This Debaran Forever

Fill Heart Bagas

Ayu's mother understood enough that she could not return as before to Emi and Bagas because of her attitude that had disappointed Bagas and Emi.

" Mi. I'm sorry for all the mother's mistakes. I know you were wrong for leaving Bagas again. But what's wrong mom chose ibi happiness in this mother's old days? I just want to enjoy a quiet life in my old age. Let me be happy now Mi.."

Emi heard that with her emotional condition that had not been as stable immediately sneered at Ayu's mother. Emi could no longer hide the expression on her face. He was already very tired of pretending to be okay and holding back his emotions.

" Happiness, Tranquility, Comfort. What else did you mention? mom said she wanted all that. Did you get all? Is mom happy now? is it calm and comfortable? How does it feel to leave a biological child for your own happiness? so much a mother. I'm ashamed to say you're a mother. It's true what I said first. You're not worth calling mom by anyone. Selfish.this will not lead you to happiness ma'am. If you find it difficult and difficult, never look for me or Bagas. Like the mother has now thrown Bagas, let's just say we have no relationship with the mother anymore. "

Emi said so then left Ayu's mother who stared sadly at Emi's departure. He loves Bagas. But in order to survive he could not rely on Bagas. In addition, who will help Bagas medical expenses when he is there. At least he didn't add to Emi's burden on the house.

Ayu's mother just doesn't understand. If a mother's support can reduce her child's pain. Can be more enthusiastic in undergoing all trials. Only support and prayers are willing. Emi also did not sue Ayu to help Bagas medical expenses. But Ayu's mother's actions disappointed them.

Bagas may not have the heart to say this to his mother. But Emi, she was very hearty because she was also tired of bearing all the burdens she felt.

" I love Bagas Mi. It's just that, I don't want to add to your burden anymore. Dab mom still wants to enjoy her old days comfortably. I hope you can understand what I mean. "

Emi who had reached her house, she went straight to the toilet outside first. Before entering the room to meet Bagas.

" Sister, why so long? sis Bagas did not want to get close to me at all. He won't even eat when I bribe. To date, he has not taken any medication. "

Hearing her sister's report, Emi's head became heavier. She no longer understood how she convinced her husband to accept the help of others when he was not around.

" So, look at Bagas first."

Now sometimes pity Emi who is too forced to do what she is doing right now. But Sekar can't do anything else. Because this is Emi's choice to take care of Bagas. He can only pray for his brother in health in taking care of his sister-in-law.

" Sister Emi bushib day getting thinner. What's so stressful he faced Bagas' brother huh... My brother never told anyone. So how do I or others know his true state. "

He could only say that when he was alone. He could not possibly say this in front of his parents or anyone else. Because it will make Emi lectured and increasingly burden Emi.

Emi who was already inside the room, she saw Bagas closing his eyes. And Emi knows she's just pretending to sleep .

Bagas did not reply and still closed his eyes. Emi patiently waited for Bagas answer by stroking Bagas' shoulder to persuade Bagas to talk to him. And end that show.

" Yank... "

" Are you tired of taking care of me Mi? "

Bagas' question was like a knife stuck in Emi's heart. Just now he complained and said he was tired of dealing with Bagas's behavior. Now her husband asks this. Emi was confused to answer how. He had no problem taking care of Bagas as long as Bagas was not this emotional.

" I'm not bored, baby.. "

" But I know you are very tired of taking care of me Mi. You often hold back emotions when facing my behavior. I'm aware of that. I don't want to be with anyone else because I want only you to take care of me. I know it's exhausting. But why did you insist that I do chemo when you can't keep me? The previous Mi I was able to walk again and I did not trouble you. Why did you choose me as I am now? I cannot accept my current situation. I can't accept my weak self and can't do anything. Do you understand that, Mi? I was sick when I had to undergo the treatment process. Seeing that my hair had to fall out and my body was weakened this way.You understand what I feel? "

Bagas said so while his eyes were closed but his tears were flowing continuously. Emi also closed her lips as she was also crying at this moment. Everything the doctor told him was true. Bagas blamed him for following this treatment.

Bagas has not been able to accept the situation he is in now. And Bagas's pain like this makes Emi feel even more guilty. He who wants to do all kinds of treatment for the healing of Bagas. He was also the one who complained when he was tired of Bagas' changing attitude.

" Sorry yank... "

" Why are you fighting so hard for me Mi... ? it's the same torture for me. I was born and inwardly tortured before I died. It hurt so much you know. Can I ask to let me die quickly without feeling this way again? "

Emi was crying because of Bagas. If he leaves Bagas without treatment at this time, Bagas will leave him as soon as possible. But if he forces Bagas to continue to do treatment, he does not know until when Bagas will be able to survive with this condition continues to weaken.

" Yank.. Please fight yank. "

" That means you'd rather me to be tormented this time then? Mi.. I want your clairvoyance. I will accept now what your decision is. I still love you forever. I'm just saying I'm tired. That'sallthatis. "

Their cries made Sekar who had heard the talk come crying softly behind the door.