
I felt like I had to go through this confusing time alone. Not wanting to trouble my mom and family, I was just being patient about things that pleased them. All my troubles and confusion I kept to myself. But God sent Farhana doctors who would come to help me through the difficult times of self-acceptance. He peels the problem without forcing it
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Thanks to her help, I joined the online community of young mothers who are both facing the beginning of their first pregnancy. Many funny stories and problems poured out young mothers. There are stories of pregnant women who have to go to the hospital because of lack of fluids due to excessive vomiting. There are pregnant women who ask for moral support after being diagnosed with pregnant wine, toxoplasma, and various other pregnancy problems that are eventually forced to give up their failed pregnancies and must undergo a curettage procedure. There are silly pregnant women who crave strangely and deliberately troublesome everyone. Despite all the problems, I do not feel alone because there are also other pregnant women who tell of strange experiences fearing the sun.
The problem of pregnant women is many. The severity and problems of each person are different. I don't think my problem is too heavy. There are pregnant women who do not want a pregnancy and are forced to go through the weight of hormonal changes alone. While the man who impregnates her is irresponsible and the family throws herself away for the shame of her child getting pregnant out of wedlock. While my pregnancy is highly anticipated by my husband's family. My family is still paying attention and supporting me.
My problem actually comes from within myself. All my psychological problems are caused by having to accept reality that is different from the will of the heart. Rejection is what triggers prolonged anger and sadness.
"I saw that Firdaus was patient and attentive. You're lucky to have a husband like Firdaus lo, Fifa." Farhana's doctor praised Bray.
I'm nodding. Smile, though my heart does not fully agree with what Farhana's doctor said. I suspect Bray remains kind to me just for the sake of the child his parents crave as heir to his family dynasty. In my brain he is a male halmahera angel full of charm. Soon the halmahera angel will dance and conquer another female. The instincts of the male halmahera bird are polygamous. His passion featured a beautiful aerial dance, gliding with his wings and developing his striking green breast protective fur while his long white fur on his back was fluttered around. While ugly females are only used as mere reproductive satisfaction.
"really. Firdaus is a dream husband. It's been handsome, successful, and attention-grabbing. If there's another one like Firdaus's, I'll order you brother." Aryati added while smiling flirtatiously.
Spontaneously I hit Aryati with the big teddy bear I was carrying.
Bugs. The sweet girl was surprised. A moment later smiled, glanced at me for a while, then continued his work of collecting and recording all the affairs of the organization.
"You're a real job. Don't like the same attention of people's husbands."
"Yes, Brother. If you have a husband like a Firdaus mas it must be fierce, brother. A lot of people care about it. Hihih." Aryati giggles herself.
Hid. My head is like growing horns. Want to grin but I did not do it for the sake of authority. What Aryati said has a point. Without me noticing I'm becoming fierce and sensitive. Everything that concerns the husband is a threat and can be quickly responded to with impulsivity.
Doctor Farhana smiled wisely then grabbed my shoulder.
"Don't put to heart what Aryati said, Fifa. Mas Firdaus is dead love with you. No way to turn around, let alone the same little dime like Aryati."
Aryati is still giggling. The girl was not at all offended said spare change. He was also not angry when I hit him with the big doll. Does he consider all this a joke that shows our familiarity? It should have been wiser if I had smothered him with a prank. Not with anger.
Doctor Farhana patiently helped me understand the situation and was grateful for the presence of this innocent fetus. He has taken over a lot of my work at the foundation. In addition to being more expert and experienced, Farhana doctors have a broad vision of bird conservation. The latest news we received writing about the island's distinctive birds has just been published in a scientific journal.
The arrival of Salman after resigning from his duties as agricultural extension officer in Jailolo made my business increase. I had a new activity that made me forget about my pregnancy. I have a new habit of visiting Salman who often lives in our hometown to see the development of the construction of an integrated coconut processing plant that is being built on our family land. Our house is always crowded with mama and fathers who gather and share stories about various things. As usual, I listen more to their stories and complaints.
"How to buy our coconut grove, Fifa. We really do not have money to pay debts and daily necessities. The flowers get bigger. The price of copra is still low. Dizziness us."
"A hectare of tana here must be cheap for city people. Not much for Mr. Firdaus." added another.
"Come, Fifa! Please buy our tana! We are confused about how else if the price of copra like this continues."
"Ngoni doesn't like being our partner, Frans? Just wait a minute until our factory is ready for operation."
"Sa su dizzy doled father Sopa's debt. A little harvest can not be enjoyed by the family. Su had to recoup his growing debt and interest. How can the family live?"
Ah, it is also difficult to find a solution for copra farmers who have already been entangled in loan shark debt. The plant needs time to take care of licensing and operational preparation. While their debt continues to swell due to interest. There was no way to help them except by buying their garden.
"How much do you want to sell?" my many.
"Fifty million suda. So the market price of an acre of coconut groves is still productive here."
"OKAY. Sa buy." I finally bought the land without bidding for a penny.
Not only one or two people offered his land. Others have offered their land for almost similar reasons. That's why I used my personal money to buy about 20 hectares of coconut plantations sold by desperate farmers after months of selling copra commodity prices held below economic value. It even went down. Said Salman, this is actually a result of the euphoria of copra prices that in previous years had touched Rp 13,000 and even Rp 15,000 per kilo. Seeing the success of farmers growing coconuts, almost all farmers in the village turned to planting coconuts. When the abundant supply of commodity prices fell in the range of Rp 5,000 perkilo and even penetrated the unreasonable price, which is Rp 3,500 perkilo dry copra. As a result, the farmer languished.
Don't know how next. I don't think about what profit I got from buying a large coconut grove. It's just pity. They had to sell land. Whereas on the other hand they also ask us to accept their services as laborers in our plantation companies with employment contracts that offer a fixed income.
Oops. Apparently they're taking a risk on us. For them it is easier to manage income as laborers. The amount is more certain compared to coconut gardening. Whereas Salman offers gardening solutions with polyculture methods so that there is product differentiation. His suggestion in one farmer's land combine coconut plants with clove, coffee, nutmeg, pepper, or other spices in anticipation of a decline in commodity prices in the long run. But of course the advice only applies to farmers who still have money as capital to change planting patterns that were originally designed monocultures where farmers only grow one type of plant on the land.
After meeting with coconut farmers the other day, Salman and Bray immediately conducted feasibility studies and plant construction planning. We will establish partnerships with local farmers in the provision of whole coconut fruit raw materials that will be processed in an integrated manner. Of course this can cut the distribution chain of crops, because we buy whole coconuts directly from farmers and process them into products with higher economic value. The main products of the plant to be built are copra and VCO. But we will use modern technology to process various byproducts such as coconut coir, coconut shell charcoal briquettes, and organic fertilizers. All the components of the coconut fruit nothing is thrown away for free. The meat is turned into the main product. The coir is cleaned into fine coir that can be sold as raw materials for making sofas or other products. The powder is processed into charcoal briquettes. The rest of it all including coconut water will be collected and fermented into organic fertilizers to fertilize our gardens. Everything contained in coconut fruit is useful and has economic added value if sold in the form of processed products.
Efforts to implement the idea of developing a coconut plantation business initiated by Salman began with trial resistant. Our factory started on a small scale. The important thing is to absorb the coconut harvest of villagers who are our partners. We don't want to be rash because as a new player. We still need to observe the product market and monitor the competitive situation. The main goal is not to make a profit, but to prosper coconut farmers and educate people about post-harvest processing.