My Lovely Cousin's

Chapter 32: Getting Married (?)

In the afternoon, Ran rushes out of his room to go see Zara. Seeing Ran's steps so rushed that Surya who was walking to meet the man was surprised.

"Boss, why the rush?" ask Surya.

Ran stopped his steps. "There is business" he said briefly and then continued his steps. Surya just sniffed his shoulders.

After driving for about thirty minutes Ran finally parked his car in front of the house. Looks like the day is starting to darken. Ran walked in with a pair of eyes that were staring at him from quite a distance away. The eye continued to follow in his footsteps until the man was no longer seen by the sight of the pair of eyes. The owner of the pair of eyes is Satria who wants to meet Zara for the second time after that he had left the girl for a purpose.

"I have to feel the disappointment again." murmured Satria after seeing a man enter Zara's house which she believed was the girl's lover. Slowly Satria began to rewind his steps that felt heavy due to disappointment, then left completely from there.

Meanwhile, Ran starts to open the door to Zara's unlocked room. As soon as he entered his gaze was immediately fixated on the figure that was leaning on the back of the bed with a face that turned towards the wall. The man stepped in and sat right next to Zara, who was closing her eyes in pain. Sweat drenched the girl's entire body. Ran was surprised, what happened to Zara? Why is he so pale and full of sweat.

Without hesitation Ran grabbed Zara's face which was then filled with sweat. "Honey.. What's wrong with you?" asked Ran in a soft voice.

Hearing the soft voice instantly made Zara's heart fixate, she missed the sound. A voice he had not heard since last night. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked at Ran's handsome face. Wordless.

"Is this all because of me?" asked Ran lirih.

Feeling so guilty, Ran immediately hugged the girl's body tightly. Instantly he felt Zara's warm body moving into his body. He could tell that Zara had a fever. He then stroked the girl's hair perlan.

"I'm sorry for making you hurt" said Ran, which made Zara's heart slowly warm.

Actually Zara waited for the speech from last night but never came to make herself weakened and eventually sick. The girl still did not say a word to make Ran grow worried. He knew this girl had a fever caused by her yesterday. Ran averted his gaze on Zara's face, still looking sweat that soaked her smooth white face.

"Are you disappointed?" ask Ran. Zara shook her head slowly with eyes that were closed again.

"Then why did you leave?" this time Ran's intonation sounded different, he was like he was afraid to hear the girl's answer.

"Because.. You're.. No need.. I." replied Zara cut into pieces.

"How can you think like that?" now Ran also closed while sticking his forehead in Zara's forehead.

The girl began to catch her breath in order to answer Ran's question, actually she could not speak considering her body is in a weak condition. But he felt the question had to be answered so that the man knew.

"Because your attitude lately has been very disturbing to my mind. You just kept quiet and cold to me, and it made me realize that you no longer loved me." Zara said with all her might.

Ran was stunned, guilt instantly enveloped him. "Really Zara, I didn't mean to make you feel unloved. I just feel like the burden of my work has been heavy lately and took it out on you. I'm really sorry. I love you so much, I never thought for a second to stop." Ran explained.

"Don't force yourself to love me, if it's gone, let it go. I'm not gonna sue you because I know I have no right" Zara said.

Instantly Ran felt slashed, how deeply he hurt the girl's heart to make her dare to say so.

"No Zara! I love you, don't say that! Do you know how hard it is to live without you? That's why I came here. I want to take you home." Ran tightened his embrace.

"But you're late! My trust has worn off." Ran stretched out his embrace while looking at the girl's face that looked covered in sweat.

"I'll restore your trust!" said Ran with a firm tone.

Ran brought his face closer to the girl, seeing a pool of sweat between Zara's nose and lips, only to remove it. Then he landed his lips right on Zara's lips. Feeling that made Zara instantly surprised. He was about to let go of Ran's embrace but the man tightened his embrace.

'Why do you have to make me come back convinced when my trust slowly wears off? If you really love me, then what can I do? Without you I feel lost too.' Zara said in her heart.

That night Ran lay on the bed while hugging Zara who was also lying down buried her face in the man's chest. It's been a while since Ran has never touched Zara again, and tonight the opportunity came to her. His desire to marry Zara came back, and it seemed that desire could no longer be withheld. Ran gently stroked the girl's back.

"Hmm." said Zara.

"I love you so much, I want to make you fully trust me. So, I want us to get married" Ran said.

Zara was surprised to hear Ran's words and made her look at the man. "Married?" ask her in a weak voice.

"Do you mind?" Ran frowned.

"Can you give me time to answer?" ask Zara again.

"No problem, I get it. Now rest!" Ran ended.

Zara again buried her face in Ran's chest while shedding tears. While Ran took a lethargic breath.

'It's not that I don't want to marry you Brother Ran, it's just that I'm scared. I'm afraid I'll let you down. I have many shortcomings, said Zara in her heart.

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Meanwhile that night Satria was visiting her cousin Aura to vent all the disappointment she felt today. They were sitting on the swing of the garden behind Aura's house. Looking up at the sky Satria spoke. "Why have I always been less fortunate Aura? When I love someone, at that moment I feel disappointment." Satria said sadly.

"Prophey Satria, maybe you should stop loving Zara and start opening your heart to others." Aura gave advice.

"But I can't. I just love.." Satria's words were cut off by Aura.

"South.. Sut.. Sut.. Shut up's. From now on you should forget about the person who already has a lover. Understood?" Aura raised her next to her eyebrows.

"Aura, you're such a bitch." grumbled Satria.

"Hey, don't be like that! Do you want to feel the pain all your life?" reply Aura.

Satria grunted softly, she thought of the words Aura had a point. For a moment he stared at Aura while considering. "Yet, does anyone want me?" Satria seemed to doubt herself.

"Hey, did you forget? There are many women who are always chasing you! You give back that feeling!" Aura was furious at Satria's words.

"Oh, should I reply huh? You know I don't like women like them." - Satria.

"Eits, don't say that! You try it first, if you're used to it then the feeling will definitely arise." Aura tried to persuade.

Satria rubbed her face rough. "All right! But if I can't, don't make me okay?"

"Yes. You, you haven't tried to doubt."

"How else do you want?" Satria raised her shoulders.

Finally, they spread their eyes toward the sky.

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seriate.....