Just Pasrah

goodbye my love

On a sunny morning, Lana and the other KKN friends gathered in front of the hotel to go to the airport. They brought their suitcases and bags, ready to return to Surabaya after undergoing KKN for several weeks in Jogja.

"Lana?how are you and Ray Hem?"asked Dea with a face.

Lana knows that Dea was intentional last night, but the events after that will be her own personal secret that will never be shared with others.

Here Lana pretends to be pouting

"Dea thought we were friends, you'd have the heart.But Dea doesn't have any problems with me and Ray.We're friends just like you and me"

Dea looked at Lana and tried to see if there was anything Lana had hidden from her, but after a few seconds, Dea could not tell the difference.

"Sorry Lana, I think too much.Yes .So how's Hem going?"

Lana pinched Dea's nose with anxiety.She said if they did not stay long and immediately went home when he realized if he was in work.

Soon after that Dea laughed and apologized once again.

Likewise with Rayhan asked by Tommy, he also said things similar to Lana so that no one doubted the two of them.

The conversation immediately came to a halt when the car came and everyone immediately got into it.

The journey to the airport was fun and joking. Lana talks to her other friends, laughing and joking as usual. But when Lana's eyes accidentally met with Raihan, both of them were both indifferent and turned their eyes away.

Arriving at the airport, they headed to the check-in desk and performed flight procedures. They talked again about their KKN experience in Jogja, reminding each other of the exciting moments they passed together.

While boarding the plane, Lana deliberately chose a seat that was far from Raihan. He was busy putting his things in the trunk. Raihan also sat down with other friends without caring too much about the whereabouts of Lana.

Lana smiled to herself as she closed her eyes.Although sitting far apart but Lana was actually happy.She closed her eyes to scan again the beautiful incident last night.

"Ray thanks "whispers Lana, she doesn't expect Rayhan to hear her whisper.

The return flight to Surabaya went well. There were no talks between Lana and Raihan during the flight, each busy with his own activities.

After landing in Surabaya, they all got off the plane and split up at the airport. Without further ado, Lana and Raihan said goodbye to each other, then walked to the exit.

Rayhan does not keep Lana's number nor does Lana.If there is a day for them to meet, it may be because of Mia.

Despite the awkward feeling between them, the two tried to show nothing. As usual, Lana and Raihan follow their nonchalant characters, without expressing any feelings.

They walked together with other friends towards the airport exit.

In order for the situation to not be too awkward, Lana pulled out her phone and looked for Mia's phone number to contact her.

In one call, she picked up the phone.

" Hello, lana? Have you arrived in Surabaya?" mia answered with a cheerful voice

" Hello, mia! Yes, it has arrived. We just arrived at the airport. It was a smooth journey from Jogja" Lana said brightly.

Dea glanced at it for a moment and knew it was Rayhan's girlfriend.By this Dea also believed if nothing happened between will and Ray except the rightful position of the doang.

"Alright, good to hear that. I also just got home so can't pick up . I'm sorry, Lan. I'd love to pick you up, but I have some family business to take care of today"

" It's okay, Mia. Family is number one. We can meet later"

Lana pondered for a moment before answering Mia instead she did not want to meet Mia but she did not want to dig out her recently healed wound.

"It's not like I don't want it after this I'm busy with thesis problems anyway I don't want to bother you with Ray, you miss him right Hem?"lana said chuckling.

Though only Lana who realized if there is a feeling of pain in the bottom of her heart.

Mia on the other end also chuckles and yells spoiledly if Lana is a little nosy.

but she immediately asked when Lana had the time.

"Oh I don't promise when but if there's time I'll be told"

" Okay, deal! I'm waiting for you, Lan. I miss it!"

"I miss you too, Mia. See you in a few days!"

"See you, Lan!"

Lana hung up the phone and smiled. She was happy to see Mia again. Although Mia has a cheerful character and is a little spoiled, Lana is comfortable with the presence of her best friend. Lana feels lucky to have Mia as a friend.

But the unlucky Mia has a friend like Lana.

Lana took a deep breath reminiscing about how she was unfaithful to her own best friend. But now Lana will never think of Raihan again.

Whatever happened in Jogja was the last thing he could think of about Raihan.

And that's enough.

After taking each bag everyone dispersed and went to their own path.

Likewise with Lana who immediately went to her boarding house where she had not occupied for 6 weeks.

However, his heart was in a mixed state. Sadness and confusion continue to haunt him because of the feelings he feels towards Raihan. He feels guilty for developing the seeds of love in his best friend's girlfriend herself.

When looking at the photos of the two of them with Rayhan in KKN, Lana's heart thumped. He realized that his feelings could not be ignored. However, every time she contemplated those feelings, she felt guilty and worried about destroying her relationship with Mia.

However, even though his heart was in a state of confusion and sadness, there was happiness growing inside him upon seeing the closeness between Mia and Raihan.

She knows that Mia is a good girl and is suitable for Raihan. Lana wants the best for her best friend, and if that means being with Raihan, she will be happy for them.

While looking at the photos of Mia and Raihan, she tries to convince herself that she should stay neutral and keep away these inappropriate feelings. Lana wants to be happy for both of them and doesn't want her feelings to be a hindrance.

With a strong determination, Lana again busied herself with her script. She promises herself that she will continue to support Raihan and Mia's relationship sincerely, without feeling jealous or hoping for more.

"Mia .you deserve her, may happiness always be there for you forever, my friend" Whispered Lana softly.

Lana now needs rest, rest inwardly of course.

Good bye love.

Goodby.