Shackled Two Flavors

Crying

I got up and kept bowing lethargic and immediately left without the slightest spirit, I went to the basketball court hall and watched the senior students playing basketball there, while watching them I opened the food that mom made and enjoyed it alone with a feeling of uncertainty.

Without me realizing it slowly tears began to fall from my face when I had tried to ignore the insults of people and I had tried to hold back my tears so as not to fall, but in fact as hard as I tried to hold it still it came out without permission.

"Hiks...hiks! All this because of Fasya bastrad, he sucks!" My gertutuku cursed him while eating the provisions that mother prepared for him before.

I kept trying to stop crying but it was hard and I ended up preferring to take it out at once even though I knew there were a lot of senior men playing basketball.

"Huaaaa...hiks...hiks...why is this world unfair, I want out!" I screamed very loudly as I said the food in my mouth.

I don't know what those kids were thinking they suddenly stopped playing basketball and looked strangely at me, I wanted to cry more and more because of the shame and pain in my heart.

"Huaa...hiks.... Wh-wh-what for? Why are you looking AT ME!" I snorted while continuing to cry loudly.

I know they might call me crazy but after I scream like that they finally kind of ignore me and go back to playing basketball again, there were no other students in the stands and I was alone watching that boring game, I just wanted to feel calm and vent all my pain.

No matter what I looked at, and I kept crying until the kids who played basketball finished playing and one of them a man wearing a white hat walked up to me and he gave me sweep her hands at me suddenly.

"A.what? Why are you giving me this?" I asked in wonder,

The man still did not reply and he kept urging his hand to give the handkerchief to me, I was forced to take it and use one hand to wipe my tears and immediately I returned it to him right then and there.

"This.I don't need your handkerchief, but thank you for caring" I told him.

I was about to leave from there but the man suddenly held my hand and as I turned around he opened the hat that covered half of his face, and how shocked I was when I saw that it was Alvaro, the person I had been looking for, and the person I always expected to come from.

"A.. Alvaro?" My words are stunned.

I wanted to hug her but no pain grew in my heart and she let me down, she left without any news and disappeared just like that then now suddenly appeared again before me with a somewhat different appearance, she said, her hair that she often dyed was now turning shiny black and tidier she also felt a little taller than it had been since the last time I saw her.

"Talita yes it's me, sorry for ever leaving you, can we talk now" he said with a face that was as flat as ever.

I threw out the hand held by Alvaro.

"There's nothing we need to talk about, and I don't know you you're probably the wrong person. Excuse me!" I said pretend I didn't recognize him and then get out of there quickly.

I left holding back my tears when I had just stopped crying before, but because of that fucking Alvaro I started crying again and this time my chest felt even more claustrophobic than before and I felt so devastated.

On the other hand I blame myself for not taking the opportunity just now when Alvaro showed himself in front of me but on the other hand I still feel pain because of it and have not been able to forgive him for everything he has do it to me, he's the one who first made me feel wailed by him he's also the one who gives me little attention so I think he likes me and we're going to be a couple, but in fact, when I opened my heart to him, he left me without any clear news.

How could I accept all that, where my pride was if I forgave him so easily, he also probably wouldn't have regretted his behavior if I hadn't taught him a little lesson, either, but stupidly I myself find it difficult to hold back from being close to her, I want to hug her, hold her hand and eat with her.

It's been a long time and I miss her a lot but when I met her I left her.

"Heu....heu! You idiot! Why didn't I hug her just now? Why did I leave him?" My gertutuku feel confused himself.

Until Fasya passed by me and I didn't realize it but she held me by calling my name loud enough that I stopped my steps and turned towards her.

"Talita wait!" Call Brother Fasya to me,

"Shut up! Why are you so chatty" he said, feeling soft and very different from usual.

I was still stunned and still did not expect that at that time he hugged me in public even all the students who saw him immediately grew shocked and talked to each other about us.

I immediately pushed him and scolded him loudly for his actions which greatly irritated me and would make everyone misunderstand me and him.

"Euhh...Fasya you're nothing at all? Fucking idiot!" I snapped at her emotions and immediately left her.

On the other hand without me noticing apparently Fasya hugged me because she saw Alvaro who followed me secretly behind, she said, therefore he deliberately hugged me to hurt Alvaro and after I left Fasya walked over to Alvaro and patted him on the shoulder slowly one time.

"He's not yours anymore, man!" Said Fasya domineeringly and immediately walked on continuing his footsteps.

Both of Alvaro's hands immediately clenched firmly and his face looked extremely red, he probably held back the emotions and resentment within him then not long after he also continued his steps in the opposite direction between him and Fasya.

While I was in the parking lot and walking towards the campus gate, because Audy had a different schedule with me so I could not go home with her and had to walk and take the bus alone, but when I was in front of the campus gate suddenly a white car that was quite luxurious stopped by my side.

"E...eh...whose car is this why keep pulling over to me?" My gertutuku felt strange and a little disturbed by it.

When the car stopped and someone came out of there again it was Fasya and he offered me a ride, whereas I accidentally saw Alvaro behind Fasya's car not far from where I was standing.

"Talita.want to come home with me?" Offer me.

I was willing to refuse the invitation from Fasya because anyway I did not want to get any help from the person whose calculations seemed to be especially troublesome and always humiliated me.

But because I saw Alvaro back there I immediately received an offer from Fasya quickly and immediately got into his car because I just wanted to see what reaction Alvaro showed if he saw I was close to another man.

"O..ohh, of course, I'll come home with you" I replied while pretending to smile broadly at Fasya.

He also opened the door for me and I felt a little hesitant to get into his car for a while before actually getting inside I glanced at Alvaro first with the tip of my eye and was eager to see reaction from his face.

But unfortunately because he was wearing a helmet and only the eyes were visible I could not turn it off clearly but instead he immediately put on his bike and quickly left the place, he doesn't seem to care about me at all.

And it was even he who seemed more unfamiliar to me than I was to him who was still curious and wanted to see it.

"Defamate fucking Alvaro, I'm sorry to worry about him all this time" I muttered and immediately got in the car with Fasya.

After I entered Fasya said nothing to me and he just focused on driving forward I also did not want to talk to him and continued to turn my face out the window, I was very upset and I felt like I wanted to beat up Alvaro, but I couldn't.

To the point of not feeling like I'm falling asleep on my own and I'm not even aware since when I started getting sleepy and closing my eyes, when I realized suddenly I had slept on my back in my room and I was very surprised when I realized it.

"Why was I suddenly in the room, instead of being in the car with Fasya?" Gerutuku.

I immediately got up and went outside looking for my mother but what I found was even Fasya who was sitting watching television inside my house with her legs crossed like her host.

"Well, what are you doing in my house, get the hell out of here!" I was very upset and stood in front of him.

He continued to ignore me and did not answer me at all he just stared at me for a glance and then again pretended to stare at the television ahead.