Munding - Legend of the Wolf Fighter

Chapter 234 - Instinct

“What is the use of strength?”

“What is the use of ability?”

“What's the use of the whole world and the rest of the world?”

“If I have to live alone without a soulmate.”

Munding continued to spread his anger in all directions. He had no idea how long he had been venting out those unstoppable emotions of anger. Anger mixed with sadness, fear, and disappointment.

“Why should everyone who loves me leave this world sooner?”

The cries of Munding again roared and rumbled in this world of darkness.

After a very long time and Munding's emotions began to subside. Munding. He saw his figure. The figure is formless and deep black in color, but still resembles a human. And Munding suddenly fell silent.

When Nurul came, he came to this world of darkness in his human form. But why all this time Mundingan has no figure and can not even feel anything?

When Nurul stretched out his hand and Munding with all his might made his attempt to grab that hand. Munding did not expect that he would be able to have another human figure complete with all his senses, in the boundless darkness that had imprisoned him all this time.

But Munding felt it.

A process of creation, from nothingness to existence.

Wasn't it! It is not a creation process. Because creation is the absolute right of the Creator. No creature can do that.

Munding knows that.

Munding is sure of that.

It's something else.

It is not a ‘creation’ that creates something from nothing that is truly gone, into being.

Because Munding knew that he was already in this world of darkness. So he didn't create. That's not a creation. It was just an...

Manifestations.

Bring up something previously unseen to be visible. Turn something that was not real into reality.

But...

Munding suddenly thought, why should he manifest his form in this world of darkness. That means, Munding exists but it's not real, he exists but he doesn't exist.

Munding tried again to think hard, he knew that this time, the direction and purpose of his way of thinking was right, there was only a thin layer that blocked him from the truth he was looking for.

A truth that Munding believes will take him out of this place. And save Nurul.

There is but not real. Existing but intangible.

Munding's head was suddenly like it was struck by lightning when he thought of those two sentences. In his head was a single word that instantly appeared when he muttered the two sentences earlier.

Intents.

Intent exists but seems unreal and has no form.

“Am I now the embodiment of my intent?” ask Munding to himself.

But Munding immediately dismissed it. He has memories, he has memories. Even though he did not have five senses in this place. But he can feel emotions as he repeats his life, while re-remembering his past. He can feel sad, angry and happy.

“I am not an intent,” Munding said to himself.

Munding then tried to think back and now suddenly he smiled brightly, the answer was simple and very close, and in fact he had realized it a long time ago.

“I am self-consciousness. I am consciousness. I am a self. I am my identity as Munding. I am Munding,” muttered Munding quietly and he knew he was right.

Munding now realizes that there are at least two substances that from the beginning exist in this world of darkness. His consciousness and intent.

When Nurul comes, Munding's self-awareness manifests his intention to create the figure of Munding and become a container for Munding's self-awareness and can interact with Nurul. That's what happened back then.

But all this is done in this world of darkness.

Is there only Munding's self-awareness and intent within this boundless dark world?

Why not a world full of light?

Why not a normal world?

Or a world that resembles heaven and is full of beautiful angels?

Deg.

And Munding suddenly remembered his first meeting with ‘something’ that had changed the course of his life. The encounter he made years ago and paved his way as a fighting wolf.

The meeting that took place in a dark world that resembled the present.

The encounter between Munding consciousness and his instincts.

And that's when Munding woke up.

She smiles.

Now Munding also remembered that in fact he was never alone. Wherever and whenever there will always be someone who accompanies him.

His instincts.

Munding laughs, “picture umpet?”

“I have been stuck in this place for a long time. And only now do I realize it. ‘Kau’ is always here with me,” said Munding.

“Darkness?”

“Why do you love the dark?” munding said as he closed his eyes and tried to feel for himself where his instincts were now.

Munding kept trying and trying, but he didn't feel it. He did not feel his existence at all.

Munding was a little surprised.

“Am I wrong?”

“Why can't I feel my instincts in this world of darkness?” munding Gumam.

Munding kept glued to his place.

“What's wrong with my understanding?”

“What do I not understand about all this?”

“Is there still a gap in my understanding?”

“Although only for a moment, but I can manifest my intent earlier.”

“Although only here, in this world of darkness, but at least I can manifest my intent.”

This time, Munding did not feel like he had been struck by lightning, but more like being hit by a light far from the car in the opposite direction while driving at night as he re-thought his words just now.

“Here?”

“At this place?”

Suddenly an idea entered Munding's head and was unstoppable. A crazy thought that had never been stung in his head but now he believed the truth.

All this time Munding tried to understand the darkness that surrounded him with confusion. Try different approaches from different directions but without success. But now he realized that his approach was wrong.

Now Munding realizes that this dark world and all the darkness that surrounds it is the embodiment of Munding's own instincts. Not a foreign place or a place that might be located in the middle of nowhere.

Munding also realized that when he did awakening and initiation first, Munding instinct manifest itself in a figure that resembles him, therefore Munding always thought that such is actually the form of the Instinct.

But right now, Munding knows he's wrong. The figure that resembles him is just a manifestation done by the instinct to communicate with him. Just like Munding did earlier when he met Nurul.

The true form of Instinct is this world of boundless darkness.

And now Munding also realized that his own instincts that had trapped Munding's self-awareness so far.

When he realized that, Munding only whispered softly, “why are you doing this?"