LOVE SONGS OF LOLOBATA

PRIVILAGES

The next day I never saw Bray again in the office. Jim said he went back to Jakarta to meet business colleagues and solve business problems as well as personal problems with his fiancee who looks like a witch. I'm still excited to learn a lot of new things from Jim. Sometimes I hear Bray ask me about my learning progress on the phone and Jim always gives good judgment.

A week went by and I've got the foundation's laptop inventory. I should've been able to self-taught at home but I still asked Jim to come to the office. Since Bray left Jim has asked me to help him with his work checking daily financial statements and making minutes of meetings when he has to lead meetings or have meetings with business partners in place of Bray. I did it with pleasure because then I could know a lot about the administration and management of the company.

"I'm sorry, Fifa. So troublesome."

"No problem, Jim. This way I can learn more. I'm even grateful that Jim's brother would like to believe in this task with me. Though Jim's brother has a staff that may be more competent than a Fifa."

"I asked for your help because you are smart, trustworthy, and proven to be able to learn quickly. The Siska and Bia slow work. Too much gossip and the results of his work are much wrong if not directed step by step like a baby who has just learned to walk. Dingy. It could break my head if it had to keep up with their work pattern like that."

Jim's complaint makes me feel bad. Glad my performance was well-praised, but regrettable that the two sweet-faced junior secretaries often passed in front of my desk while blurting out cynical words. Bia and Siska felt like I was taking over the job that was supposed to be their responsibility. Though honestly I only helped Jim as a return from gratitude. Jim had led me to introduce a lot of new knowledge that I had never thought of before. No money or anything. We are both willing to help each other.

In order to avoid conflict, the two junior secretaries I spoke to. I'm telling you that I'm not their competitor and my presence here is only temporary.

"Where the hell are you? New people have been able to trust to be an assistant secretary director." comments Bia with accompanied by a facial line that seems underestimated.

I chose not to answer, because they would have underestimated me more if I knew I was just a graduate of the C parcel equation exam. While I know both of them graduate secretarial academies.

"You're still Jim's relative? Or even his relative, sir Firdaus?" ask Siska who since the beginning of my arrival has always been curious about my status in this office.

"No. Nope. I'm not a relative of both. Please check in the personnel section, my status is not an internship or contract staff of the company. I'm only here for a while. My goal is just to learn the basic practices of organizational administration and management. I was asked to help Jim's brother also in order to learn really." I'm honest as it is.

If I told you what Jim said about their performance, they would be angry and offended. Therefore, although honest, I chose a more neutral sentence because my intention was not to look for enemies.

The two looked at each other, smiling cynically as they exclaimed, "Study?"

They still don't believe my honest confession. For me, all I do is learn.

"What you're saying is just getting more absurd, Fifa. Where may be outsiders who have no relationship what given training and trusted to help the strategic affairs of a secretary of directors. The company will not fail."

"Yes. Outsiders have a greater chance of leaking company secrets." Siska added while sharpening her cynical smile.

I scratch my head. There are no proper words to answer the question of why I am trusted and given more opportunities than those who are staffed by the company. I am a new person who has no status but has greater privileges. It does look weird. Of course I am in this position because of the role of Bray who is in fact the highest leader in this office. But I'm nobody to Bray. Vice versa. That's a hard thing to explain.

Bray's choice to drag me into cooperation to form a bird conservation foundation is a bit difficult to reason considering I'm a country boy who does not have qualified skills. That's why I need to be helped and given the opportunity to study here under his supervision. But I don't have to tell that reason to Bia or Siska. The problem will be increased in length and may be able to widen everywhere because it turns out that not all components of the company agree with the breakthrough of the CSR program conducted by Bray.

In my own heart there is still suspicion. Do not let Bray deliberately choose me who is a layman to be a pawn that will be sacrificed in the internal dispute of the company's shareholders.

