Our Barrier Fort

Letting Go Though Injured

"Leave Ganesh, Seira"

It was like lightning striking me, how could I leave the man I love. This relationship we are fighting for is it going to end now?

"Dad, i-i..."

"Leave Ganesh, or leave Mom and Dad. Let's just say we're not your parents anymore!"

Degs..

Why can you say that, I can no longer hold back tears that just drip. Father's words really poked into the recesses of my heart. Of course I can't choose between those two options. They mean too much to my life.

"Well, your silence has been our answer" Father stood up and pointed to the exit "Please leave this house and assume we are no longer your parents"

Hix..

"Dad, I'm sorry"

I can't leave my parents. Two people who have been so good in my life. Caring for and raising me with genuine affection. Lord.. I surrendered.. I will accept all your destiny. Let me be happy someday even if not with Ganesh.

I knelt in front of Father and Mother, crying on their lap. Even though Mom looks so disappointed in me, but she is still a mother who will never bear to see me cry like this. She kept stroking my trembling back, she was crying too.

I looked up and looked up at Father and Mother, my vision blurry as it was covered in tears that condensed "Well if that's your wish, I'll leave Ganesh"

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From that day on, I have truly let go of Ganesh. For my parents' sake. Even though love is still in my heart. It will not be easy to forget everything and the memories between us. It may be true what Dad said, our destiny does not have to be together. Different faiths clearly make it impossible for us to be together forever. We are too different to be together.

Our Barrier Fortress remains sturdy and tall, just to reach it is very difficult. Especially if you want to destroy it. It's very unlikely.

A few days ago I officially resigned from the GE company. Of course Ganesh didn't know about it, even since the day I convinced my heart to leave him for Father and Mother, I've blocked Ganesh's numbers and all social media. All at Father's behest, so that I may forget Ganesh more easily and no longer be in contact with the man.

But the truth is not like that. I keep thinking about that man, it's not that easy to forget about Ganesh.

I will try to release Ganesh, even though my heart is deeply wounded.

"Ra, let's eat first" Mother appeared behind the bedroom door.

"Yes Ma'am"

I stood up and walked over to Mom, actually I was not very appetizing to eat anything. But, because I don't want to disappoint Mom and Dad. So I always forced myself to eat when they took me out to eat. Trying to cover my feelings for anyone. Trying to look okay, even though this heart is deeply hurt by this decision I took.

However, this might indeed be the best for me and Ganesh. Dad was so against our relationship, especially after finding out that Ganesh was married. Everything has been revealed and there is no longer any chance to be able to maintain our relationship.

"Well, Mom, I want to work again. Saturated, if it continues to be at home"

I just wanted to take a moment away from this messed up mind of mine. At least if by working, maybe I will be a little able to forget all these problems. All the hurt and sadness I feel right now. How's Ganesh? I always think about how Ganesh is going after this?

Actually I really want to contact Ganesh right now. But, it's impossible. I promised Father and Mother I would forget about it and no longer be in contact with Ganesh.

"Why don't you just work at Daddy's"

"Let's talk to Alex later" Dad said, without waiting for my answer.

Finally I just follow it, maybe Dad wants me to work at his workplace so he can better watch over me. I take the positives, I also have to start looking for a new atmosphere now. It is impossible to continue to dissolve in this wound.

"Good Well"

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One week went by, I didn't feel like I'd been that long out of touch with Ganesh. Honestly, it's hard for me to live. If every morning there will be a figure of a man I love very much come to pick up. Now, there's no more. Lunch alone without Ganesh these few days, enough to make me lonely. All the things we do often seem to keep haunting my mind.

This weekend I accidentally met with Alex after we had a service. Finally Alex asked permission to chat with me for a while to Mom and Dad. Of course they allow.

Alex took me to a park where we worshiped. Sitting side by side on a park bench. Staring at the blooming flowers, and a fish pond in the middle of the garden with fountains on the sides of the pond. Very lovely. The air is also pretty cool.

"Emmm. Ra, there's something I want to talk to you about. It's about Ganesh"

I immediately turned to the side, looking at Alex who was still staring straight ahead. Whahuh? What does Alex want to say about Ganesh?

"What?"

Don't make me more confused by this. Father and Mother no longer allow me to be in contact with Ganesh. Working at Alex's company was enough to make me forget a little bit about all the worries in my heart. But not when I get home. Quiet in my solitude and keep thinking about Ganesh. The man I loved until now.

"He came to me a few days ago, asking for your whereabouts with a very chaotic appearance"

Ganesh came to see Alex? How's he doing now? Is he okay.

"Then, did you tell him where I am?"

Alex shook his head, his gaze still straight towards the fish pond that was in the middle of the garden "No, Father has forbidden me to tell Ganesh your whereabouts, if someday he seeks you out for me. Looks like I guessed everything"

Yeah, Dad was amazing. Even to this day, I don't know from whom Father and Mother could know about Ganesh's marriage. The thing I've been hiding from them all this time.

"Yeah, you don't tell Ganesh anything about me. It's my decision Lex, I'll release him for Tyas. Although it's heavy, I'm sure everything I'll be able to handle"

Although I'm sure it won't be that easy to deal with this pain. It would not be that easy to heal this gaping wound in the heart. Perhaps, the trauma of going through another relationship has been ingrained in my heart.

"You've chosen the right decision Ra"

Seriate

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