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Final Decision

Yudha had not been home all night. Currently he is at a station, just let himself be toyed with waves of anxiety— without knowing which direction the actual road is to be taken. There is an intention to be a coward by going as far away from this city as possible leaving all the problems he faces. But the faces of the family members he loved kept looming in his memory, so his footsteps were heavy to move. Then by itself, his body stopped in this place like a vagrant.

Gamang, what he had to say to Vita because last night, he could not avoid a reality. That there is a promise of debt that must be repaid.

The heart pumps faster when it enters Rahma's house. Especially when looking at the face of Rahma (Nely) who is no longer friendly as usual. Not wrong again, Yudha suspects that he already knows what really happened.

Unfortunately at such times, Mr. Ilyas was not at home so he had to talk to women; the weak gemulai who were actually more difficult to discuss. Unlike men who have a wider headroom so they can decide things more wisely. That is why they are trusted as leaders.

“Can I meet Rahma, Mom?” yudha said as the man was already welcome into the living room.

“Rahma does not want to go out, from the morning. He also did not want to be met by anyone. Including me, his own mother.” Nely stared at me. One hand held his chest which also felt a tremendous pain, imagining that he was in his daughter's position now.

“Can I come in, Mom. I only spoke at the door of his room if he did not want to go out. I'm sure he'll listen to me from inside there.”

Yudha did not hear the permission of his request. Instead, she heard a mother's pain about what her child was going through.

“My son's heart is broken. Too bad for her,” occasionally the middle-aged woman rubbed her wet cheeks. “The man who has always been his dream every day, many years, even married another woman.”

Yudha looked down in front of the old woman. His tongue is too thick to speak. Any defense cannot be justified. Even though Yudha explained, he still could not give him a way out, other than both had to accept.

“Yudha .. please answer truthfully, on what basis did you leave Rahma like this? What's my daughter's fault with you?” ask Bu Nely on the sling. “You've been in contact for a long time, haven't you? Everyone knows your relationship. You guys look very compatible. Dear mother Yudha as her own child, please do not make us ashamed.”

“Not Rahma wrong, Mom. I was wrong,” Yudha replied after being silent for a while. “Rahma is very good, towards my family as well. He was also considered as his own son by Umi Ros. Coincidentally, Umi has no daughter so she is very affectionate with him.” There was a pause for a few seconds before then Yudha continued, “What happened to me, starting from an accident.”

“Yudha made a mistake with that woman?” Nely's mother asked carefully.

“Yes, I did wrong, but the responsibility I showed ended up being a slander. I was too careless to stay at the girl's house and ended up being a wedding that we didn't actually plan. Even at that time, we did not know each other well.”

“That means, Nak Yudha still loves my son?” ask Nely expectantly. Not yet had Yudha answer, Nely said even more surprising things. “If yes, marry Rahma ...”

The deg!

Instantly Yudha raised her head to look at Mother Nely, to be sure; was it true what she had just said?

“I already have a wife, Mom,” Yudha said shortly.

“Many men in the world have more than one wife, and they get along. Rahma is a good boy. You also know it—if not, where maybe you love him. I'm sure, surely you will remain a family that sakinah.”

“But not necessarily Vita wants to accept honey,” replied Yudha later.

“Don't you think before that, that there is a Rahma that you must also defend? Even more worthy because he loves you so much and waits for you so long. You've asked Rahma, son. Don't forget that.”

“I am not a prophet who can do justice in all things. There will always be a difference in the number of love feelings I have and that can skew to one of them. And that would hurt one of my other wives. There is even one school that states that polygamy is an act that is makruh the law.” Yudha explained it simply so that Nely's mother could understand it easily.

“Mother will not worry because Rahma will get it from Nak Yudha. Because I know how you love each other. But know that what is meant by God is just things (apparently visible); such as shelter, daily needs both born and inward.”

Yudha. “One wife alone weighs her responsibilities in the afterlife .. let alone two, Mom. God will awaken a husband in the worst of circumstances if they cannot do justice to his wives. I am not willing. I have not been able,” said the charismatic man. Even in his most squashed state, he remained calm and dignified.

“Means you don't love my son. Meaning true Mother's guess all this time, you just want to play with her.” Nely's mother stood up. “Ya. Maybe it was my son who was poor. I just pray, I hope he no longer finds a man like you.”

“Not so I mean, Ma'am ..”

It had been Yudha's guess before, it would be difficult for her to talk to a woman. And on his misunderstanding they thought.

“Go!” tell Mother Nely without looking at her. It was obvious that he was holding back his anger.

What can Yudha do to fix all this. Everything has happened and it is impossible to go back to how it was.

Yudha stood up and went out of the house. His steps are heading out. But right in front of the door, Rahma's soft voice called out her name. Stalled him.

“Kak ...”

I don't know what feeling is enveloping so gently. Yudha's heart was called, filled, unable to ignore the girl. Because the guilt is so great.

