LOVE SONGS OF LOLOBATA

LONGS

My brain is getting smaller because I remember Bray. I avoided continuing the debate by cleaning up the camera and tripod and putting it in a backpack. How shameful I would have been if the two men had known what was really floating in my imagination. They must be laughing at me. So stupid. How can I analogize the halmahera angel and the male timor deer to a Bray and get emotionally involved when he's not who I am. I'm just an admirer. Just look at the beautiful charm from a distance. Don't get caught any further than that.

In reality, the big boss was far out of reach. Like a star in the sky, he is unreachable. It can only be seen from a distance if the sky is not covered with clouds. The sky is currently overcast. Bray wouldn't look in my eyes even though my desire to look at him was so big and so big. Is this what's called 'missing'?

"I'm very interested in taking care of this deer, Fifa. I'll permit Firdaus to build a cage on the land over there." Dr. Hans pointed to a location not far from the aviary.

"Are we going to build a zoo here, Doctor?" askaku origin perceptive.

Doctor Hans laughed. "Of course not. This deer is a gift God sent us, Fifa. He was present when we were just beginning our efforts for the conservation of endemic animals in this region. I fell in love with this deer. I want to take care of him and his children. What can you do, Brother Andi?"

"Let's get his permission, Doctor. Hopefully allowed for rehabilitation and captivity purposes."

Dr. Hans was very enthusiastic. So enthusiastic he did not feel the need to ask his wife's approval for the intention of adopting the poor deer. Bray's in his brain.

"I'll call Firdaus soon." Doctor Hans reached into his pocket and pulled the device out of it.

Tut tuut tuut. The video call was directly connected to a loud sound mode that we could hear together.

"Hello. Assalamu'alaikum, doctor Hans. How are you doing? When to arrive in Lolobata?" Bray's typical baritone voice sounds incline greeting sentences in a relaxed style.

I smile. Just hearing her voice has made me enthusiastic and smile at my own smile. I hope that after this he will ask doctor Hans how he used to do every time he communicated with Jim in the office. I want him to remember me. I missed that moment all day.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, firdaus. We're a good family. Just yesterday, PT XY drivers were picked up at Buli airport. Thank you so much for your help."

Bray's laughter sounded crisp, "Sama-sama. Hope you're right there, Doc. God willing I will follow if my business here is settled."

I hope your business is done quickly, Bray. It was a spontaneous hope that appeared in my heart.

"The name of the state servant must be able to adjust placed anywhere, mas Firdaus. Thank God thanks to the new Firdaus mas arrived here we have been able to many new friends who sincerely help even though they are not yet familiar. The atmosphere here is also pleasant, still beautiful and peaceful."

"Doctor Fahira isn't a mall kid, is he?"

"Oh, no. He was a man and used to live in the village. Every now and then he refreshes shopping to the mall. Daily shopping in traditional markets is enough. It's very different from Maudy."

Ufh, apparently doctor Hans also know that name. It seems that their relationship is quite close. But why wasn't doctor Hans the one who was asked to be the foundation's administrator? His knowledge and experience are more powerful. I became suspicious of my own abilities. I must have only been made a puppet because of the frills of the sons of the region.

I bit my own lips. My emotions are a little disturbed every time I hear Maudy's name called. Though I have no serious problem with that beautiful young stain. I just don't want her to be Bray's fiance. Because of him Bray was taken hostage in Jakarta.

"Have you met Fifa and Andi, Doc?"

"It has. I'm with them now."

"They're good, right?"

I don't know why I was disappointed to hear Bray ask them. Akh, I forgot. I'm a nobody. Don't expect to be treated special. Indeed, it should have asked with the word 'they' because there is Andi here as well. My position is absolutely no more important than Andi's.

Doctor Hans deliberately pointed the camera at my face. Only 2 seconds. My chance to see her magical smile is not wasted. Nyes, like a drop of thirst-quenching water. Seeing his smile, all my heart was broken. Oh, my God, why should he be the one you gave me that smile? Why not the others?

I don't know. Between desire and action is often out of sync. Even if I wanted to see him for longer, I couldn't greet him. My tongue suddenly stifled. I choose to be silent and to endure shame. All this time I never dared to call him directly. If there's a need for the foundation, I'd rather talk to his assistant, Hisham or Jim. My miss is still rolled up in a locked heart. I don't want anyone to know how I feel. Neither did he. Because this is not the miss I was expecting. The forbidden miss.

