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But not Now

Vita hurriedly wiped her tears behind Yudha's back before they stretched out a hug. He was not wanting to show this sadness even though his chest felt tight and narrow.

Although it occurred to him in his mind to swear loudly that he hated this man and his favorite wife—but strangely, he could not do it. The more Vita hates Yudha, the more she loves him.

The two stretched out a hug, Vita smiled and tried as hard as possible. “Congratulations yes, Mas,” he said so because he could not say anything else again.

Yudha nodded and rubbed her cheeks slowly. In his heart, Yudha understood that this hurt Vita. But he had no idea that his response would be so dramatic once later after this.

“Do you not want to ask me about that?” ask Vita. “We haven't talked about it yet, have we?”

“Ya, sure. I want to have a child with you too. But not now.”

“Waiting for what?” ask Vita immediately with a disappointed look. “Waiting to see you guys happy first?”

“Not so. First record our wedding files. We take care of it now, yeah. Anyway your age ...”

“That's not all an excuse,” concluded Vita rather ketus. “Maybe you don't want to have children from me. Aye right?”

“Do not misunderstand. Misunderstanding will only harm you yourself,” Yudha warned.

Vita swallowed her saliva with great difficulty. And quickly turned around to cover his brazen eyes that passed the saltwater without being allowed.

“I go back first,” he said quickly. But just a few steps, Vita stumbled to cause his body to fall and suddenly made Yudha run to catch him.

“You are why the hell?” his wife's body to stand. “Slightly angry, slightly-little angry.”

“It's okay,” he replied holding his breath.

“Why did your voice change?”

Vita grew increasingly furious at this joke question. “What is so unusual about your views on women—so I repeatedly hear you ask ‘what is wrong with you?’ I am obviously jealous of your happiness. My chest hurts. Didn't you see it? Even I am in front of your eyes.” Vita took off Yudha's hand which was still touching her. “Least.”

This statement again made Yudha stand. Confused what to do.

Clamps. The bathroom door was closed. Inside, a woman calmed down with her mouth smothered so that the sound of weakness would not be heard until it came out.

‘I told you earlier. But you are insensitive and I will not repeat it again until you realize it yourself.’

Ten minutes later, Vita came out of the bathroom. There was Yudha waiting for him there. The man was about to touch her again but Vita immediately stepped aside. “Do not touch.”

“Yes Allah why else is this Vita?” Yudha asked with a hunting breath.

“I have wudhu.”

“Say you are angry,” said Yudha later. “I just got home from work, just arrived from a distance. Just try this time you welcome your husband better in order to—”

“Quite Vita!” yudha could not help himself anymore. “You say like this as if you were the one who suffered more than anyone. I keep my word from yelling at you. But you're the one who always started it, luring me to anger.”

“You were the one who caused it!” exclaim Vita does not want to lose.

“Always ... You only put it this way.” Yudha's teeth were beating. Infuriated by his wife's explosive emotions. “Didn't you like me coming here?”

“Yes, I have always been like this. I am not a gentle wife, nor a graceful wife nor a wife who can always calm you down. Only Rahma can do it. Go, just meet him. Don't come see me. If you need to divorce me.”

“Vita?! Hold yourself a little to not say that word!” yudha snapped again with his chest up and down. “That's why the word talak is only given to men. Because this is why.”

“But the power bestowed on men tends to be misused. For example like you,” reply Vita does not want to lose.

“I was wrong, but your attitude is also unjustified. You are too rebellious.”

“Do not close your eyes, Mas. Wail yourself, you are also selfish. You seem to force me to accept and must still give my best after whatever you do. It was as if women were not allowed to have an absolute taste. Islam teaches us to glorify women, not force them to accept all circumstances that hurt them,” Vita was silent for a moment to give a moment of pause in his speech. “Stop carry religious names to justify polygamy. Polygamy is a Sharia. But the reasons they use, must use the basic reasons. If you use it for the reason you love it, you are wrong!” he continued with a pressing voice.

Yudha was stunned. He's a man, but he's always running out of words to talk to his wife.

Low education cannot be a measure that they are less educated people. Like the woman in front of him.

There was a pause of silence between them for a few minutes, before Yudha finally came back saying, “Come on you to the room, calm yourself first. We talk again after this.”

On that night, the two did not say hello even though the two slept together. It is much better than arguing with each other.

The next day, it was still the same. Yudha ate outside because Vita would not ask him at all. Even included in the affairs of ready-to-prepare clothes and food. Vita kept her mouth shut even though she had tried repeatedly greeting him first.

Yudha remained there. It is highly unlikely that he will return to Rahma because it could raise many questions. After all, he did not want to make Vita become even more angry and resentful towards him. Yes, that is all Yudha can do for her one stubborn wife.

On the third night, Yudha could hear Vita again. After repeatedly persuading the man and seducing him in various ways.

So, has the woman's outlook and attitude changed?

Yes, for a while the tension subsided. But Yudha believed this would not last long. As long as Vita is still always filled with jealousy, their relationship remains so—and it might last a lifetime if she is destined to still have both.

Only with Rahmalah, his life felt serene and comfortable. Even so, the woman never interjected, rebutted or protested. He always welcomed her well. Especially now that she knows that Rahma is pregnant. Therefore Rahma is still in the first step, the woman he loves the most.

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The To Be Continued.

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