Yudha turned body. The man smiled happily because he could finally see Rahma again. Even with a different status.

Rahma replied with a smile. He tried to look fine even though the scars of sadness still seemed clear in his swollen eyes. Rahma held out the book that Yudha knew was hers.

“This is the diary I picked up in your room when Brother Yudha left. Your handwriting is good, I just read it earlier, and I really like it.”

After reading Yudha's diary and listening to her confession just now, Rahma felt hopeful.

Yudha received the book. He smiled in shame because the contents of the book were the outpouring of his heart that had so adored the woman in front of him.

“You read everything?” ask Yudha then.

Sontak Yudha nodded. “You will never forget.”

Yudha answered honestly, his chest cavity is still mostly filled with Rahma's name. It was not an easy thing for him to forget the love that had been lodged there for a long time. But Yudha forgot something that this statement was not worth telling another woman, because she was a married man. Painful if this confession is heard in Vita's ear.

Rahma smiled. “I am indeed hurt brother Yudha married Vita. Look at this, until I cry all day.” Rahma showed her puffy eyes and red nose. “But if Sister Yudha loves me, I don't think it's a problem. We knit again our relationship that has been broken. I am willing to be second. I'll understand and won't complicate your position.”

Spotlight Rahma's eyes softened. I looked at him waiting for an answer.

“Don't you remember your promise, brother? It's not like you're gonna marry me. Promise is debt and you must pay it off,” sidelines Rahma. “I will never ask how much Yudha loves your other wife, because I know it is not. And I won't sue him either.”

“But, I ..” Yudha was in a state of concern. In his extremely difficult position, he only found a thorny path that he inevitably had to cross. Even if you have to be willing to bleed.

“Soaring!” suddenly Yudha gasped while someone hit her left shoulder. Because without realizing it, he walked too to the middle so that it makes it difficult for other road users. The moment his daydreams ran out, making him return to reality. The most difficult reality of life!

***

Vita's disappointment is clearly still there because her husband didn't come home all night. But now it is not too felt anymore, because there is something that is very pleasant and comforting to his heart. Umi Ros came home from the hospital today and went straight to see her.

Unexpectedly, Umi stretched out her arms to hug her small body and kissed her forehead sincerely. For a moment, Vita felt like she was returning to her long-gone mother, as she felt so comfortable in her arms.

Vita thought this approach would be difficult because at first they did not know each other. After all, from the story that Vita with from Bi Retno, Umi Ros really loves Rahma. But apparently not at all. Umi Ros did not look at her differently. So did Abah and Alif.

Yes, the old man is not much different from his brother did not even want to call him Big Brother because he was much younger.

“Twenty years. Very young, yes. Yudha is already two eight, Alif is also two six,” said Umi Ros at the time Vita was in his room. In addition to having more together to get to know each other better, he also still has to be accompanied because the situation is still very weak, even to just walk was still difficult.

“But what looks not like a twenty-year-old. Maybe because Vita is used to being independent .. so Vita can be more mature,” said Umi Ros again.

Actually that does not seem so, because actually in the heart of Vita still has a high ego. For a girl of the same age as Vita, the problem of love is still everything to her.

“Already lunch hour, Mi. Umi has to take medicine too right?” ask Vita.

“Iya. Cook what in the back?”

“Vita was cooking chicken soup.”

“Oh, yes?” Umi Ros looks very enthusiastic. “Umi want, Son. Umi also want to try your cooking.”

“Awhile, yes. Vita get it.”

Umi nodded. He faithfully waited for his son-in-law to return by bringing him lunch.

Vita is busy in the kitchen. His steps were so eager to heat up the soup, then put it in a medium-sized bowl after the soup was heated.

“Sup is good, Non. Definitely Umi Ros likes,” said Bi Retno makes Vita more confident. “I get the rice, yes.”

“Iya, Bi. Thanks.”

A few minutes passed, after all was ready on the tray, Vita returned to Umi Ros's room. Take the food yourself carefully.

His smile also grew even more when he saw Yudha had returned home. Behind the slightly open door, Vita found her husband's back, the man was sitting in front of Uminya who was lying half-sitting.

‘Thank God you finally came home too.’

But what happened when Vita was about to step foot in? Inadvertently his ears heard their conversation which was quite surprising.

“Yudha decides to stay married to Rahma, Umi ...”

The deg!

Vita's heart is dead. His heart was twisted until it felt so painful.

“Non ... This warm water is left behind,” said Bi Retno approached him while holding out the drinking water. “Typically he likes to drink warm water.”

Vita felt she was no longer there. He seemed to be walking alone in the darkness of such a quiet night. His eyes were open but unable to see, his ears heard but could not catch the sound around. The world seemed to have stopped at that very moment.

Seeing Vita without reaction makes Bi Retno call, “Non, Non!”

There's no answer. Immediately Auntie took the tray that was in Vita's hands, placed it onto the front desk of the room and pulled it away from there.

***

The To Be Continued.