My Lovely Cousin's

Chapter 89: Sorry and Goodbye

The cold night passed with infinite sadness. Kira along with her pain passed the turn of the day in silence. Not yet exhausted the sadness in his heart, now he must be faced with the fact that he has a thalassemia disease. It made him so bad, and almost desperate.

The drops of blood that kept flowing into his body felt like a new source of pain. Because the blood came from Bara, his lover.

Recalling about Bara, the girl felt that she had wrongly dropped her heart. For him the pain he suffered was a burden for Bara. He knew how much the man was hurt by what happened to him, only that the man was hiding it. Kira could see from the look of Bara's eyes clearly emanated the man's feelings.

And finally, regret felt so thick to his chest. If only the stupid thing when tempting Bara when he did not do, then maybe now he will not be burdened. If you know the relationship with her brother will stretch, Kira will never want to take Bara from her brother.

Now the girl felt that her actions had exceeded the limit. All the pleasure he got from Bara in fact could not shake his selfishness and instead just add new problems.

Kira closed her eyes. Forcing tears to pool out of place so that the sadness can be slightly reduced. The girl let out a heavy sigh as she began to decide on something. Which seems to be gripping his own heart. In the stillness in the nursery that had extinguished its light, Kira muttered.

"Sayonara Brother Bara."

Bara's Pov

I saw the girl crying withstanding the pain, her face still pale. The blood flowing in the transet looks so thick, slowly the drops flow into Kira's body. I feel so sorry for him. All this time I never knew if he had the disease. When I found out I wanted to exchange my life with her.

Seeing him suffer is the same as me taking on the role of the bad guy in our relationship. I looked at the transet again. The red liquid of the Rh AB present was all from me. Yes, just now when my aunt and I were about to donate, the doctor said that aunt was not allowed to donate. The reason for that was because neither aunt was basically lacking blood.

Actually I don't understand, the point is the doctor does not allow aunt to donate. Be the one who donates my blood to Kira. Though the girl needs 4 bags and I can only give her 2 only.

The doctor said the hospital will look for 2 other bags in the blood bank. Hearing that made me feel a little weak. This experiment felt so heavy. I can't bear to see Kira suffer. But there's nothing I can do.

Time has shown at 23:00 when me and dad decided to leave. I look so tired after a long day of activity. Plus we were sad because of that woman, I don't want to say her name. So reluctantly I stepped in with my father to leave Kira's room.

My God, my heart feels like it's split in two. One piece I hold and the other I put here with Kira. Through the tail of my eyes, I caught the direction he was looking at me. I actually wanted to return that look. But no courage comes to me at the moment. I was afraid that if I just kept looking at him, others would be suspicious especially Naura.

My steps were heavy when I reached the hospital parking lot. As if he really did not want to move from Kira's side. I looked back and continued my thoughts in the shadows.

I wanted to run there, back to the room. Looked at Kira's eyes and embraced her lovingly. But it all evaporated like dust blown by the wind as soon as my father woke me from the wishful thinking.

"Have you forgotten something?" Ask dad.

His face was so pale and exhausted. Suddenly my feeling never came out again. Maybe right now to pull away from the heartbreak I should do for dad's sake.

"No dad." My answer.

"Then let's go home. I have to rest for an important meeting with the Director of Nara Group tomorrow. Come on." Comeon."

"Good dad."

The following days I lived with a sense of emptiness without the presence of Kira. Ever since I got home from the hospital that night, we never saw each other again. It was as if he disappeared into the earth.

When I asked Naura when we passed each other on campus the girl just replied to me with a smile and then switched the conversation. It caused quite a strange feeling in my mind, where is Kira?

I felt frustrated when I didn't see the girl for a few days. Kira is the jolly girl who fills the void in my heart, the girl that flows my blood in her, the girl I love with half my soul. It may sound exaggerated but to me that expression is my love language to her.

My emptiness did not stop there. On Saturday I tried to find him again by picking him up in front of his school. Like our old habits. I saw him, he stood blankly in front of the school gate. I thought he was waiting for an invitation, maybe me?

But all my assumptions were wrong, as soon as I was about to step I saw a car stop in front of Kira. The owner of the car came out and took Kira into his car. I know that guy. He's my future half-brother, Noah.

Suddenly my chest felt so tight. In that second I tried calling Kira, but it all ended up in vain. Number I can't call. Sending messages is the same.

My spirit dropped 50% right then and there. I feel like my heart is hurting because Kira is away. I don't know, maybe it's some kind of reward for me that initially just played out our relationship. But the more I get here my feelings start to grow. I love Kira.

I fell to the point of thinking about the girl. To be free from that pain I chose to play games all day on my phone. At first it was nice but over time the emptiness filled my heart again.

I was so sick that I decided to move on with my car keys and jeket and leave the house.

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My goal is only one. The place I feel comfortable, which has been my escape if there is a problem, is the Bar. All the ups and downs no longer apply to me I began to strip my sanity by drinking alcohol. I occasionally sip smoky objects flanked by my middle and index fingers.

Sure enough, the shadow of Kira's face was floating above the bar's sky. As if nothing happened I smiled broadly like a person who lost his sanity and laughed off his back.

I laughed at the stupid attitude I was doing right now. I don't know what your disappointment will be when you see my bad behavior, and also how Kira responds to me.

The alcohol that had taken possession of almost all my sanity brought me into unconsciousness. My head's dizzy. How not, 3 bottles of the curse drink I have spent without waste.

Slowly my balance faded along with the loss of the dim light of the room I was renting. Last I saw a scantily dressed woman come into my room and sit on my stomach. After that I really didn't know what had happened.

'Kira, sorry.'

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seriate....