Our Barrier Fort

Starting a New Story

Everything is still the same, nothing different even though it has been almost 6 months. Everything is still the same, this heart still has the name Ganesh embedded there. It turns out that it is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand to be able to forget an embedded memory.

Although, I do not deny that Alex has been able to entertain me enough and accompany me a lot in the most difficult time in my life. But, I still cannot replace the name Ganesh in my heart.

I don't know if Alex has more hope in me. But, for now I'm really not ready to start over.

This heart still hurts too much to start a new story. Afraid that the same thing would happen again, I could not maintain my relationship and ended in failure. I'm afraid it'll happen again.

Almost every weekend, Alex always takes me for a walk. Quite happy too because I can always forget all this sadness, for a moment.

I stretch my hands when everything is done. I'm also confused, why until now I'm still a replacement secretary for Alex. Even though it was more than the deadline set for me to become a replacement secretary.

The connecting door of my room and Alex opened, the man standing in the doorway smiling at me "Let's have Ra's lunch"

I nodded, then stood up while slinging the bag on "Come on"'s shoulder"

We walked out of the room, lunch this time I'd all like to ask you about this job. Why I'm still Alex's secretary until now.

Alex took me to a restaurant not far from the company. When we finish eating our lunch, I'll start talking and asking about my work.

"Emmm. Lex, I need to ask you something"

Alex looks at me "What? Just ask"

"Emmm. What about my job?"

Alex frowned, as if he didn't understand my question "I mean?"

Now, guess, he doesn't understand my question. "It's been more than 4 months, but why am I still the replacement secretary? Not only 4 months of maternity leave, right?"

Alex smiled, it seemed like he had just understood my intention of "Susan having submitted his resignation letter last week. She could not return to work because her husband forbade her. Susan has to focus on her family and her baby"

I'm not supposed to hear from Susan anymore. He saw no sign of returning to the company. Susan has resigned.

"So, should I be your secretary?"

I'm still confused, Alex didn't explain my position right now. Will I remain his secretary, or only until he gets a new secretary.

"Give up to you Ra, all this time your work was good. But, if you are not comfortable with this job, you just say the same to me. Let me find a replacement later" Alex explained

I'm confused myself now, actually I'm comfortable with this job. And I like it too.

Did I just take it yeah, turn into a real secretary. Not a replacement secretary anymore.

"Emmm. Actually, I like this job. And I feel like I fit into this job too. So, I leave it to you. If I work well and you like it, I'll still be your secretary. But, if my work is unsatisfactory, I'll go back to my original job"

I also have to hear Alex's opinion first. Who knows if he has ever been disappointed with my unsatisfactory work for him. I also don't want to harm the company just because of my selfishness.

"And I told you earlier, if your performance has been pretty good. I love your work, so I accept you as the official secretary from today" Alex said with a warm smile.

Alex's face turned serious, what's going on? Did I say wrong?

"Actually you never let me down Ra. But, if you currently refuse my request, then I will be very disappointed in you" Alex said with a serious look.

I know he's not joking right now. But what does that mean? I really don't understand what Alex said just now. What request?

I looked at Alex confusedly, not understanding what he meant. "What do you mean Lex?"

Alex looked at me more and more, until I felt washed away in those blue eyes.

I was shocked when Alex suddenly held my hand on the table. My feelings are starting to calm down, is Alex going to express her feelings to me? If yes, then what should I answer later?

"Be my girlfriend Ra, I'll try to heal that wound in your heart. Let me be the cure for your heartache. You must be aware of this feeling of love for you, right? There's no way you don't know, Ra"

Right, my guess. Of course I know about his feelings for me that are more than a friend. I can see from the look in his eyes. All this time I was pretending not to know.

"Emmm. Lex, it's actually me......"

"Open your heart to others Ra, how can you move on if your heart is still closed. Let someone heal your heart. Open your heart to others, Ra. Try to start with a different person. I'm sure, otherwise all love stories are painful. Eliminate your trauma"

Suddenly the words of Mother a few days ago, flashed through my head. Mom was advising me about a love that wouldn't always hurt. It will not always be beautiful either.

"Father Ra, I know what your answer is. You don't have to go on anymore"

Alex's voice roused me from the daydream. I looked at the handsome man in front of me, Alex was already standing and was about to leave from before me. Maybe he was tired of waiting too long.

"I really want to start a new love story. But, I'm scared. Everything is still in my memory. How my struggle all this time was in vain and finally my love story ended painfully like this"

I saw Alex stop his steps, I stared at the man's wide back. It might be true what Mom said, it's time for me to open a new story in my life. It will be difficult, but I still have to try.

"Honestly, up to this point I haven't had any feelings for you Lex. But, if you want to start with me. So let's start now. Make me fall in love with you and forget my past"

I don't want to lie to Alex about my feelings. To this day, I don't have any feelings for him. But, I'll try to start again. I hope my love story doesn't end in failure.

Alex's back is moving, maybe the guy is sighing. Alex turned and looked at me, making me nervous for fear that my honesty would upset and upset Alex.

"Alright Ra, let's go for it all. Start another new story, and I'll try to heal your heartache and make you fall in love with me"

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