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Jealous of Ros

 

18.

Naya threw the pregnancy test she had just used into the garbage dump behind the house. Again, the woman swallowed a lump of disappointment. Always—saja like that at the end of the month. Waiting for an empty hope.

Her inner being was very sick and jealous after hearing her elder sister was pregnant again. While he—once never.

“There is no way Haikal is in trouble, because Ros will already have two children. I must be alone. Because I've been married twice—and I don't have one. It is true what Musfira said. I am barren.”

Naya as much as she likes, “I'm not a perfect woman. I should be grateful that there are still men who want to accept me all the shortcomings. Forgive me for not knowing this self, O Allah.”

“What's wrong?” ask Haikal who just went into the kitchen. Sontak Naya instantly wiped away her tears even though suspicion remained unavoidable.

“Did I hurt you?” ask Haikal sensitize. He raised his face which avoided eye contact.

Naya shook her head, “No. You never hurt me. You guys are so nice and I feel lucky to have a family like you,” looks so obvious.

“Then, what makes you so?”

“Maybe, I just got hurt with my expectations being too high.”

“What do you expect?” haikal asked him to be honest, “tell me, what my mistake let me fix.”

“I want to have a child, Kal... I want to have a child,” Naya cleanly after a long time, her eyes are very sad, “but every month I wait always like this the result, the result is,” continue again with a puddle of tears that wet the cheeks.

Haikal immediately hugged his wife to try to calm down, “Nay, I never demanded you to be able to give me a child as well. So, go through everything as it is. It may not be, and God still wants you to be more patient.”

“Where is possible? I'm almost at menopause. I'm 37 years old.”

At least Naya knows, at this age it is very worrying for women to be able to conceive.

“Nothing is impossible in this world if God has willed,” said Haikal trying to encourage his second wife. Although he has been told by a doctor, that the treatment that has been done is indeed disturbing this female reproductive device.

“Why did you marry this woman who lacks so much, Kal? Why don't you just divorce me so I don't feel depressed.”

“Maybe it's been my way of life like this. I never intended to divorce any of you, except death.”

Naya looked at him meaningfully, Haikal's words just now, which somehow kept coming to her mind. I should have been dead, so I didn't disturb your happiness.

A few minutes passed, after Naya calmed down, Haikal took her to meet with Ros. The man thought that Naya was just lonely so his way of speaking was a little slurred.

“Why did you bring me here?” naya protested as soon as they reached her in-laws' house. The woman did not like this place too much because it could make her heart even more jealous. Unfortunately, her husband was less sensitive.

“We will talk to Ros. He's been drunk lately, so Yudha can stay where you used to be so you're not too lonely

Naya looked down inside. She was powerless to resist even though her husband's thoughts often contradicted her.

And as usual, Ros was the warmest person to welcome his honeymoon sister.

“Unni?” as soon as the woman opens the door, “ayo, enter, enter.” She turned to her smiling husband, “Bi?” call it that which will change over time.

“Ampun, Yes Rabb. Lumbago grandma, cu. You don't want to be silent.”

Seeing that, Naya immediately took the initiative to reach it. “Let him with me, Bun.”

“Yes, already, because there is a substitute, Grandma took a shower first, yes,” Dawiya said to take a nose of her grandson.

“Ros, in the future, Yudha will be more often with Naya. Can it?” pinta Haikal carefully as soon as Dawiya leaves. But without them knowing, it turns out Dawiya listened to him from a distance. “Naya is often lonely, she needs a friend.”

Every woman has a different personality. Unlike Ros, Naya is indeed the type of woman who tends to think too much about her feelings. So he just stuck there. Though in fact, Naya can divert her mind by busying herself and doing various things.

“Billah. Uni Naya, Uminya too. So it can be once,” reply Ros strongly agree. Because he also needs a lot of rest. He was so happy to feel like this. “You guys make a fishing rod, Ni... who knows, because it is close to children, so pregnant nular.”

“Oh, yes? Can it be?” tanya Naya was very enthusiastic.

“He said, so.”

“Mitos,” sahut Haikal.

“Eh, if you don't believe yes, already. Up.” Ros flicked his shoulders, before he remembered something, “A minute, I get you a drink.”

“Ros, I can take it myself,” prevent Naya.

“It's okay, don't hesitate.” Ros didn't heed his words. He headed back and came back with a tray filled with drinks and some treats.

During the day Naya was there, even decided to stay because the day was already late at night. Incidentally, there was indeed an empty room on the second floor.

At first, it was as if he had to come to this place. But after being lived, it turns out to be friends with Ros, quite fun too. Besides being jolly, Ros also appreciates her a lot. A very good listener and never interrupts his speech. Therefore, his sadness can be slightly cured.

However, it was felt before he went back to experiencing something. Because of his night, from up there, he saw the romance and warmth of a small family. Ros, Haikal and their son were joking and laughing at the seat.

Either true or just his feelings. Because according to his vision, only with Roslah, Haikal could laugh like that.

Really Naya is jealous to see how Ros is treated by Haikal who looks always pushy. Contrary to him who always starts first, while Haikal just resigned or just provoked later.

Naya noticed one mistake, “I shouldn't have peeked at their intimacy.”

In fact, Haikal has repeatedly advised: a wife should not peek at her husband's togetherness with another wife, nor should she show off her affection with in front of another wife to keep each other feeling.

But who's really wrong here?

Naya, or the two of them?

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Seriate.

God willing, a few more chapters are finished. Patience, yes, if soon there will be someone missing.