Love of the Past

I miss you

"Are you pregnant, Lin?" asked Doctor Nia after checking on me.

"No, Brother. You can't be the same word" I replied.

"There are signs of pregnancy?"

"I don't think so, brother. Nausea was just this morning," I answered trying to laugh at the direction of Doctor Nia's question.

"It's you pregnant, you know," she said.

Mom looks surprised. Especially me.

"Ah, no way, brother. Last month I got it, really," I denied.

"Full?"

"That's only three days, anyway."

"Usually?"

"Six to eight days."

"It's implantation bleeding. Or even light bleeding due to exhaustion or strenuous activity. Just a little bit, right? The color isn't as close as usual, is it?"

I tried to remember and finally nodded.

"It's been almost two months, Lin. Mending now go straight to the obstetrician, I'm going to go" said Dr. Nia.

My chest feels tight. I wanted to cry but no tears came. I am confused, happy or even sad.

"Come, Honey. We're going to the hospital right now," Mom responded immediately and gave me warm clothes.

I immediately put on the warm clothes that mom gave me and got out of bed slowly.

Once we got to the hospital, we didn't have to wait in line. Doctor Nia's already booked a line for me.

"Bu Lintang can see, this is the mother's womb, and this is her fetus. He was about six weeks old," the gynecologist said reflexively made my tears flow.

I stared at the monitor that projected my fetus. He was there. Yeah, he was there. And for the second time I did not welcome his arrival.

"Congratulations, dear. Word must be so happy you are pregnant again," said Mother as she rubbed my head.

"Sorry Latitude, Mom," isakku.

"Are you even sorry? I'm so happy you're pregnant again."

"Last star knows again. The latitude is really insensitive," I said.

"It's okay, Nduk. The important thing is that you and your fetus are healthy" comfort Mom.

"You're fine, Lin," said Doctor Nia.

"Yes, Brother. This time Lintang will not be careless anymore," I promise.

We went home after all the recipes were ransomed. And I became more protective of you. He made me porridge and bought me pregnant mother's milk. Without pause, he advised me with a lot of wobble. He told me to rest a lot.

I rubbed my stomach. There is still a deep trauma in my heart. I'm afraid of losing again.

"Welcome, my dear. I'm Mama. I'm sorry, my mom didn't know you were in here. Your father would be so happy if he knew you were in your stomach again. Papa hasn't gotten off the plane yet. If we checked yesterday, Papa wouldn't have left. The strong yes, dear. We'll fight together until you're born."

I was lying down when my phone rang.

Who'sisthis?

I picked up the call.

"Assalamu 'alakum," I said.

"Wa 'alaikum greetings, dear."

I sat down immediately.

"Man ...."

"Yes, Honey. You must miss me, huh? Same, I miss you too" he said there.

Suddenly I sobbed.

"Lho, why Lin? You cry?"

I didn't answer anything. Only a sound came out of my lips.

"Dear, what's wrong with you? I don't want you to be sad. I went back there, yeah. Let me cancel this trip. I'm on transit in Amsterdam."

"Don't, I'm fine. You just keep going."

"Not crying, dong. My heart hurts when you cry. Later when I get there, we'll video call, yes," he said.

"Yes." Yeah."

"What are you doing now?" tanyakanya.

"Again, trying to get some sleep. I didn't sleep at all, Man. I'm not used to not sleeping with you."

"Geez, Lin. Don't dong, honey. You will be sick" he said sounding sad.

"I'm okay Man. I promise, I'll take care of my health" I said.

"OK if that's it. Try now you are crashing. Uhhuh?"

I closed my eyes, "Udah."

"I was horrified, yes. I'm right next to you. Rubbing your hair slowly. I pecked your forehead long, lamaaaaa. You feel it, honey? I rubbed your white cheeks, I left a kiss there. I love you, dear." He said it so fervently and with all his heart.

Tears were pouring from both ends of my eyes. I'm grateful to be stuck in our love deal, man. Being your wife is the best choice in my life.

"I love you too, Man," I said.

"If so now you rest, yes. As soon as I get there I call you again."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Assalamu 'alaikum, dear."

"Wa 'alaikum greetings, Man."

I'm closing my phone call.

"Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant, Lin?" ask the mother who walked closer to the bed. He seems to have been listening to my conversation since.

"Lintang was afraid Mas Firman went straight back here, Mom," I said.

Mom rubbed my hair.

"When do you want to say it?"

"Later if the Word comes home."

"You sure?"

I nodded, "The stars will try, Mom."

"Yes, if you want that. I'm the same Arum also won't say the same Word."

"But you have to eat a lot, yes" said Mother.

