Shackled Two Flavors

Grieve

I could only cry lamenting all the truth that happened, in the taxi I did not know what to do but cry, all I had endured since then, maybe in front of my father I was like an evil and rebellious child but I did all that just to cover up my weaknesses, I don't want to look weak and crybaby in front of the woman who took my father away from my mother and me.

It hurts so much, my heart is breaking and I am confused where to go after this, I intend to meet my mother and immediately have the taxi driver take me to my mother's private apartment, when I got there I saw my mother who got into a luxury car with a man, again I was upset and ran after my mother but unfortunately the car drove too fast that I could not catch up to her, I wanted to follow where mom went but the taxi I was riding before was gone so there was no vehicle I could ride to catch up with mom, I could only sit down with tears that I could not stand.

I turned my head to the night sky with only a few stars, I was alone in the city without direction and purpose, I bowed my head again and cried as much as possible, for a long time I cried there I also did not care even though many people were looking at me with strange looks, maybe because I was crying in a public place with a messy appearance and still wearing a school uniform.

I exhaled a rough breath trying to calm myself down, and got up and left the place, since then I have been determined very strongly never to see my parents again, they had already scratched a wound that was too deep for me, moreover my mother couldn't even feel a hug from him one last time, either, now that I've seen firsthand the real situation, I understand exactly why they haven't contacted me in the past, and it's very difficult for me to contact them.

I walked with an empty mind my head kept thinking about what I was going forward, until I didn't realize that the bus stop had been missed, when I realized I was walking straight back to the bus stop, there was no longer a place to sit, the bench there was full because there were too many people waiting at the stop, finally I could only stand and lean my body on the stop pole, my head lowered because it could not bear the tears that always broke through my defensive wall.

I kept crying sobbing until I didn't realize my bus was gone and the person who was sitting there waiting for the bus was gone, when I turned my head to the bus I was waiting for just passing by, my reflexes immediately ran and shouted trying to catch the bus and hope the bus driver can stop the bus so I can ride.

"Eh ...eh ..bus me, wait...hei...wait for me...aishhhh" I shouted while running in pursuit but unfortunately the bus kept on going.

"Hah.hah...hah...why...why do I have to get all this bad luck...hiks....hiks..." I said shouting on the side of the road while crying sobbing.

The bus was the last bus to go to the village, now I was confused about where to go home there was no vehicle if I stopped the taxi was going to spend my money, I was forced to ask Audy for help, but when I called Audy she didn't pick up my call I called her many times but still no answer, I walked back and sat at the bus stop by myself staring at the clock on the screen of the phone showing at 11:30.

"Huuuuhhhh.It's a shame that Audy didn't pick up my phone, at this hour she might have gone to bed" I suspect.

I was thinking about going back to my mother's apartment or to my father's house but my prestige was too high I couldn't stay at their place, especially after what I had done, I might be able to go back to Mom's apartment, but I think again if I can accept the fact that I've got a new father, I was so confused that the call from Brother Bara gave me a little happiness, at least I could ask him for help.

I immediately raised the call from Brother Bara.

"Hallo...what's wrong?"

"just talk" I replied feeling strange from hearing Brother Bara who spoke nervously,

"That's..anu..why do you want to accompany me to register our school basketball competition tomorrow" said Mr. Bara,

"maybe, brother, but I don't know tomorrow I can go to school or not, you know." I replied restrained,

"what are you?" ask Bara with a high tone, please,

"i can't go home, I'm still in town xx and at this hour where there are public transportation to the village, so it looks like I'll stay here" I explained.

"You're where I'm going to pick you up"

"i'm at the city bus stop xx street.." I replied giving my current address,

"do not go where I am going now" said Brother Bara and the call ended.

Of course I will not go where I end up going where other than waiting for Kak Bara in that place, besides if Kak Bara does not pick me up, I will also still sleep at the bus stop, too, want to go to the hotel my money is not enough, I have no destination other than hanging in the streets, no more, fortunately Brother Bara was there when I needed at least I would not sleep at this stop, it was inconceivable what would happen if I really slept at that stop alone, she said, even though the place is quite crowded and close to a big store shop still I never know what will happen in the future.

I waited long enough to finally fall asleep and when I realized because I felt my body drifting it turns out that Brother Bara took me and put me in his car, I who was still sleepy suddenly woke up and sat up straight with a confused and nervous face.

"Why do you wake up, if you are still sleepy, I will wake you when you arrive" said Brother Bara with a sweet smile.

Ahhh I really melted seeing her smile since I first saw her I did like her but I always threw away that feeling because I didn't want to make hope in someone I couldn't get, especially when considering the events in the MPLS period, I am increasingly convinced that Brother Bara only feels sorry for you so he is so good to me.