This Debaran Forever

Wearied

Since the last time Emi contacted Ayu's mother, Emi was no longer able to contact her in-laws. Emi has tried to contact him repeatedly but can't.

When Bagas is seen asking for his mother, Emi always switches the conversation. Bagas progress in his treatment and therapy was also very good. Even the Bagas feeding hose can be removed by the doctor. Because now Bagas has begun to learn to chew and talk.

Although Bagas' voice was not clear, Emi could understand that. And that's why he wanted to contact Ayu's mother. To provide news about the development of Bagas.

However, Emi always failed in contacting her in-laws. So he also had to lie to Bagas. By saying that his mother could not visit again because she was busy at home.

Bagas is not easy Emi lied. He knew his mother would never come to see him again. So Bagas never talked about his mother again.

The wound in Bagas' heart deepened because of his mother. His mother should not have come by giving Bagas hope if he could not keep his promise either.

" Mommy.mom shouldn't have done this. At that time, I did not come and apologize. I won't feel pain like this anymore. My old pain I can take. I realized it was only my wife I had. But mom came and gave me hope. When I hoped for that happiness, my mother immediately snatched it back from me. The wound this time was very painful. I don't know what else to do with everything. Right now only Emi is my encouragement and my support to keep fighting. "

Bagas daydreamed in his room while Emi was in the kitchen to make a food bag.

Lying when said Emi is currently fine just with Bagas with himself in the house. But this is better than him losing Bagas. Emi often feels fatigue in living her day while caring for Bagas. But Emi tried hard and strong in living all that.

Not to mention the problems that come to him in a tubi make him become more fragile and want to be aware. But his backrest is not there. At the moment Emi can only hold everything on her own.

" I didn't expect that mom would do this again. I think you really did apologize in advance. But it turns out mom just made the problem even bigger. I know Bagas knows everything. But he just kept quiet. It's like we're lying to ourselves right now. We know each other but always say we're okay. "

Emi was still thinking about all the problems that were weighing on her. Although Bagas has now shown a lot of progress, Emi is always vigilant with all Bagas conditions. Because Bagas arrived could have immediately decreased his condition. That's what keeps Emu's mind from ever quieting down.

" The burden that I am feeling right now I cannot share with anyone. Who can I ask to tell you about how I feel and complain about how tired I feel. I was so embarrassed to have to burden my family again. So where should I go now? "

All that Emi experienced and the burden that Emi felt was in the beginning when Bagas was still in the hospital when he experienced high heat. And as she was about to return home to pick up clothes at home for Bagas, Emi saw her house was falling apart and the door was broken. Obviously it proves his house was broken down by thieves.

Emi who saw her house was a mess and all scattered on the floor. Directly slumped sitting down. He acted to think that a tubi-tested ordeal was approaching him. The husband is still in the hospital and now his home is being treated by thieves.

" Why is this so? trials always come along gini..what else will happen later? can I face all this? "

Emi wanted to give up when she found the trials that had tubed coming on her. He felt he was not strong enough to hold on. And take care of her sick husband. But when he saw the wedding photo with Bagas, Bagas' smile in the photo strengthened him. He must be able to survive with everything.

" Well, I won't give up easily. Anyway, this just needs to be done. Nothing is missing at this time. I just need to make sure Bagas's health is current. And for the house, I will slowly fix it. "

Emi's spirit appeared at that time, but it was lost when she found out that her mother-in-law was throwing a tantrum again and it was as if she was abandoned by everyone. Bagas is like pretending to be happy. So Emi was getting depressed.

Finished with the cooking show, Emi returned to the room to give food to Bagas and clean his body.

" k. hu... he.. yeah.? "

Bagas question that is still brick in the Emi hear, still Emi understands. Bagas asked *what he's tired*. As much as Emi's energy held back her tears in front of Bagas so as not to spill. But Bagas' hand made Emi shed her tears.

Happy tears and wild sadness just like that from Emi's eyes. He was very happy when he knew Bagas' hand could be moved again. But he felt sad because of Bagas' question as if he wanted to share his burden.

" gases... "

Fixed bagas stroked Emi's hand with a small touch. So Emi was crying. He spilled all the sadness in his heart to Bagas back then.

" I know you're so tired of everything, honey. If you want to give up, go ahead. I'm not gonna what. You have the right to choose to be happy without burden. I realize it's just a burden for you. But can I be selfish and hope that you will stay with me even if you are in pain? are you capable, dear? If not, I'm ready to leave this moment and choose to stop fighting. "

Emi began to realize what she was doing. And he won't burden Bagas anymore. So as quickly as possible she turned her weeping of sorrow into the weeping of happiness in front of Bagas.

" You can move your hand baby... "