Our Barrier Fort

The harder

I was still staring blankly at the calm lake water. Confused by everything that had happened, Ganesh refused to part despite the fact that I also did not want to part with Ganesh.

"Ra?"

I was a little surprised to hear someone calling. Looking towards the source of the sound and it turns out that Alex is standing next to the park bench I was sitting on. He smiled, then sat down next to me.

"Now, we're not home Lex?"

Alex stared straight at the lake, his face looking so calm "I'm waiting for you. But, I'm not sure you'll be okay"

I was moved by Alex's words, how this man understood my current situation. I'm not really okay. My relationship with Ganesh is at its lowest.

"Yuk came home" Alex stood up and extended his hand towards me. I stared at him for a moment before finally receiving Alex's hand and moved from sitting down.

I don't know why I just followed where Alex was taking me. Our hands are still holding each other. Alex took me to where the car was parked. Maybe he'll just take me home.

"You want to eat Ra?" Ask Alex

I shook my head slowly "Not hungry Lex, just go home"

"You haven't eaten Ra yet, I'm really a laper. Follow me to eat first yes, please" said Alex with a face of pity.

I could not bear to see the look on his face either, so I agreed. Although I know it's just Alex's wits for me to eat too. I appreciate his good intentions enough, I know that Alex has always been kind to his close friends. He always paid attention to my diet when we were in school.

She's so good, but why is she still single??

I really want to ask that, but I am not that brave to ask about personal matters.

The car arrived at the parking lot of a fast food restaurant, Alex and I immediately got off. Go to the restaurant and order food immediately. It was getting dark and the sound of the Adhan was heard so loud from the building of this restaurant.

If he is with Ganesh, he will stop in front of the mosque building and carry out his duties and I wait for him in the car. Really at such a time our barrier fortress really feels more and more real.

"Ra, Ra... Seira's"

I blinked as Alex waved his hand in front of my face. The food we ordered was neatly arranged on the table.

"Why Ra? How often do you dream like this?" ask Alex

I just smiled, though I was too imposing. There's no way I'm telling Alex what I've been through, even though Alex is an old friend of mine. But, he was still a man who had nothing to do with me. Especially if I tell you about my relationship with Ganesh. Not worth the taste.

"No papa Lex, I'm just tired"

Tired of all this, reality and destiny do not allow me and Ganesh to unite. Love is not everything, everything must be accompanied by similarities. There is no difference like this. It is faith that sets us apart and will always be our barrier.

Alex nodded, it seemed like the man did not want to interfere too much with my affairs. I am quite happy with his attitude, he can always put himself to make those around him feel comfortable.

"Let's eat, I'm so hungry" said Alex, who started eating

I just nodded and ate my food. The atmosphere became quiet, we only focused on the food that was being eaten at this time.

There was no taste whatsoever, everything felt bland in my mouth. I'm just forcing myself to finish this meal because I don't feel good about Alex.

"After this, you want to go straight home?" Ask Alex

"Yes, I'm tired of wanting to get some rest"

After eating, Alex drove home. When I got home, I immediately went into my room. While Alex was greeting my parents, after that I didn't know. Whether Alex went straight home or even chatted first with Dad or Mom.

Right now I'm just putting my body on the bed after I took a shower. I feel lazy to go out of the room, even to do anything else besides sleeping like now.

Ting..

My phone rang, the sign was a notification of incoming messages. I grabbed it and opened the message.

Ganesku

Tomorrow I'll pick you up for work.

I was silent reading a message from Ganesh, it is time tomorrow I return to work. Although it feels very lazy to work and do the routine every day. In a state of chaotic feelings and bad mood, it is very influential in everything.

I kept the phone back on the nightstand, not replying to Ganesh's message. I just want to sleep and hope tomorrow morning will be better. I hope...

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

"Ra, Ganesh already picked it up" Mother's cry made me immediately rush out of the room. It is time to return to the world of work and forget for a moment each of these problems.

I descended the stairs, Ganesh was seen sitting on the living room couch with Dad who was ready in his work clothes. Mom and Dad are going to work soon too.

"How's the family doing, son Ganesh?" ask Dad

"Alhamdulillah good Om"

Father nodded at Ganesh's words "Greetings to all families yes, sorry Om same Aunt can not visit"

"Ah yes no papa Om, I will tell you later"

I was silent on the steps, it felt strange to see Father and Ganesh speaking so awkwardly and formally. It's so different when you talk to Alex. They are like father and son. But, what's with Ganesh Daddy looking so disinclined and awkward.

Does this include our barrier? Everything seems to show that Ganesh and I are getting impossible to be together. We are too different and there are too many barriers between us.

Everything seemed to not give a little gap that could make us possible to unite.

"Come on Nesh, we're leaving now"

Ganesh looked at me and he nodded, greeting Father and Mother before we left. In the car, there was silence. I still don't want to talk as much as usual.

"Wait for me to convince Grandpa not to keep setting me up with that woman" Ganesh suddenly said

I closed my eyes, I thought this was impossible. Can Grandpa be denied? Can Grandfather just accept Ganesh's rejection. It doesn't feel possible. I saw for myself how enthusiastic Grandpa was to match Ganesh. Even Papa supported him, then what should I do? Accept everything, even if it hurts. Is there any way I could do that?

"I don't want to talk about it" I replied softly, without even turning a single look at Ganesh. I just couldn't afford to stare at Ganesh's distressed face with his Grandfather's request.

Seriate

Yesterday was not up, sorry I lack this much. Can't get up on two novels in one day. I still have the responsibility to finish the novel You Are My Life.. So I can only divide the time to be able to up our Barrier Fortress the same novel. Please understand, because in the real world I am also busy.

Don't forget the support...