This Debaran Forever

Why You Forced Me

The relationship between Emi and Bagas is getting worse and worse due to Bagas' unsettled emotions and the pressure Emi is experiencing.

Sometimes for the sake of being able to breathe quietly, Emi deliberately went out of the house by saying buy things in the stall so that she could leave Bagas for a while. And the one who took care of Bagas was Sekar at that time.

But indeed Bagas who was never willing to respond to others, he could not stay away from Emi for a long time. That also made Emi unable to work anymore and the hospital decided she was in the rest.

Emi can come back later to work when the work is finished.But if not, he does not work and is not in salary anymore. Unlike the previous Emi is still in salary even though it has not worked for a long time. It was calculated first by the magical house.

But now the life has changed. Because Emi took too long off and burdened her other friends. The hospital made this decision.

Frankly, Emi objected. Because he will start to lack income for his living expenses. But how else. He has to accept everything his boss has decided. He also realized he had been bothering them a lot all along.

" Emi. komo second will be done about 2 weeks. Is your husband better? Have you given the milk and medicine prescribed? "

Currently Emi is in the room of a specialist doctor who handles Bagas. He wanted to inquire about the change in the conversation Bagas during this time.

He felt it was more difficult to care for Bagas now than he used to. Bagas used to still look affectionate to him and still pay attention to him. But at this time he is more often snapped even by Bagas because of trivial problems.

" All I did, Doc. It's just. why there is a change of mood to Bagas late this yes doc? "

" Did he get angry faster and act childish? "

" To get angry quickly Doc. But to act childish is not so. "

* You know Emi. When you can walk and arrive paralyzed can't do anything. You will always ask God for death. I'm sure Bagas was like that too. After that he was given the opportunity to return to walking and creativity even though he did not fully return to normal. How's feeling? He must be very grateful for that. "

Emi continued to listen to all the doctor said and thought about it again. Everything the doctor said was true. It was experienced by Bagas all this time.

" Sekaranv arrived when he did the treatment again and again could not do anything. What's he feeling? Devastated wounded and sorry to have made the decision to seek treatment. Who told him to seek treatment, he also thought because the person who encouraged him to seek treatment was getting worse at the moment."

Emi understood finally the anger Bagas was from where. He was still upset that Emi had made this decision. And he always persuaded Bagas to follow all existing treatments.

" Emi's point... Bagas could not yet accept himself who returned helpless. The rejection in her heart made her emotions not as stable and considered all wrong in her eyes. When you say something good, he will always think you are wrong. Have you ever positioned yourself when you were in her position? how do you feel? Honestly, I have also said before all the risks that will occur and the possibility of recovery for Bagas how much on you. But you still chose this path. "

Emi she's not answering anymore. It is clear that he is currently in a mess and needs friends to talk to and release his burden.

" No doc. I just need a break. "

Emi's refusal obviously can't the doctor change anymore. He just suggested. But if the patient does not want to follow yes he can not do anything.

" Alright. set the diet and rest Bagas well. I hope he 2 more weeks can be better to undergo the next chemo."

Emi nodded her head and walked out of the room after uttering an irradiated speech.

Emi did not go home unless she was sitting in the hospital garden. He felt a great burden to return home at this time. He felt a lot of weight on his shoulder that pressured him to do nothing.

" Are you blaming me for your current state of yank? I just want to do my best in your treatment. But the risk is like this. I have no problem taking care of you who are paralyzed and can do nothing. But what makes me a burden is your attitude that does not want to cooperate with me in doing everything. You always blame me for things. At this time, the house feels so bad for me. "

Emi is still thinking about everything that happened and the words of the doctor who said Bagas actually felt he made a mistake and did not accept the situation now.

" If you haven't been able to accept your situation like this, what should I do? the mask I wear in front of you weighs heavily on me. I can't yell at you mad at you or show you dislike for me because you're so easily offended at everything. I'm just as tired as Bagas... But who can I talk to right now? "

Long enough Emi was in the park and finally he returned home because it had been contacted many times by Sekar told him to go home quickly because Bagas wanted him next to him.

On the way, Emi sees Ayu's mother buying fruit on the side of the road. And they looked at the eyes. So Ayu's mother had to say hello to Emi.

Although Ayu's mother still tried to avoid Emi because she felt guilty for leaving her child again.

" Emi... Where did you end up? "

" Consul doctor ma'am... "

" How is Bagas? mothering... "

" Bagas is fine ma'am. There I will always be near Bagas no matter what happens. "

Ayu's mother knew that she was being insinuated by Emi. But he knew it was a fact he could not change. He raised his son for the happiness of himself who does not know until when.

Because since the incident of the quarrel of Ayu's mother and her husband because of Adi, until now Ayu's mother is still considered like a stranger in the house. All the attitudes and behaviors of her husband had changed to her.