This Debaran Forever

I'm Afraid of Losing

Doctor Jemmy's words are true. It was actually Emi who was not ready to leave. So as long as her husband was still breathing, she was already quite happy for it.

" You don't want Bagas to leave you Mi? "

Emi can't say anything. Maybe he could be left behind by the people he loved. Even if she could, she wanted to leave her husband first. It was because he was so afraid of losing. Emi is still very dependent on her husband.

At least she knew her husband was still around, she was already very happy. It means he's not alone anymore.

" Mi. You must learn to recap Bagas Mi.. "

Emi immediately got emotional hearing someone say that to her. He felt that the person who said it meant more than God. It was as if he knew someone would live to die. That's what makes Emi emotional and do not like it.

" Jem. I know you helped me a lot in Bagas' care. But those words of yours, have crossed the line Jem. You know when someone's life dies from your words. Never go before God Jem. "

" You want to do the surgery that the doctor said? When are you going to torture Bagas Mi? Are you in love or afraid of losing? Don't be selfish to be a person. You don't feel how she feels pain during treatment. You are just a supporter. The one who is undergoing this is Mi. Realize it. "

Emi still does not accept the allegations made by Jemmy. He still wants to justify himself. He felt he was doing this just to heal Bagas. He just wants to try first. He will not give up for now.

" You're just a doctor Bagas Jem. keep your limits. Even if you're my friend, I won't hesitate on you as you continue to do this. Just so you know, I won't give up until the end. "

Emi immediately left Jemmy's room after saying that. He carried anger in his heart because of Jemmy's words. Although he sometimes justifies what Jemmy says. But he chose to believe what he thought was right.

" why? am I wrong to fight now? Can't I hope for a cure for Bagas? Can't I stay with my husband longer? Why is everyone suggesting that? can't they see me and Bagas fighting for his recovery? "

Emi kept walking while crying. He still continued to mutter the same thing in his heart. He felt that no one was supporting him at this moment. He felt that everyone was trying to separate themselves from Bagas.

As her crying did not subside, Emi finally went to the hospital park. There he was expressing all the emotions he had. He cried as hard as he could to reduce the burden in his heart.

Jemmy saw that. And he let Emi first vent the emotions that he had been craving. Actually Jemmy from the beginning had followed Emi. He was worried about his friend. He realized that what he said earlier was indeed very painful for Emi. But this needs to be thought about again.

Don't just think about the side of the person you left behind. But think also in terms of the pain suffered by the patient. The patient will be in great pain while doing all kinds of treatment that will increasingly take little by little life. There is no cure from this treatment. And Emi should be able to understand this, 'cause she's a medic, too.

But, because what is faced today is the case of her own family, more precisely her husband. Emi chose to close her eyes and ears. She wanted to do everything she could to make her husband stay with her for longer now.

Emi could not be independent without her husband. Everything has to be her husband. But it affects Emi's performance later as well. Jemmy predicted this. Everything will be connected. And of course Emi will leave her job more often to take care of Bagas.

" I feel sorry for you as my friend.I don't expect more from you. But, you are still stiff and can not be told anything. I hope that what I imagine will not happen to you later.I hope you can pass all these trials stoicly. "

Jemmy immediately left the place and he chose to avoid Emi first. But, he will still take care of Bagas. Because of her profession as a doctor, it did require her to do just that. But as a friend, he just wants his friend to get the best thing.

Emi is still in the park and is satisfied. As for the Holy Father, he felt numb because his son had not yet datanv from meeting with the doctor Jemmy.

He thinks bad things. Because right now Emi is in bad, depressed thinking. Fear of what was told by doctor Jemmy made Emi more depressed. So the Holy Father was worried about his son.

" Mommy.just look for Emi first.... I'm afraid he's why napa. Because it's been a long time. He's unlikely to leave Bagas this long if he doesn't get anything bad"

" Bapk better be here. And the mother who was looking for Emi. "

" Mommy. Let's just father. "

The Holy Father knew his wife would not be able to control her emotions if she saw her son slumped later. It is certain that his wife will further make his son depressed with various requests.

As he was about to approach the Jemmy doctor's room, the Holy Father saw Doctor Jemmy coming out of the treatment room. And that means his son's not in Jemmy's doctor's office.

" Dok... I'm sorry I want her, does the doctor know where my child is? Emi doc. She's my son. "

" Yes sir, he's in the side garden. He's venting his emotions right now.let him be so sir. Let him be more calm."

" Dok how's Bagas doing? "

" We just pray, sir. We doctors will do everything as best we can. "

The Holy Father finally guessed what took his daughter to sow it because Emi heard the news about Bagas.

" Emi must be very sad at the moment. "

The Holy Sir said that while muttering. But still heard by Jemmy. And Jemmy just smiled to respond.