Munding - Legend of the Wolf Fighter
Chapter 226 - Struggle
“Mas, son Mas is now getting naughty. Already started acting and likes to kick his mother's stomach, amused you know Mas it feels,” whispered Nurul to Munding's ears while stroking her husband's hair-friendly.
Although Nurul never got any answer or reaction from her husband who was still lying unconscious, but she still accompanied her husband all the time.
Nurul also always told me about his daily life.
About the content that began to grow.
About the actions of the little baby who began to rebel more and more in his womb.
About Amel who still remained faithful accompanied Nurul waiting for Munding.
Asma begins to move on with her life and pursue her happiness.
About everything.
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“Mbak Asma has now started to connect with a young man in our village Mas. The young man is good. Nurul was happy. At least he deserves his happiness. Isn't it Mas?”
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“Nurul sad Mas. Nurul has told Mbak Amel many times so that he remains focused on his studies. How many semesters he graduated. But he still wants Nurul's nemenin here.”
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“Sawah we will soon harvest Mas. Good for the preparation of the cost of childbirth our child. But Sister Cynthia has offered to mingelahirin here. Be close to me, he said. But Nurul until now has not been used here Mas. You see Nurul different himself.”
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“So USG time, Doctor Ma'am went to Nurul, Mas. Want to know the baby girl or boy dedek not, he said. But Nurul refused. Let's just surprise. Girls or guys are the same, right Mas?”
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“Mas Munding is not tired ya bobo continue? Don't want to see our baby? Wake up, huh Mas? Poor that Baby Dedek,"
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Day after day, week after week, month after month kept going. Nurul still accompanied Munding non-stop. Until finally, the time is approaching the delivery of the baby arrives. Doctors and Nurul's family began banning Nurul from continuing alongside Munding for the health of her soon-to-be-born baby.
A new life that will soon be born and incised his destiny in the world.
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Munding doesn't know how long he's been in this place.
Darkness without space and without time.
Munding tried all the ways that he knew and believed could make him free from this darkness but all without success.
Munding also tries to live his life back from the beginning by recalling all the memories he remembered from childhood until the moment he was hit by Hikari's attack.
One by one.
Event after event.
Memories for memories.
Bitter or sweet.
Everything was.
Because Munding knows, right now, he is just a self-consciousness without any material existence.
Munding did not want to lose the only thing left of him to disappear into this boundless darkness.
Self-awareness.
Munding repeated all the memories in his life many times, until he himself forgot how many times he had lived his life again.
She felt the same anger many times when she saw her mother. Many times felt the same sadness at the loss of his Father. Many times also felt the same way as he lived his happy life with his wife.
When Munding feels that his consciousness is beginning to fade and there is a speck of desire to surrender and allow himself to disappear into the darkness, Munding repeats his life.
Until now, after an immeasurable time. Munding still doesn't know where he is.
Alone, without being able to feel anything, without being able to listen to anything, without being able to see anything. In an immeasurable time.
Until one day, Munding wondered to himself.
Why do I have to be trapped in this darkness?
What exactly is this darkness covering her?
Is it actually darkness itself?
Is it dark at night?
Is it dark without light?
Is darkness a symbol of evil while light is a symbol of truth?
If darkness is a symbol of evil, then the entire universe is shrouded in evil at all times. Because the universe itself is filled with infinite dark space.
The light source only comes from the points of the star which are very insignificant compared to the darkness that envelops the entire universe.
Munding also began to wake up.
Why should he be afraid of the dark?
The life of every human being begins when the spirit is blown into the fetus in the womb and shrouded in darkness.
When life is over, all will also be returned into a hole in the ground that will be hoarded again and only darkness remains. Besides the torture of the grave that awaits of course.
Why should he feel that this place is a foreign place to him?
What is the difference between this darkness and the darkness she felt but had forgotten while in her mother's womb? As bad as her real mother.
Darkness is not the enemy.
Darkness is not something to be afraid of.
Darkness is not a crime.
We alone will determine what darkness will become.
Be friends?
Become enemies?
Being a scary scourge?
Become a comrade-in-arms?
When Munding came to the realization that all this time he had been wrong to think this dark world was something dangerous to him, he said, Munding sensed something for the first time after all this time he was in a world filled only with darkness.
A sense that he was no longer something foreign in this dark world.
A sense of comfort that provided calmness in his self-awareness.
A feeling of warmth that is not felt in the skin but directly into the self. Made Munding feel like he was where he was supposed to be.
Maybe this is how the fetus feels when in the womb of his mother, Munding muttered at this time.
Munding still has no taste sensation at this time.
Munding also still could not feel the concept of space and time in this place.
But now he no longer felt alien and threatened to be in this unbound darkness.
Because Munding knew that he shouldn't have considered this boundless darkness that surrounded him as something that endangered his self-awareness.
Because Munding also knew that this darkness would never swallow his consciousness and make him disappear like a black hole between a pool of ink.
The more Munding realized about the darkness around him, the more interested Munding to know and explore it further.
Since Munding also harbors a wish, “maybe someday, when I understand this darkness that now surrounds me, I can escape from here and return to meet my family.”
After so many times and so long trying every effort to escape from this boundless dark world. Munding decided to use this method in order to return home.
It may take a long and long struggle, but Munding promised himself he would keep trying and trying.