"Yes, Mom," I tried to smile.

I am determined, I will not trouble the Word. I won't make him sad. I will try my hardest to return to the old latitude. Independent, strong and cheerful.

The Word really does realize his speech. When he arrived in Berlin, he called me. Every night, he would accompany me until I fell asleep. The five-hour time difference between Berlin and Bandung does not seem to affect him. He tried to tell me often. And I try to always look cheerful in front of him. Take good care of myself and my baby. Make myself happy. Fulfill everything I want without bothering others.

Mother's words are right, time will not be felt when we use it for useful things that make our hearts happy. Working happily, meeting passionate and positive-minded people makes my time go by.

"Darling, tomorrow I go home" he said in a happy tone.

"Really, Man?" I just can't believe it. It was only her twelfth day in Germany.

"Yes, honey."

"Alhamdulillah!" happy pujiku.

"I can finally hug you, baby. It feels so long. I'll call, next time I'll take you wherever I go" he said, posting a smile.

"What are you going to do, man?" my many.

"There is only one thing I want to eat" he replied.

"What?"

"You!"

"Hush, don't say that. Tomorrow I will say that you have arrived here" I said with red cheeks.

"I key you two days and two nights" he said, still continuing his lecherous words.

"I can't" I replied with a smile.

"Can't you?"

"Can't be anyway."

"The more curious I am, the longer I lock you in the room" he threatened.

I just laughed.

"Yes, sneak home, and lock me in the room" I challenged with seductive eyes.

"Lin ...," he said with a growl.

I hurried to turn off the screen. Let him be curious there.

...

I'm standing at the arrival terminal. It was impatient to wait for Word to come out by dragging his suitcase. The plane that Firman was riding has been landing since.

"A long time, anyway" I murmured as I glanced at the watch.

I've dressed up as pretty as possible to pick her up. A white dress with a small blue flower motif on the end became my choice. Given my young pregnancy, I chose flat shoes for my footwear.

I was walking back and forth unclear. Every now and then my stomach gets a little crampy.

"Cross!" someone called.

I looked to find out who was calling.

"Hi, Di!" I shouted after seeing Setiadi walking towards me with a travel bag in his hand.

"You're all right, aren't you? Who's here?" tanyanya.

"I'm good, really. I'm waiting for the Word to come home" I answered honestly.

"Your number erased Lin. I want to talk about this a long time ago," he held both of my arms. "Taken me, you must be more careful. Never go out unattended."

I just stood there. Don't understand what he's saying.

"He can do anything. He used to hurt you. Now he's going to do the same. He doesn't want to see you guys happy" he said again.

"What are you talking about, anyway? She's she? She who?"

"Darling!" someone called me from behind.

I turned. Word is standing behind me. My smile immediately expands. I immediately rushed into his arms.

"I miss you so much" I said, tightening my arms.

"I miss you too, Lin," she said with one hand embracing me.

"If so, let's sneak home" pulled my hand impatiently.

"But, Man," as I was.

The Word does not heed what I say.

Setiadi could only shake my head to see me who was half dragged by the Word.

"Why is he there?" ask the Word when we get in the car. Mr. Min asked permission to go to the toilet for a moment.

"Who? Adi's? I don't know."

"You guys were talking" he said with a jealous tone.

"Geez, honey, are you jealous? I think you're the same Adi there's nothing else" I said without guilt.

"I miss you so much, but as soon as I see you, you're talking to her again" Word looked out the window.

"Darling ...," I held her cheek, forcing her to look at me.

He looked at me with a jealous look. Somehow seeing it like that kindled my desires.

I twisted my body, then shamelessly sat on his lap facing each other. I put both my hands around his neck.

"I just love you. It's just you, "without cue, I clasped his lips with passion to make the Word surprised. But a few seconds later she returned my kiss just as hot.

We let go of our lips when I ran out of oxygen.

"Darling, we're still in the parking lot, you're so violent. What if we're in the room?" he said while laughing.

I went back to thinking clearly. I immediately came down from the bosom of the Word and cleaned up my messy clothes. Embarrassing. Blame this pregnancy hormone. He did not look at the time and place to vent his feelings.

"Which Min, huh? To the toilet for a long time. Don't you stray anymore," I said, switching the conversation.

"No need to look after Mr. Min. Actually you are the old Mr. Min, "his god while rubbing my lips slightly swollen.

"The word!" hit his thigh. He's even chuckling.

"Saking kangennya so can not nahan until home, huh?" he still teases me.

"Here you go, yuk. Express. The glass is riben."

Now it's his arm's turn to get a pinch from me.

"No want! I want to go home! Some people wait at home," I cried.

"Who?"