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Lana

Lana POV's

A morning sun shot through Lana's bedroom window as she prepared for her first day at university. With a pounding heart, she wore carefully selected clothes and combed her hair neatly. He was nervous, but also full of enthusiasm to go through this new experience.

Upon arriving at the campus, Lana walked through the crowded hallways with other students rushing to class. Suddenly, several eyes were fixated on him as he walked past them. A sense of confidence grew within him, even though he was unfamiliar with such attention.

A few classmates stopped to invite her to join, and they warmly welcomed Lana. They exchange stories, laugh together, and offer help to Lana to understand the new campus dynamics. In the classroom, the professor recognizes his intelligence and dedication, making him even more motivated.

The views of admirers from classmates and other students evoke pride in Lana. He was delighted to be warmly received and appreciated not only for his performance, but also for his academic ability.

During the following days, Lana lives a vibrant campus life. He is involved in various activities, joining clubs and organizations, as well as making friendships with people who share similar interests and goals.

Lana's first experience at university forms an important part of her wonderful memory. Those were the moments where she felt her true strength and potential, not only as a beautiful woman, but also as an intelligent, passionate, and talented individual.

After the embarrassing events when Lana is caught off guard at university, the student's views on her change drastically. In the past, they admired her beauty and respected her for her academic ability. However, now their views were filled with judgment, disappointment, and even reproach.

As Lana walked through the corridors of the campus, her eyes could not avoid the cynical look and accusations directed at her. Previously, their eyes were full of admiration, but now it had become sharp and hateful. The students who used to want to talk and interact with him, now shunned him and chatted in low voices, making fun of him behind his back.

Lana can't erase a beautiful memory when she used to be surrounded by friends who supported her. He compares the friendly and warm outlook of the past to the full look of disappointment and rejection he is experiencing now. This drastic change tore his heart apart and fostered a sense of sadness as well as self-doubt.

No one understands how heavy the emotional burden Lana bears. He felt trapped in a circle of judgment and reproach without being able to escape. The sweet memories of people treating him with respect and appreciating his intelligence were further felt, replaced by sharp looks and insults that damaged his self-esteem.

Though painful, Lana knows that she has to stand up and maintain her integrity. He should not let the negative views of others undermine the confidence he has built up over time. In his heart, he still holds a memory that was full of kindness, and he is determined to fight back against the bad view and prove that he is more than just a mistake that happened.

"it's all because of Kevin, he ruined my life. Now I'm being asked to marry Kevin. Kevin you're evil Kevin, evil"

"Why am I so easily fascinated by her charm? Why am I unable to see the truth hidden behind her sweet smile? I was caught in his dangerous nets, and now I have to feel the consequences. This pain and destruction took hold of me, and his mistakes ruined my life"

Lana blames Kevin for seducing her and forgetting the values I have. Kevin is very capable of playing Lana's heart as if Lana is just a toy in his hand

"If I hadn't been involved with it, I probably wouldn't have felt this kind of suffering"

However, while pondering deeper lana also realized that she could not just blame Kevin completely.

Mistakes that have occurred cannot be underestimated.

Inside her dark room, Lana pondered over everything that had happened. Anger burns within him when he thinks of his parents' words. It was like a knife piercing his heart. How could they not understand? How could they be so forced to continue the engagement with Kevin, just based on the mistakes that have occurred?

Lana felt angry and humiliated. He felt ignored and was considered to have no right to his own decision. Why didn't they see that he was too young to get married? Why do they not understand how important their academic future is?

Tears began to flow from Lana's eyes, reflecting her deep sadness. He doesn't know what to do. It felt like his life was being overwhelmed by the shadow of someone else's decision, regardless of his own desires.

Lana wants true love, not forced engagement. He wants to feel the freedom to pursue his dreams and reach his full potential. Pondering over the future that had yet to materialize, his heart felt heavy and full of regret.

But amidst her grief, Lana also realizes that she must take control of her own life. He must not continue to strangle himself with anger and regret. There was a power within him that he needed to find and fight for.

With determined determination, Lana wiped away her tears. He knew that he had to be brave and choose the right path for himself. He would talk to his parents, expressing his disapproval firmly, but with great respect. He will explain that he needs to pursue his dreams and learn from his own mistakes.

Lana is ready to find happiness and fight for a better future. She will prove to her parents and herself that she is a strong woman who is able to determine her own path.

In the silence of her room, Lana sat alone on the edge of the bed. She contemplates her relationship with Kevin becoming increasingly broken and unhealthy. Disappointment, unhappiness, and dissatisfaction had filled his days. This feeling can no longer be ignored or avoided.

Lana clasped tightly into her own hands, trying to calm her raging mind. He decided that it was time to end this relationship. The word "disconnected" flashed through his mind, bringing hope of liberation from the emotional torment he was going through.

Inwardly, Lana thought of strong reasons to end their relationship. He feels unappreciated, incomprehensible, and unhappy with Kevin. They no longer had a strong bond, and Kevin's presence had become too much of a burden to bear.

"He no longer gives me the true love I need" Lana thought sadly. "I deserve a relationship that makes me happy, one that supports and understands each other. I can't continue to be in a relationship that's just a waste of time and energy."

In her decision, Lana felt firm. He understands that separation will not be easy, but he must take this step for his own sake. She wants to rediscover the happiness, freedom, and peace that has long been lost in their relationship.

Lana looked at the mirror in front of her, meeting her own eyes. He saw the strength and courage within him that he had to show. Even though his heart was wounded and there was a deep pain, he knew that he deserved the best.

"From this moment on, I will free myself from these shackles," Lana's inner self with determination. "I will dare to face this decision and choose to be happy. I deserve to find a true love that suits my heart, that makes me grow and develop."

With a feeling of relief and a little fear, Lana takes a difficult but important decision. He is determined to meet Kevin and end their relationship with courage and decisiveness. He wanted to step forward without the burden he had been carrying for a long time.

Breakup. The word echoed in Lana's mind with undeniable certainty. He felt the burden that had previously weighed on his shoulders begin to lift. This is the first step towards recovery and re-discovering her true self.

Breaking up. breaking up..