Love of the Past

Come with me

Gina smiled at her wedding dress. The wedding is still 2 months away and the girl is actually looking forward to getting married to her fiance.

"I like her dress. It's very pretty. Especially the dress that will be worn for later. Very beautiful kebaya." Gina involuntarily hugged Neva who was beside her.

Kintan who was sitting on the sofa looked sullen. The date of her marriage to Eldar has not been determined.

"Mba Ki, what about mba? Nice right?"gina asked as she turned her body.

"Good." Reply Kintan looks less excited. Neva immediately approached Kintan and sat down next to him.

"Ki, don't you want to see your wedding dress design? The clothes aren't finished yet but they've started working on them."

Kintan. "I don't want to be too disappointed, Nev. Supposedly, if I were to be counted from our date of confinement, I would already be Eldar's wife by now. I was afraid that we would not get married. I'll kill myself if this happens."

"Don't think short like that." comfort Neva despite the fact that there is guilt in her heart because she knows the cause Eldar always postpones his marriage to Kintan is because of her.

"Which man would accept a woman who has been stained like me?" kintan asked half a whisper. Neva's heart is breaking. He was determined to talk to Eldar after returning home from work.

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At 19:15, Neva knocked on the door of Eldar's apartment. The guy himself opened it because it was after Neva's office had sent a message to Eldar that he wanted to talk.

Eldar looks handsome with a home shirt and shorts.

"Where's Rangga?" ask Neva.

"I told you to go."

"Good." Neva sat on the sofa. Eldar followed and sat down beside him.

"You want a drink? Or do you want to eat?" ask Eldar.

"No. I ate that."Neva took a deep breath. He looked at Eldar. "El, marry Kintan. He looks very desperate. He loves you, El."

"And I love you. Didn't I say that over and over again?" said Eldar while looking at Neva sharply.

"But, El. We can't be together. I don't want to build happiness on the suffering of others."

"And I don't want to be happy if you're not happy. We could've been together, Ev. If you want to marry me."

"El, that's impossible."

"What is impossible? You're already divorced. Your Iddah is over."

"El, our marriage will make Kintan feel hurt later."

"Yes already. Don't interfere in my affairs if you don't want to marry me."

"What do you mean you want to marry me, El?"

"Because I love you."

"To me, loving is to have." Eldar said firmly as he stared into Neva's eyes without blinking making Neva turn his face away with a puff.

"El..., Kintan definitely doesn't want to be polygamous."

"Only by polygamy can I marry you and follow your desire to marry Kintan. If you want me to marry Kintan, let me marry you first. I want my first wife to be you and not Kintan."

Neva knew that Eldar was serious about his words. Anyone who does not want to marry the man he loves. However, Neva does not want to be between Kintan and Eldar.

"El, think again. Kintan is a good girl" Neva said trying to persuade Eldar. He took Eldar's hand. "Our love is over, El. Maybe we're not fools."

"Our love won't end, Ev." Eldar slashed the distance between them and approached Neva. Both of his hands were on Neva's face and forced the woman to look at him. "The tremors of my heart are still the same as when I first saw you. Just by looking at you alone, my entire passion peaked. You don't know how tormented I am every time I come close to you like this without being able to touch you. You are the love of my life, the passion that moves my life. Living without you for 5 years is like being in a crowd but feeling alone. The first time I saw you in my office back then, I was like a person who had found encouragement in my life again. Therefore, don't ask me to be with someone else, if you don't want to be with me anymore. I'd rather be alone all my life than not have you anymore."

Neva's tears flowed upon Eldar's confession. He knows how hurt they are because they love each other but can't be together. Eldar brought his face closer to Nev's face after he wiped away the girl's tears. He slowly lowered his head, then took a sip of the woman's lips. Neva didn't reject Eldar's kiss. For the moment he wanted to enjoy this intimacy. Neva closed her eyes, put her hands around Eldar's neck and their kiss deepened. As deep as the love they feel.

Should they fuck guys ? 😅😅😅

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Elif looked at the photos sent by the detective she hired while figuring out her son's whereabouts in Sidney. Indeed, the photo of the girl is a bit less clear because it was taken from a long distance and the girl was also slightly turned back to the camera.

"Why are you again?" gina asked as she stepped into her mother's room.

"Just look at this."

Gina looked at the photos. "This is a picture of Eldar with his girlfriend in Sidney, right? Why else did my mom see it. Are they no longer related? Eldar doesn't even know where the girl is now."

"Mommy really feels like she looks like that WO Neva."

"Mba Neva?" Gina laughs. "Where is it possible, mi? This girl looks innocent, and ordinary. Mba Neva is beautiful, elegant, and a great career woman."

"But Neva is a university graduate in Sidney. He had not known each other before with Eldar."

"Mommy, not everyone at school in Sidney knows each other. Mama can do it, huh. Even if they know each other, is there an influence? Mba Neva is married."

"Yes too? Mami's just dizzy because your sister hasn't set a date for her wedding to Kintan. What made Eldar change?"

"Maybe brother is aware, mi. If he doesn't love Kintan."

"Well, don't you love Kintan? What's the girl lacking?"

"Beautiful anyway, mi. But Gina believes that Eldar's sister still holds love for her girl in Sidney. People said the girl had left with another man. That's what broke my brother's heart."

Elif's heart was in pain. He wants his children to be happy. So he will do anything to get his children the best match. What has he done wrong in the past?

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Eldar kissed the top of Neva's head sleeping in his arms. I will do anything to make you my wife, Neva. I don't want to lose you again.