, before finally telling her what had happened to her during the few days there.

“Before Yudha apologized Abah, Umi. For Yudha departed without your blessing. Perhaps because of this reason, Yudha was affected by the consequences ..” and then Yudha recounted the beginning of her entry into a remote village with a series of calamities that happened to her; difficult signal (resulting in his navigation not working properly), bumping into a girl, strike following pickpocketing and forced to stay together for having no other way out—lantas ends up in a heinous slander that requires them to get married.

Yudha also tells how Vita's life there is alone. Also with the dilapidation of the village. Abah, Umi or alif, listen to all that Yudha explains without anyone interrupting or igniting the flames of anger.

A few tens of minutes passed. After the family examined all the explanations of Yudha and caught the outline, Abah spoke, helping to give advice and a way out.

“Come home Rahma now. Say your apology to his family. Explain honestly what you are going through so as not to become a misunderstanding. Abah doesn't want them to think that you're the one who can't keep promises.”

“Good, Bah.” Yudha responded because she should have been.

“You know this problem can drag up the surname. Prove to them that we are not wrong in educating you.”

Yudha nodded in acknowledging her series of mistakes. “Once again forgive Yudha, Bah.”

Abah held next to his son's shoulder at a glance. “This is not your fault entirely. We've forgiven you, but next time you're more careful.” There is a pause before Abah again continues his advice, “You have become a husband now, whose actions will be followed by your wife. You must be a good priest in order to be an example to your children.”

“So Abah and Umi received Vita in our family? Although he is not from ...”

“Nothing is different in our eyes, son. Everything looks the same,” said Umi interrupted her son's speech.

Yudha rubbed her chest in relief because Uminya received Vita in her family with open arms. Yudha had expected that Umi was the most sincere woman he had ever known and had. Many times Yudha expressed her gratitude and gratitude, before Yudha finally resolved the next problem at Rahma's house. Meet that family.

***

“Mas Yudha where to? How could he leave me alone like this.”

Half a day passed felt very long for Vita to be in the Al Fatir family mansion. For a new person like Vita, she was quite confused being here. Supposedly, Yudha did not leave as long as it left her.

There was nothing he did today but wait for Yudha's return, hoping anxiously. Jealousy is certainly there. Afraid that her husband might secretly meet Rahma without her knowledge.

But was Yudha really able to do that? Doesn't that man know enough what makes this marriage stained?

But it cannot be denied, Ustaz the holiest, can do error. Because the toughest test of men in life is women, no matter how deep they have faith.

“Usually the old Mas Yudha did not go, Bi?” ask Vita who is already familiar with Bi Retno, the only domestic assistant in this house. About fifty years old.

“Depends on the go Non. At five o'clock, he arrived home. But if to other places, yes can not be ascertained,” Bibi replied with a smile. “Contact only if you want to know Non,” he said again giving him advice.

“The number cannot be reached,” the answer is full of disappointment.

Until the night Vita waited, but Yudha did not go home let alone contact him. That night without Yudha beside him, Vita cried late.

****

Thank you for these three guys....