Masabodolah. Dizziness me when thinking about assumptions that are not necessarily happening. I don't want to worry about something that hasn't happened. I have nothing to fear as long as I do right with a good cause. Just walk. Right now I enjoy the privilege of learning and helping Jim who has taught me new skills and knowledge. It is up to others to envy or doubt my good intentions. Just keep going.

On the other hand Jim is already comfortable working with me who does not like to talk much. His face was gloomy when I couldn't help him in the office anymore.

Jim doesn't talk.

"I will start an office there to facilitate coordination and determine a short-term work plan. Thank you so much for helping Fifa all this time. At times Fifa can still ask questions and consult with Jim's brother, right."

Jim grabbed my shoulder and looked at me with teary eyes. This guy is so sentimental. Though we could still meet each other outside the office, but he treated me like an older brother who would be left away by his sister.

"I also thank you for helping me a lot. But can't you help me any longer? Mas Bray has no news yet." he lamented in a raucous voice. Jim's eyes look soft and tired from lack of sleep.

Actually I'm sorry to see Jim working so hard all night lately. There are a lot of company issues to deal with. Jim's job and responsibilities grew when Bray as the company's top leader was nowhere in place. As Bray's confidant, Jim wasn't brave enough to make a decision. He only positions himself as a mediator and consultant to cases that are happening in the company environment. Whereas between the director of operations with Bray as the main director of the company is often out of sync and dissent. Jim had a very difficult time bridging it considering the director of operations is the right hand of the Maudy family who also have shares in this company. Not infrequently Jim had to step aside to collect evidence and additional information that is quite a lot and ensure accuracy to be submitted to Bray as a basis for making decisions. He really should be Bray's eyes and ears as long as the director is not here.

"I don't have any believable storymates, Fifa. I'm afraid Bray's being held hostage can't stay here anymore. His role here is important."

"Handson?" This word is still a bit foreign to my ears. There is a war until someone has to be a hostage.

Jim nodded.

"If Bray can't stay here, maybe I should find a job somewhere else. I'm not strong with the pressure from the power-assisted director of operations. I'm not the one who dares to take decisions that involve a lot of risk." Jim always regretted his shortcomings.

"I'm sorry, Fif. The continuation of the disbursement of CSR stage 2 funds also does not know how the fate. Mas Bray has yet to get a bright spot on how to resolve the conflict with his own fiance." Jim looked tired and uninspired. Many times he lowered his head with his arms.

I was a little shocked to hear this news because the grant funds that have been dropped from the company are only enough to finance operations for 3 months. What about the next operational costs?

Regretted? Ah, no. Legality is in order. Aviary and the simple office had already woken up. The operational staff of the foundation have also been recruited and are on a road trip to the newly built office site. Bray has spent hundreds of millions to fund the foundation. It's a pity if you have to be dismissed at the beginning of this journey. I have to commit to the cooperation agreement that we have signed. Whatever will happen is up to later, now just live it first as you can.

"Saranku you start trying to make a proposal that contains work programs and activities. Later I help edit and spread the proposal to the company colleagues. I keep Bray's trust to help you. If I'm not here, please don't keep calling me. We have a lot of business partners. Mana knows there is one who is interested in the proposal of this Halmahera forest endemic bird conservation program."

Without asking Jim to offer a solution for the benefit of the foundation.

I immediately smiled. In my heart I encouraged myself. Stay back, Fifa. Fight on!

"Yes. Tomorrow I start trying to make proposals and foundation profiles. I need a discussion first with Dr. Hans and the more expert doctor Feriska what is needed for conservation programs as well as bird breeding. I also have to consult with Andi so that the program is more aligned with the environmental service program."

Jim smiled. Although his gloomy face had not faded. His face painted a lot of burdens that he had to bear alone. I just understood, it turns out that in any place there are always conflicts and relationships that are not symmetrical.

My smile and spirit were enough to make Jim come back bright-faced. "I will always be with you and help Jim. Spirit dong, Brother. We'll keep trying and praying together."

Jim nodded.