Our Barrier Fort

Me Why? I'm All right

Working with chaotic thoughts and feelings. I try to look good in front of everyone. The feelings and problems of me and Ganesh, I know enough.

It's time to get home from work, I'm waiting for Ganesh in front of the office lobby. I've chatted, but still haven't read it. Maybe Ganesh is busy.

"Ra, wait for Mr. Ganesh?" secretary Ganesh came over.

"Yes, is he out of his office?"

"Loh, Mr. Ganesh came home this afternoon. He said there was some sudden business. If I don't hear wrong, he said his sister came home from outside the country"

I was silent, did not Mama said at that time if Gezia came home still two months away. But why has come now. And why didn't Ganesh tell me. I don't know...

I finally decided to book a taxi online. Arriving home, Ganesh still did not report, even the message I sent was not read. Is he that busy? Or maybe still miss the same Gezia.

I began to feel a sense of anxiety for our relationship. Everything feels so hard to live.

"Ra, there's Alex outside" Mom opened the door, I turned to her. Why would Alex come home again?

"What's Alex coming back here for? I'm not going anywhere, I still want to be alone"

Mom came over, she was sitting next to me. Rubbing my head fondly "She just wanted to deliver your Scarf that was left behind in her car yesterday. You meet there first"

A scarf?..

Oh my goodness.. I completely forgot my scarf. Yesterday I did wear a small scarf around my neck because I felt cold in the weather. However, when I got in the car to get home, I took it off in Alex's car and I forgot about it.

"Oh yes Mom, I forgot to leave it in Alex's car yesterday"

I immediately ran out of the room and met Alex. He was sitting on the sofa and chatting with Dad in the living room.

"Hi Lex, I really forgot my scarf"

Alex looks at me and smiles "Father Ra, here's your scarf"

I received a scarf proffered by Alex "Still yes, bother until here in anterin"

"No papa, anyways stop by"

I just smiled, then sat on the single sofa there. Looking at the interaction of Father and Alex that looks so familiar. It's so different when you're with Ganesh. I'm thinking more and more if it's not just differences that are our barrier. But it also seems like blessing.

"Emmm. Ra, how is your relationship with your boyfriend. He said he wanted to meet me with your girlfriend. I also want to know who is lucky to get her love for a Seira" Alex said with a chuckle at the end of his sentence

My relationship with Ganesh is at risk of being destroyed.

"Emmm. Well, you must know dong. Ganesha Aditama, company leader of GE"

Alex looks ordinary, maybe he's not like my other friends when they know who my boyfriend is then they always show a surprised face.

Alex nodded in understanding "Oh. Yes I know, our company is indeed involved in cooperation"

"Well that's it, surely you know dong"

Where maybe Alex does not know, while his company and GE are involved in cooperation. Alex is back talking to Dad.

"I'm going to the room first"

"Hallo Nesh, what's wrong? Sorry I was downstairs again. The phone wasn't in the room"

"Yes Gak papa Darling, I am also sorry for not being able to send you home and not knowing you too. Gezia suddenly went home and asked to be picked up"

I understand Ganesh's position, after all I'm not a possessive woman who should always know what her lover is doing. I believe in Ganesh.

"Yes, no papa. Ohh, Gezia so go home? Mom said it was still two months away"

"Yes, he's accelerating his return"

I nodded in understanding, though Ganesh would not see him "Ohh. That's yes"

"Why?"

Huh huh? Wh why? Why what? What does Ganesh mean. I really don't understand the word 'why' he said. Why me? I'm doing fine.

"Your attitude is a little different Ra. You are no longer as chatty as usual. You also no longer call me dear as before. What was? Do you really want to part with me because you no longer love me?"

What kind of shit is that? I don't love him anymore? Haha. If I didn't love her, I might have gotten this upset when I found out that she was going to be in a match with another woman.

"My attitude is different because I think too much about this problem. Even until I'm lazy to talk a lot because my mind is really messed up"

"I know it's hard, but wait for me until I can refuse Grandpa's request and convince him"

I will always wait for it, though I do not know until when I will be able to wait. Hard-nosed, disputable grandfather, is it possible to accept Ganesh's rejection of the match? I doubt it, I'm afraid the result is not what we expected.

"Well, I'll wait for Nesh. Hopefully everything really goes as we expect"

"Sure, I'll always love you"

"I love you too, love you so much"

Not a flirtation or seduction, we really love each other. Three years together is not an easy thing and a short time. We have been through a lot together. Until this obstacle we will pass together. Hopefully we can be together next.

"Tomorrow to come home from work, yes, there is a small invitation to welcome the arrival of Gezia and her new boutique which will open next week. Papa and Mama invited you to come"

To Ganesh's house? That means I'll see his family again and Gezia too. I always felt awkward when I met Gezia. He was always cold to me and just as necessary if I greeted him.

"Ra, how? You're coming, aren't you?"

"Eh. I-yes I'm coming. But tomorrow I will go home first. Time to wear work clothes come there"

"Yes, I'll see you tomorrow, baby. I'll pick you up again tomorrow"

"Yes"

The phone connection was cut off, I saved the phone back on the nightstand. Laying down on the bed and staring at the ceiling of the room.

Tomorrow we will meet the Ganesh family again, hopefully everything will be fine. I don't know why I feel bad. Hopefully nothing unwanted will happen tomorrow.

Seriate

Still continuing yes... Although the support is very thin. That's not... Still the spirit.. I-i can.. 😢