My Lovely Cousin's

Chapter 50: The Traveling

Zara Pov's

I hope tomorrow will not come, even if it comes I hope my spirit has vanished. Tomorrow is the end of all my happiness. No father, no mother and no more Brother Ran. I was alone with all the wounds I had clasped on my chest. I feel so fragile that even my heart feels like it's dead. There was no crying. I could no longer cry, my eyes were too tired to drip that clear liquid. And now I close my eyes in deep hope that tomorrow the world will end. Let it.

It is better for my world to end than to see Kak Ran marry someone else. Oh or now I understand, we are here to stop the sin of Saga and Tahira. The two of them created sin by forging an in-love then me and Kak Ran who had to bear and separate them. Then why should we? I hope tomorrow if my spirit is not lost then I will make sure there will be more smiles that I will spread to anyone after their agreement is completed.

And I'm determined to disappear from Ran's life. Why am I among a couple? And Saga, right now he's the one I hate the most. Because of his stupidity, Me and Brother Ran had to endure all this. All the pain I felt came from him. I hate him.

I kept thinking about my next life. And my decision is final, I will leave Brother Ran. Get away from her life so I don't see how they're going to love me in front of me. It really hurts, it hurts so bad. I held this tightness for hours until I heard a knock on the door.

No. gabe. I couldn't open my eyes. I know the day has changed. And once again the knock on the door echoed, my heart felt really tired before witnessing the peak of my grief later. Either I can face it or I can't. I'm not sure. Should I get up?

"Zara, out. Uncle Akira and Aunt Megumi have arrived."

I don't know whose voice it is, I don't care. I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom without answering the call from outside my room. Now that I've turned into a cold, cold person, I don't care what they say.

After 30 minutes I walked out of the room to the living room on the first floor. Right, there's Uncle Akira and Aunt Megumi, Father and Sister Ran's mother. Aunt Yumna has also been sitting in a wheelchair, whether since when the object was there and used by the aunt. Seen Kak Ran and Tahira who have been neat with their bridal clothes. Really it's too soon I guess, I think it's still morning it turns out time has shown at 13:30 p.m.

I saw Saga sitting behind Aunt Yumna's wheelchair with a disappointed and hurt face, I knew that. Because he must have lost Tahira. I was sitting right next to Saga, I saw some people I didn't recognize. Then the show started, whether I was conscious now or not. All the sounds were faint and gosh, my chest was tight. I felt Saga holding both of my shoulders, like it was not real. I heard voices from everyone around me saying it was legitimate, except me and Saga. My hearing is gone, I don't know what's going on right now. I tried to tell Saga to take me to the room. I hate him now, but I can't do anything more. A few seconds later, I felt like my consciousness was gone.

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The sound of crying sounded from the lips of the girl who had become Ran's wife. He hugged the body of the figure of a middle-aged woman lying unconscious with a pale face. Tahira continued to cry while tightly hugging the body of Aunt Yumna, his mother. The middle-aged woman had lost consciousness since Tahira and Ran's death was over, moments after Saga took Zara to her room.

"Mother, wake up." isak Tahira to the Mother.

Ran just stood looking at Tahira who had now become his wife without any intention of calming him down. It was seen Saga standing behind Tahira who was kneeling beside her mother's bed, actually Saga was eager to hug her sister. He turned his eyes to Ran as if asking for permission to touch Tahira. Ran nodded. Saga finally approached and knelt beside Tahira then gently hugged her.

"This is Ra, Brother hugged." said Saga.

Tahira's cry grew louder after being in Saga's embrace. Currently Saga plays his position as an older brother considering Tahira has become Ran's wife. He put his ego aside for the sake of his mother.

Ran approached towards Aunt Yumna, from earlier on the man only focused on the body of aunt Yumna who looked stiff and pale. He checked the aunt's pulse, when his feelings began to feel bad. He didn't feel a pulse, but he couldn't believe it. Then he tried to check Aunt Yumna's breath, Saga rounded her eyes to see what Ran was doing.

"Don't ask me, I think you should check it out for yourself" Ran said as he looked at Saga with a bitter look and left the room.

Saga quickly moved Tahira's body slowly and checked her mother's condition. Degg, Saga suddenly relaxed after not finding the pulse and exhale of the mother. Saga sat on the floor and grabbed Tahira into his arms.

"I'm sorry Ra, I'm sorry. Mother is gone." Saga shed tears while hugging Tahira.

