Our Barrier Fort

Forgetting a Trouble In My Mind

Two weeks went by, it has not been a month since I decided to leave Ganesh. Even though it had been that long, still this heart was still frozen and was no longer open to others. This failure traumatized my heart to start a new story.

"Ra, is everything ready?" Alex was standing in the doorway, today there was indeed a meeting outside. Although I'm still a little traumatized by this outside meeting. Afraid that things will happen again.

"Ready Master"

I stood up and carried the file I had prepared, carrying a laptop bag. We got out of the room to get to the meeting place.

In the car, I just looked out the window. The scenery outside seemed to run after me as the car I was riding drove. My mind was still fixed on my father's words at that time.

Open my heart back to another man?

Can I do that? When my heart was frozen and I didn't want to be open to anyone. I glanced at Alex who was focusing on his wheel.

Whatisthis? Why does my heart suddenly feel rustling, seeing the carving of Alex's face from the side alone looks handsome. Blaster guy with a sharp nose and blue eyes. So good-looking. Uh

I realized my thinking, shook my head to expel all the dirty thoughts in my head. Alex is handsome, but is Alex the one? Nah! That's not possible. Alex and I are just friends, nothing more!

I pray that someone can heal your heart.

I remember what Dad said, someone who can heal the wounds of my heart. Does anyone? My heart is broken and wounded. Can it still be healed? Even with the presence of new people in my life. I'm not sure about that.

"Ra, I'm sorry about the time at that restaurant. I really don't have any other choice"

Alex's baritone voice suddenly awakened me from all daydreams. I turned to her "No papa Lex, I understand"

"Thank you Ra, you already understood my position back then"

I nodded and smiled, indeed I understood Alex's position and circumstances. Either way, the company and GE have long been involved in cooperation. So, it was only natural that one day there would be a meeting between them. And because I'm his secretary now. Then I have to be professional about it.

"Yes Lex, I understand. My relationship with Ganesh is over. There's nothing else between us"

Even though I feel pain myself stating it. Our relationship is over, but I don't think I'm willing to say it all. My heart still hurts.

"I think you better talk about it all to Ganesh. Let him understand and accept all your decisions" Alex said

I heard what Alex said was true. But, will Ganesh really be able to accept all of my decisions? I'm not sure about that.

"Yes Lex, when I'm ready. I'll explain everything to Ganesh. But not for now"

I was still not ready to tell everything in front of Ganesh without a cry. I'd look weaker in Ganesh's eyes if I told him everything while crying. Ganesh will be able to see if I'm not really happy with the decision I made myself. Ganesh will know what I am, having decided to leave him.

"All right"

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Life still has to go on, though hearts are broken and hurt. That's how I feel right now. Although the state of this heart still has not improved, but my life still has to go on. Life is not about love. But in life, we also need love.

This weekend I just finished worshiping, either incidentally or deliberately Alex worshiped in this place as well. The distance between his home and this place is quite far.

Actually I was very lazy to go, wanted to stay alone in the room and contemplate every problem that always approached me. Although I knew I would end up crying, but no papa. Because with this heart cry feel a little relieved.

"Emmm. I'm..."

"Just leave Ra, at home too you just stay in the room" Mother said before I finished my words. I looked back, where Mom and Dad were standing. It's true what Mom said, if the weekend is like this then I just stay in the room. It happened after me and Ganesh were completely over. To be exact, I ended it all.

"Alright" I can finally just agree to Alex's invitation. We entered the car after saying goodbye to Mom and Dad. Cars began to drive up the city crowds at the weekend.

"Where are we going Lex?"

"It's a nice place, so you don't get upset" Alex said with a soft smile.

I pissed Alex's arm off that it was "What's Lex, I'm not upset. Just usual"

"Udah deh Ra, you can't lie to me. I know that you can't move on from Ganesh yet"

Huh...

I exhaled heavily, it is true that I have not been able to move on from Ganesh. A month will not be enough to be able to forget all our memories during these 4 years. I don't know how many months it will take me to forget everything. It feels very difficult.

"So, now I will take you to a place that can make you forget for a moment all the problems that plague your mind"

I smiled, Alex is indeed the most able to comfort someone. He can always make a smile when my mind is mumbling like this.

It turns out Alex took me to a playground tour. There are many rides that we can ride here, I actually ride almost all the rides of the game. Starting from the usual until the heart is almost dislodged. But, I was relieved to be able to scream as much as possible. At least it can make my heart better. I can forget for a moment all these problems in my mind.

"Where's Ra? Better?" alex asked, after we finished riding the last ride.

Today was a lot of fun, let alone ending with Alex buying me a white goose-shaped cotton candy. It was so cute and funny that I couldn't bear to eat it.

I nodded in response to Alex's question, indeed my heart is better now. "Thank you Lex"

Alex stroked my head with a slight shuffle of my hair "Sama-sama, the important thing is that you are happy"

"I'm very happy"

We were walking towards the parking lot, while polishing the cotton candy in my hand. Today was indeed very pleasant for me, let alone the burden on my heart felt even less. It feels a little relieved now.

"Thank God you're happy"

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