In a matter of 2 seconds, Hans' doctor instantly turned the camera towards Andi. The man smiled at the camera while waving his hand.

"Hello, mas Firdaus." greeted Andi with a carefree tone.

I envy Andi who can always be sweet to everyone. He always looks carefree and fun even though his true nature sucks. He can always greet people without burden.

"Hi, Andi. How's our conservation project going?"

"On the right track, boss. Aviary is done. When's inauguration?"

"His steward's mother is stingy and a pouty hobby. Afraid of being bitten by me if you ask a lot." Andi commented while glancing at me with a rancid smile.

I widened my eyes while pouting. I want to stick his head. It's good to say I'm stingy. I'm not stingy, just disciplined on a budget. There was no budget for the aviary inauguration party like Andi wanted.

In my heart I murmured in annoyance. Let alone for a party, funds for the operation of the next 3 months just do not know how the fate.

"This afternoon I'm dropping off a jungle chicken and a cassowary, boss. Tomorrow the collection of the twisted beak of doctor Hans is just about to arrive. Aviary will be more crowded by the singing of various types of birds. When does the boss return to Lolobata? Don't you want to see the progress of our project?"

Bray didn't answer.

"Try listening! This afternoon the aviary is bustling by the sound of birds singing." Doctor Hans put an index finger in front of his lips. We were all silent as directed by Dr. Hans. We gave Bray a chance to hear the birds singing this afternoon. Perhaps by watching and hearing himself through live video how the condition of the Aviary, he will be interested in flying here. This time I agreed with both men. I also hope Bray will come to Lolobata soon so that he can look at his smile more.

Dr Hans made the video clear by pointing his camera up, where birds were either flying or perched on trees.

"Ish, cool." praised Bray.

"In addition to the birds, Andi entrusted a female timor deer that the forest police had just found. The deer was pregnant and injured. Placed here for intensive care from the veterinarian." Dr. Hans now directs his camera to a deer that is still sleeping on the grass.

"Green deer. Good that." Bray's voice sounded louder and more enthusiastic.

Doctor Hans used one hand to stroke the deer's back while expressing his intention to make a cage on a piece of land not far from the aviary.

"We need about 200 square meters, Mas. We only need a perimeter bamboo fence about 120 cm tall to localize deer from predators for a healthier, safer and more comfortable life. The Russians will be released freely at that location. But we still love additional feed and nutrients to support the health and growth of the fetus. I'll check the deer's health routine myself."

"I agree. I concur. The brilliant doctor's plan. Run anything for the good of the deer. About the cost ask first the same foundation board. Even if his face is broken, he is loving. He must have agreed with the doctor's plan, right?" he said pretentiously.

Doctor Hans glanced at me. I couldn't help but smile and nod my head. Though the shadow of the operational costs of the next 3 months has helped my brain. Moreover, plus unexpected costs for stables and deer care that the amount is definitely quite large.

"Yes, Fifa has agreed." replied the dojter Hans confidently

Eits, I haven't said anything. Doctor Hans apparently made three dollars with Andi and Bray. Is every man like that? Likes to underestimate small things that might cause problems. I just nodded as if I agreed.

"What did I say, he would agree." Bray whipped the gong of justification while chuckling softly.

"She was excited to learn how to be the pregnant mother of that deer, Boss."

Well, what slander is this? I never said that.

"Ohya?"

"Yes. He's ready to be fertilized hahaha."

I heard Bray's laughter exploding along with Andi and Dr. Hans' laughter. Between shame and annoyance piled into one. But I can only be quiet.

"Will Fifa get married?"

"Already, Doctor." I let Andi talk.

"Who's the candidate?"

"Secret."

"Hopefully the nature of her future husband is not like a male timor deer who can leave their own females fighting for their love fruit life. I don't want your fate to be the same as that doe, Fifa," said Dr Hans, smiling wisely. It seemed like he was seriously responding to Andi's words from soy sauce.

Again I did not answer. Just guarantee doctor Hans's words in the heart. There was no laughter or comment from Bray. I don't know what he's thinking. Shortly after, Dr. Hans hung up the phone.