Reynald the CEO

Chapter 82 - POV of Anggi

I thought I knew Rashaad, the man who was my future husband. For me Rashaad is a loving, patient, idealistic man, pintat and hmm.. Handsome!

Until now I have not been able to accept his decision to postpone the wedding plans and tell him everything Reynald told him when Rashaad visited Jakarta to take care of the cooperation of their two companies.

Rashaad's decision puts me in a very difficult position. I tried to understand and in the end Yes! I-i understand. But I can't take it because it hurts so much. Rashaad's decision shook both sides of the family. Rashaad spoke 4 points with my father and of course he also faced his parents.

After the tragedy of the cancellation of the wedding plans that night, Rashaad did not talk much more with me. I also took a silent attitude like an angry woman. I'm angry of course! Only a madman would cancel a plan involving two people but never discuss it with me first!

Rashaad left the next day to take a scheduled business trip in advance of the tragedy. Rashaad sent me an email but until a few days passed I had not opened it. I still wish he'd called me but it's just my empty wish.. He didn't give any news! Fucking rashaad!

It's 1 in the morning and I'm still awake. My sleep rhythm has suddenly fallen apart since that day. You guys know that.. The night is usually where various memories burst forth to the surface. I don't know why today I really want to know the news from Rashaad but I also have the prestige to contact him first. He's looking for trouble!

I finally decided to open the email he sent me. I took a deep breath preparing myself to read the words He poured into the email.

Darling, honey,

I'm sorry for canceling our wedding plans, I'm sorry for telling you Reynald's wishes about you.

*I hope you understand... Once I know everything, I feel that it would not be fair for everything if I forced my own will. For now delaying is the best thing I can think of until you feel confident about your decision.

Dear.. As I always tell you, you are the only woman I love and not that I don't want to fight for our relationship.. Not that I don't want to fight for you, but for this one thing I believe in God.

If you were for me, there would be no way for us without me having to selfishly impose my own will.. Without me having to pretend to close my eyes about your heart which is not necessarily for me*.

I'm a man, baby... I can understand and understand very well Reynald's actions and attitude. I'm not asking you to understand about him, how he lived his life after you split up, how hard it is against himself and for a man holding his ego it's very difficult dear. Ego is one of our pride.. Menfolk.

And... About your feelings for Reynald who's 5 years old. I feel like this is all not true..

You need to know about Reynald like it or not. You have to find out for yourself about him. I don't want to weigh in on your decision. I don't want you to know everything after we get married and all that's left is probably just regret not trying it out with Reynald.

I want you to know that the choice is open. You have to do what you feel is right. Ask your own heart, baby.

I don't want any regrets, not from me, not from you. Sorry me...

With love, though,

Rashaadite.

My face completely flooded with tears after I finished reading the contents of the email that Rashaad sent. I immediately grabbed my phone and dialed Rashaad's number. I don't care what country he's in and what time he's in. All I want right now is to call Rashaad!

"Hello..."

I heard Rashaad's voice on my speaker phone. I was silent for a while trying to stop my crying that didn't stop. I took a breath and exhaled it repeatedly trying to control myself.

Rashaad answered nothing.

"It's not fair to me, Rashaad. You know that, right?"

There was no answer from Rashaad. I inhaled a deeper breath so that my mind remained clear and my emotions remained well controlled.

"Tell me, what do I have to do so that we can continue with this wedding plan? Is it hard for you to accept that Reynald is the past? I never even slept with him! There is nothing special about that short relationship!"

"Stop it baby.. You know it's not all about that.."

I became angry. So angry!

"Then what huh? Can't you accept that there's another man who's loved me for years or what?Tell me the same! It's just about your ego Rashaad! You think I'm stuff?! What do you want to love about another man??"

"For the sake of God Anggi! I have to tell you how many times we need to think clearly about all these things. Ask your heart now. Why until 2 years ago I invited you to get married but you always kept silent a thousand languages? Because you're not sure about me!"

"After I know everything, like not liking I have to admit it! Even if you try to set your heart for me, you'll always be annoyed with Reynald! Not that he bothers you, but your subconscious will always lead you to him... I gave you time and used it well. Know your own feelings"

Click!

The phone connection was broken by Rashaad without waiting for me to answer anything.

I don't know, I'm upset, angry and sad. I feel so out of my mind! I'm so angry at everything. In Reynald and especially in Rashaad.

For me, Rashaad has been my life's savior. He was present when I felt alone in the midst of a cruel world. In a time when I was struggling to heal from Reynald's heartbreak and in a time when I was struggling to get a better life.

But the choice this time that did not fight for me, made me feel like I was thrown away. Feeling betrayed. I thought Rashaad was a hero for my life, but I was betrayed. How's it feel?

On the other hand, I think a little about Reynald. Sedikiiiittt.. Yeah slightly. Ah don't know! I obviously only thought about it briefly.

Ever since our meeting at the Corniche beach the other day was completely unintentional, I never again communicated with him. Is his wife really suing for divorce? I remember what he said last time on the beach... He's just gonna run his life and ask me not to think about him.

But the truth is I was even pulled back towards him. And his wife hm... I don't know what words I deserve for his wife. I'm certainly surprised at the end of the day that the woman is suing Reynald for divorce. Though the last time I met her, the woman even looked angry and jealous of me!

What about Jessy? That cute little girl? Such a small child must be very sad to see his parents have to separate. Then.... What about Reynald? What about the circumstances?

Unconsciously my hand touched the left side of my chest that was painful when I remembered the man.

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