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Do You Know What Happy Means?

“Sometimes I am sad to think about our lives,” Yudha said feelingly. “I never asked, are you happy living with me who can't fulfill your only wish.”

Both are still in the same position lying staring at the roofs of the room sky. Talk to each other about what they feel and what they do during the day they have passed. A habit they have not done for a long time now they can do back— because they use too much of their time with useless debates.

Vita looked to the side. Seeing her husband's face filled with regret. He can catch a note of sadness in it. And after speaking like that, the corners of his eyes looked watery.

“I also often say words that make you angry. Actually—aku not up heart to say it. I just want Mas Yudha to understand my jealous state, that's all,” replied Vita and held her off for a while.

“Sometimes I also think, why should I be upset and angry with the situation that has happened. With circumstances that are impossible to side with, and with all the series of mistakes you make. Actually I can forgive, Mas Yudha can still fix it, but I do not have such a big heart.” Vita shook her head after saying so. “I can't, Mas. If I may choose, I'd better leave your lives.”  

“Whatever the slightest you never happy living with me?” yudha asked after Vita stopped talking. “Do you also regret marrying a man like me?”

“You know what happy means, Mas?” ask Vita a few moments later. “I'm sure you don't understand what real happiness means. Now I ask, is it possible in our household that this quarrel makes me happy?”

There was a rough sigh from Yudha after Vita said that. Shortly thereafter, Yudha woke up. She immediately put on her shirt and sheath again.

Vita looked at what Yudha was doing. The man stood up and left her out of the room. I don't know what he's gonna do.

A little while ago Yudha was out there. Until finally, a few tens of minutes later Vita felt the bed he occupied move. But he chose not to open his eyes because he was very sleepy.

“Have you slept?” yudha asked in her ear. He also felt his face being noticed. Swiped his head and kissed his forehead long enough.

But instead of Vita feeling happy, instead she felt so sad. Can he separate from this man?

When he would stay away, everything Yudha used to do would turn into a memory that would decorate her lonely night.

‘In fact, the one who promised me happiness was the one who hurt me the most. It turns out that the sick expect humans. Thank you for the injury, the way you matured me was amazing.’

The morning comes with a busy Vita doing his activities. After cleaning himself and performing worship, he immediately busied himself in the kitchen. The woman made the nasi uduk cooked in magicom to be more practical, then she just add the completeness only; such as fried vermicelli, omelet, potato balado, sambal, crackers and also orek tempe. Such is the food of the Jakarta people that Vita knows, from all walks of life. And he also tried to adjust.

Yudha was fresh and had changed clothes. Currently the man is on the living room sofa which can be used as a family room. Yudha was busy playing her phone, like typing something. Maybe—reply a message from Rahma, thought Vita.

Indeed Vita had heard that Rahma was drunk, from the mouth of her own husband. That is what causes the man to often be bothered by Rahma. Let his hair curly and his ears billow smoke, wrong himself has a wife a lot!

Even lately Vita knew Yudha himself more often to meet him secretly, but by trying not to reduce the ration of time for him. To be honest Vita was upset, yet she did not want to offend or reveal this to her husband.

So because he was worried that he would disturb the relationship that had just improved. In retrospect, it is better that Yudha should not say it all because Vita herself could not, if again had to hear Yudha defending Rahma's name in front of her.

It's up to them to do anything. Vita was happy in her own way.

Unlike Rahma, Vita is proud of her own baby. This kid doesn't bother him at all. She does not feel nauseous, does not feel dizzy or the usual characteristics felt by other pregnant women.

Vita actually feels naf su eat it increasing. Therefore, Vita only found out about her pregnancy too late. Indeed, at that time he was late, but Vita thought it was only because of stress or fatigue. Never expected before that he had gained such trust this fast.

Not far from Vita standing, there was Yudha who had been out since when to watch him. His forehead also frowned to see his wife was smiling to herself.

“There are more self-smiling,” he said made Vita suddenly raised her head.

“Eh, Mas Yudha.” Vita lighted a little of her hair flying and made her face a little itchy.

Yudha watched Vita more closely. Look at Vita's hand cutting red onions. “Whose baby to smile?” repeat the man asked.

“Who smiles?” elak Vita's.

“You are very obvious if you smile. Because this ...” Poking his wife's dimple. Not bored - his boss Yudha saw the face of his wife is sweet and quite tempting because he is currently wearing a home dress laced with spaghetti. The color is very blending with the color of the skin.

“Don't look on!” midget Vita turned her body to turn her back.

“You told me to look at your back?”

“See the others can be.”

Again, Yudha approached to hug. But just as the hand was coiled, he took it back off. “Why do my eyes hurt?” yudha asked, blinking her eyes. “What are you cutting?”

Vita couldn't hold back her laughter. “Red charmer,” said later. “Why is Mas Yudha in pain? Though I cut it from earlier is fine.”

Yudha washed her face in the sink washing dishes while rubbing her eyes. “Fucking red charmer!” slowly swear. “Same people just picky.”

“Each him do not get near people anymore complicated. That's the result.”

“What's wrong? I just want to be close to my wife.”

Vita still laughed at him so that Yudha could not help herself to revile him. Tickle her until Vita is completely overwhelmed and repeatedly yells for mercy.

“That's karma for a polygamous husband. Still lucky you do not fry it into a pedal loh, Mas.”

But Yudha had refrained from being offended by his wife's words, which sometimes had a point.

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Seriate.