Tahira no longer knew what to do, he grew sobbing at Saga's statement.

Zara woke up and blinked her eyes after a dream that made her feel claustrophobic. He looked at the man before him who was emitting bitterness, like feeling a deep sadness. Zara looked at Ran in confusion.

"Sister, what's wrong?" zara asked coldly, while waking up her body.

Ran immediately hugged Zara's body while starting to let out a sobbing sound. Zara was still pensive about what she was facing.

'What's up?' ask Zara in your heart.

Zara closed her eyes at once to hear the news. He didn't expect this to happen so quickly. Ran and Tahira's wedding, then Aunt Yumna's departure. It's very hard to believe. Zara then releases Ran's embrace from her body and runs towards Aunt Yumna's room.

Zara looked at the sobbing sisters while hugging in front of her. Now he must believe all the words of Ran earlier. But again all this feels so fast that everything seems unreal. His eyes cooled and emptied again. Before long Ran and his parents entered the room.

The atmosphere shrouded the house of aunt Yumna's family residence with the departure of the owner of the house. Several neighbors and close relatives have filled the entire house in all-black clothes. Saga and Tahira sat on the right side of the mother's body. Saga continued to hug her sister to strengthen her, because from then on the girl was unceasingly shedding tears. Saga's thoughts were shifted when she returned to her room last night after meeting Ran.

The Flash Back On

After meeting Ran earlier, he felt a little calm and could menyikhlaskan Tahira to be Ran's wife. And now all he has to worry about is his mother's condition which is starting to worsen. His mind continued to wander at the words of the mother who indirectly said her figure would die. Saga got up from her bed and walked to her room. He went inside and sat on the side of his mother's bed. Saga stared inside the middle-aged woman's face before him.

"Mother." muttered Saga as she grabbed the mother's hand.

Aunt Yumna's eyes opened slowly displaying both of her brown eyes. Saga was surprised by her mother's awakening, she immediately hugged and kissed her forehead.

"Mother, if Saga has any faults with Mom please forgive Saga. I love mom very much. Please heal, ma'am." Saga's voice shook.

Aunt Yumna stroked her son's shoulder gently, then spoke.

"Don't be like this baby, you'll torture me if you continue to grieve. Already, it's mom's okay."

Saga got up and wiped away the tears that seemed to have been dripping since. Aunt Yumna looked at him in the shade. Aunt Yumna's hand moved closer to the nightstand and picked up a brown envelope. He handed the envelope to Saga.

"Give this later to the Adijaya family" said aunt Yumna.

Saga stared at the envelope with a puzzled look on her face.

"Is this mom?" ask Saga.

"Letter. I'm not sure I'll ever see them again, so make sure you hand them over in one piece." explained Aunt Yumna.

"All right, mother." Saga had no intention of asking who the Adijaya family was. He only disrupts obedience to the mother's orders, because he still hopes his mother will improve and hand over the letter herself.

After exiting Saga's mother's room back to her room, there was no meaningful conversation after she received the envelope. He kept the envelope in the nightstand drawer. For a moment he thought about his mother's words. Saga's feelings start to feel bad, he assumes that his mother will not live any longer. Especially when you see the signs of the mother who began to drop and the words that lead to it. Saga took a deep breath and dismissed his thoughts.

"I don't know who the Adijaya family is and what letter it is" he said in his heart.

The Flash Back Off

Saga took a deep breath while continuing to stroke her sister's head. Some close family and neighbors gave condolences to the two, Saga representing the sister who could not do anything more. The questions of the mourners were answered without letting go or stretching his embrace towards the younger brother.

"Thank you" Saga told mourners who were her neighbors and close friends. Then the man passed.

'Is this what you always say? Even you just want to see Tahira get married before you leave. Then why don't you marry me too? What is this really about?' muttered Saga inwardly as her gaze headed towards the body of the mother.

On the other hand Zara stared blankly at the body of Aunt Yumna who had been stretched stiff lifeless. His heart was frozen to see the events in his life, starting from the departure of the father then the mother then the marriage of Ran then now the aunt. He felt very devastated and ill-fated, he did not have an Ran to borrow his shoulders and lean to pour out his grief.

'After today, what else tomorrow? After Yumna's father, mother and aunt, who else would walk out of my life?why should I witness all this sadness? And why, Brother Ran must be present in my life if he will eventually belong to someone else?' zara said in her heart.