Our Barrier Fort

Leaving the Light of My Life

Someone pulled my hand when I was just about to get in Alex's car. Of course I was very surprised by it, I looked back and was more and more surprised by the person who was still blocking my wrist.

I immediately threw out the hand that was blocking my wrist. I tried hard to let go.

"Lepasin, you fuck Ganesh. Shame on seeing so many people"

I was really upset and embarrassed as well, let alone the many pairs of eyes that saw this scene. Especially with Ganesh's face, there will probably be few who know who Ganesh is. Oh.. God, what else is this?

I'm still trying to get rid of Ganesh's hand. But, somehow the man's energy is very strong. Until I can't let go.

"Take it off, you hurt her!" alex's shout managed to make Ganesh slightly loosen the grip of his hand.

I became scared myself, seeing Ganesh's unfriendly gaze on Alex. Looks like Ganesh didn't expect me to be with Alex.

"So this is the reason you're Ra? Leaving me for another man? Even to the point of blocking all my access to contact you" Ganesh turned to stare at me sharply.

"Mr Ganesh, I can explain" Alex's remarks were ignored by Ganesh. He seems to have misunderstood this, but I don't want to deny it. Let it be if Ganesh misunderstands me. The important thing is that he can forget about me and go back to his wife. The woman he should have loved.

"Sirah Jawab!!" yelled Ganesh, he ruffled the coarse hair. It looked so frustrating on his face.

I chose silence, bowing my face so as not to see Ganesh's disappointed look at me. I won't be able to see it. Ganesh will definitely be very hurt, but I think this is better than him continuing to expect me that he can no longer possibly have. We are different, we are also blessings that cannot be obtained.

I felt Ganesh lift up my hand that was in his grip. My wrist started to hurt as Ganesh might get tighter clutching my hand. His face was near my ears, I still did not dare to look him in the face.

"Jawab Ra, honey.. You wouldn't leave me for that guy, would you?" ganesh in my ear, it sounded so painful that I could no longer bear the tears. Sounds slow. Ganesh crying?

"Honey.. We can face all this, be patient and wait until I divorce him" said Ganesh, with a slow sob. I'm getting less and less powerful hearing it, Ganesh is so fragile now. As fragile as I am.

"Sirah Jawab!"

Ganesh's voice had already begun to suppress, I knew if he needed an explanation for all this. But, is it possible that Ganesh can accept everything? The decision I made. Given Ganesh who is still determined to maintain this relationship even though he is married.

Hix..Hix..

I began to be unable to control my cries, just like this had made me weak. Especially if I really tell Ganesh everything. Whether I can or not, because just remembering everything makes me very weak. Especially to be able to tell it.

"Let go, I've spoken well with you. But, you're still being rude to Seira" Alex forcibly removed Ganesh's hand on my wrist.

Hix..Hix..

I immediately moved away from Ganesh, looking at his face that looked angry and also disappointed. The tear marks were still clearly visible on the man's cheeks.

Sorry Ganesh, I can't explain everything yet. Let you misunderstand this, I just don't want to hurt Tyas anymore. He is too good for us to hurt with our love.

It's not that I don't want to just tell Ganesh everything, about me leaving him. But, all the words I had already strung together were as if they were stuck in the throat. My tongue became a mute just to say one beginner's word.

Alex was ready to punch him in Ganesh's face, but I immediately held him back. I would not want anyone to hurt Ganesh's handsome face. That man is still the occupant of my heart until now, whether until when, I don't know either. Could it be that Ganesh's position in my heart could be replaced by someone else?

"Quite Lex, Ganesh!" I shouted out to dispel those who were ready to smite in this place. Are they not seen by many people?

I glanced at Alex, then looked back at Ganesh after being brave enough to stare at that hurt and disappointed face because of me. But all this I do is for the common good. Deciding on a love story that will never have this end.

"Ganesh, I've decided if the relationship between us ends here. We can't keep going like this, I decided to give up on this"

I gave up on God's destiny.

"But why Ra? All this time we've been doing well" Ganesh looks desperate and deeply hurt. I turned my face away, unable to see the wounded face of this man who was still the owner of my heart.

"Here you go, I've decided everything"

I quickly walked away from there with tears flowing as these footsteps moved away from Ganesh. Alex was already standing by the open car door, letting me into it.

When I was in the car, I really cried. Especially when I accidentally glanced at the rearview mirror of the car and saw the shadow of Ganesh kneeling on the ground with both hands covering his face. She must have felt the same pain I was feeling right now.

Lord.. Why is this sick? Leaving her in such a state was just like I left the light in my life.

The car started driving away from this crowded place, I kept staring at the rearview mirror of the car. The shadow of Ganesh is increasingly visible away and disappears when the car comes out of the parking area of this playground.

I'm sorry Ganesh.

"Ra, are you okay?"

I nodded with a mind that went nowhere. My mind and gaze were blank, everything had become empty when me and Ganesh had completely ended now. And I ended it.

I did not keep my promise to stay with Ganesh no matter what happens. The fact is I'm not strong, especially the more days our relationship the more problems come. Plus the blessing I couldn't get. From Father and Mother, and from Grandfather Ganesh.

"You can tell me all your complaints, your concern for me Ra. I'm ready to listen" Alex said

I shook my head slowly, I knew if Alex meant to make me feel a little calmer. But, right now I still want to keep it to myself. I am not ready to tell everyone else.

"No Lex, I just want to go home and rest"

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