Just Pasrah

pasrah, wrong Lana

If there is one word that matches this incident, can this be called surrender.

Lana was frustrated with herself. Every time he thought about how complicated the situation was, anger and disappointment rippled in his heart. He never intended to be the cause of relationship breakdown, let alone rob his best friend of happiness. However, somehow fate seems to have asked him to be part of this bitter scenario.

Sitting alone in her room, Lana pondered with empty eyes. His heart was torn between feelings of love and guilt. He did not want to become an actor, but his heart could not deny that Rayhan had become the last port for him. Resigning, the word continued to echo in his mind. Despite being referred to as an actor, resignation was the only thing he could do right now.

Resignedly.

He understands that he must accept this reality, even though it signifies he has stepped past the limits of his best friend. Resigning, he allowed himself to get swept up in these mixed feelings.

However, he also knew that resigned does not mean giving up just like that. He had to figure out a way to repair any damage that had already occurred, even though it felt very difficult. Resigning, the word was like a spell that reminded him that life is full of trials and destiny that are hard to predict.

Lana took a deep breath, trying to gather her thoughts and emotions. Although his heart was broken and tormented, he would try to face all the consequences of his choices. Resigning, he would go through each step with awareness and responsibility, even though it meant that he had to carry a heavy burden on his shoulders.

In the silence of her room, Lana looked out the window. He decides to accept his destiny resignedly, hoping that someday, things will get better. Resignation, the word became a source of strength for Lana to remain steadfast in the face of such a severe ordeal.

The atmosphere in Lana's house has changed drastically since Mia's incident in Lana's room . Mama Lana who was previously attentive and tender, now looked angry and disappointed. Her sharp gaze sometimes flashed at Lana, but she deliberately ignored her daughter in every way. Every time Lana talks or tries to interact, Mama Lana seems to ignore it on purpose.

It's just that Papa Lana doesn't know about this cold war between his son and his wife.

"What is the issue of the invitation and the wedding dress is it all done?"" papa Lana said in a relaxed tone, he was busy feeding his own fur with food so as not to see the reaction of his wife.

"All this, just wait for the day"

At first Mama Lana wanted to do it with her own hands, like looking for a bridal outfit and trying her best for her daughter even though getting married was just a simple way .But after he knows the cause and effect .He became emotional and felt no need to do fancy things.

Mama Lana unilaterally considers this marriage a punishment for her daughter for breaking religious norms by ****free.Even having no conscience by depriving her best friend's lover of her own.

"Dear, but it's okay to spend a little more money just do the best Hem" said Papa Lana.

"no need to be extravagant in reward anyway lest we squander the savings just for this marriage. Remember to old age "mama said with a sniffle.

Lana stared blankly at her plate, feeling heavy-hearted. She knew that her mother was very angry with her and that made her feel uncomfortable.

Papa Lana tried again, "Have you thought about how you wanted to celebrate your wedding, Lana? What's your plan?"

Lana gulped, feeling tense. She knew her Mama would not answer, but she tried to answer Papa Lana's question.

"I... I thought, we can do something simple, Papa," Lana said in a weak voice.

Papa Lana nodded, "Simple is a good choice. But what about your friends? Are they coming?"

Lana bit her lips, feeling increasingly afraid of her Mama's reaction. He felt like he was walking on a thin wire, afraid that every word that came out of his mouth would trigger further anger.

"You can pick them up or I can help with that" added Papa Lana.

Mama Lana finally spoke in a cold tone, "No need, just let Lana handle everything."

What kind of friends can Lana invite. One of the jobs in the office of the shahbanda could not be invited. Going to invite former friends of the faculty would also be very embarrassing .Because they all know about Mia dating Raihan.

It is impossible to invite people.

Lana tried to smile, but the smile felt bitter and weak.

A few days later, Mama is still like that. Sometimes Mama is busy with some work on the grounds of an old marriage.

It is not easy to take care of the wedding but the treatment of Mama like this really makes Lana so not confident.

So two weeks before the wedding Alana peeked at papa. After Papa leaves usually Mama will also leave with an unknown busyness.

Lana immediately withdrew her mother's hand and begged for her sincere forgiveness.

"Mama, forgive lana mama.lana know wrong mah" he said with eyes that glistened.

Mama was also saddened by this one and only daughter who was crying but her heart was even sadder given what her daughter was doing behind her back.

She really became a cheap woman who puffed her body everywhere. Husband did not know but also knew maybe she would feel embarrassed too.

Mama had held it for days and now when Lana sat down to rest she did not feel sad but felt explosive emotions in an instant.

"Mama who should apologize to you Mama is not good at teaching children.The teaching about religion is lacking until you dare to open aurat and give your body to men who are not muhrim"my mother said disappointed.

" Just to get your own lover and best friend, are you willing to give up your body to her? Ah Lana, mama is your birth mother the one who gave birth to you. But mama wants to say, If only mama is not your real mother then you have been my mother kicked out of the house.mama is ashamed to admit you as a Princess, mama is ashamed of my daughter an actor" he continued

Lana doesn't know what to say, but what her mother said is the truth.

For Rayhan's sake he's willing to give himself up, for Rayhan's sake he's already an actor.

"Mama, Lana knew Mama was disappointed just as lana was. But mama did mama know Lana also didn't want to end up like this. Lana just fell in love with mom and just wanted to feel a moment of pleasure with her knowing it was wrong but Lana was helpless mama. Lana is only resigned to the fate that is given by God.maybe this is the way where to marry Raihan then Lana resigned mama, Lana resigned with divine destiny" said Lana who explained again.

Mr. Ustad said, there will not be a leaf falling on the earth without permission from God. So whatever the reason for today's incident and her marriage between her and Rehan is God's will.

Because he is only resigned, he is just following the path outlined by God.

Plaque...

"crazy, you're just looking for justification for the sins you've committed. God always gives people a choice. And what choices have you made, huh? After all you blame God for saying this is destiny?? What is Hem!!"

Mama gets angry and starts saying some things that make Lana dizzy.

Mama also slapped Lana many times and wished her daughter self-consciousness.

Here she began to cry and blame herself for never teaching her daughter more religious knowledge.

But on the other hand Lana is confused about what Mama is saying.

According to Lana, what happens is the destiny of God and he is a human who resigned to accept destiny.

So what's wrong with Lana who's resigned.

Please, Lana doesn't understand.