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lana and rayhan

Lana sat next to Rayhan who was resting on the sofa. He watched carefully the situation of Rayhan's right hand that was wrapped in a cast.

"Rayhan, if there's anything you need, tell me. I'm here to help you"

Rayhan smiled gently at Lana's concern.

"Thank you, Lana. I'm really lucky to have a friend like you who's so considerate. Mia is lucky to have you as a best friend "

This word makes Lana fall into the icy mud.In an instant she had forgotten Mia and enjoyed her togetherness with Rayhan.

" Of course, Rayhan. I'd be happy to help you with that. Don't hesitate to ask me if there's anything you need to do" Lana said unnaturally.

Rayhan didn't notice the difference so he leaned on the sofa with one hand playing the phone.

Meanwhile, Lana is ready to help Rayhan with all his needs, including helping to clean and retrieve items that are difficult to reach due to the cast that binds Rayhan's hands.

If people don't know, Lana really looks like a wife helping her sick husband.

Before dark, friends are back with their own routines.

And Ms. Siti has also sent dinner so that people do not have to bother preparing their own dinner.

I don't know what was cooked by Siti's mother, which is clear all of them have been served on the table and covered with a serving hood made of rattan.

As for the rice they still had to cook themselves with Magicom, since Lana at home she had already finished it before.

By magrib, the housemates had returned. Two of these housemates are men . The first thing they did when they came back was to sit close to Raihan.

They asked about the chronology of the accident and at the same time apologized for not being able to visit the hospital as well as being preoccupied with their respective KKN activities.

"it doesn't matter just relax" said Rayhan who actually understands their busyness.

" from tomorrow I think my duties will be transferred to Lana's team. You understand me now?"rayhan said by raising his hand which was in a cast.

Lana's teammates are Dea and Tommy. With the entry of Rayhan it means they will be 4 in one.

"Hem is okay even I am happy to be able to take care of you while continuing the task hahaha" said Tomi who laughed.

"Eh Ray if that's how I go in first it's too hot to take a shower" Tomi said again

Just like Lana she was also taken in by two of her housemates and asked if she was so tired of helping Rehan all day in the hospital.

So also with Dea who already knew the relationship between the two of them.Rayhan and Lana turned out to be just ordinary friends not like they thought before.

"Yes, I was just arrested just in case no one gets hooked with him and I just need to report to the "owner" right hehehe"

The owner's word makes Lana sick but it's the truth.

"Oh Actually we are still the same faculty but why have we never met before?"the three of them laughed together as they remembered it.

But then they promised after the completion of this KKN they are still continuing the relationship even though it is only limited to group wa.

Yes, better than not.

In the end they all dispersed and prepared to clean themselves up before they both sat down at the dinner table.

despite this countryside they still have televisions here and there are also wi-fi networks installed to meet the demand of Lana and her group.

It should be noted Lana and this group are not students who enter using the scholarship path, so the economic condition of their family is fine.

That was why they dared to look for a better residence could even pay someone to cook. After all there was not one among the girls who could cook here except cooking water.

Lana thought long to get through her days with Rayhan, but then she also hoped that this closeness would not be attached to the heart.

But sometimes the heart can also betray its owner.

some time later Lana, Rayhan and their housemates sit at the dinner table inside a halfway house in the village. They are enjoying a meal together after a hard day of work in the implementation of KKN. Rayhan had difficulty eating with his cast-clad right hand after the injury.

The menu they ate was a rustic dish. On the dining table there are several dishes and bowls containing appetizing dishes.

The food menu they eat consists of:

White Rice, Chicken and Tomato Sambal.

Rayhan tried to eat with his left hand, but found it difficult to pick up and chew food smoothly.

"put on Ray's left hand" Dea said slowly.

Their housemates assume that Rayhan should be able to eat with his left hand, considering that his cast-clad hand is his right.

"Yes Rayhan, you can eat with your left hand, right? Come on, just try it"

Lana looks at Rayhan who looks troubled and she feels sorry. He then took the initiative to help Rayhan in eating.

Lana: Rayhan, let me help you eat yes. Don't worry, I'll cut the chicken and feed you"

" Thank you, Lana. I really had a hard time with my right hand wrapped in this cast.but it's okay I can kok hehehe "said rayhan softly.

The past has been used bribed everything that hurts the right hand while the left hand can still be used. People eat it with spoons too.

" It's okay, Rayhan. I understand that this can make you feel difficult. I'll help you" said Lana ya half force.

Lana then gently cut the pieces of grilled chicken and achem, then fed them into Rayhan's mouth.

"Wow, Lana. You really attention.Ray you also can really same girl hehehe"

Lana smiled as she helped Rayhan with warmth.

Rayhan initially refused because of a little uncomfortable and also embarrassed but soon he was addicted to being bribed with girls.

Everyone laughed at Rayhan who made Lana blush.

After finishing dinner they usually take turns to clean the kitchen and wash the dishes but currently Lana is taking Raihan's duties.

No one thought that it was outrageous because Rehan was currently in need of help. But here Rayhan began to be disturbed by such sincere service.

For the first time Raihan accepts Lana's presence without thinking about their slightly strange relationship.

And gradually Rayhan began not to feel guilt in his heart because of the togetherness.Even Raihan impressed to enjoy it.

The next day Lana and Rayhan were walking along the village road to their KKN location. Rayhan looks difficult to carry luggage because his hand is wrapped in a cast.

"Rayhan, wait a minute. I can help you with your things. My hands are still free and I can take care of this" said Lana who immediately took over the items.

"Thank you, Lana. is just a book and some of those things don't bother "said Raihan who tried to resist lana's kindness.

Lana doesn't care about Raihan's refusal she just picks up some of Rayhan's luggage and helps carry it along the way. He notices the needs and difficulties Rayhan faces due to a cast-clad hand, and voluntarily helps Rayhan in his daily life.

then there is the scene where Lana is sitting near Rayhan while they are working on KKN duties in a gazebo in the village. Rayhan tried to write with his left hand, but it seemed a little difficult.

" Rayhan, do you need help writing ? I can help if you want"again Raihan refused this because he was quite embarrassed to be helped continuously by Lana. He's not a cripple Okay just hurt.

But lana really didn't accept the rejection.

Lana carefully wrote down the notes needed by Rayhan while paying attention to the instructions and explanations given.

He helps Rayhan to remain productive and can complete his task even in the condition of his hand wrapped in a cast. Lana is good.

Another time Lana and Rayhan sat by the river in the afternoon after completing the KKN routine. Rayhan looks a little depressed and frustrated with the condition of his limited hands.So Lana goes to comfort Rayhan.

Lana touches Rayhan's arm gently, showing his support and making him feel better. Slowly, Rayhan began to feel his heart move towards Lana because of the attention and help given by him. He felt a growing bond between them on their KKN journey.

"this feeling is not right, there should be no other feelings between me and Lana.can't!"rayhan thought to himself.

Only now did Rayhan feel what Lana was feeling. Just like Lana , Raihan also has a commitment with Mia so she does not want to betray Mia, just because of a momentary feeling.

"i should try to stay away from Lana but how can she not be offended?"thought Rayhan again.

Perhaps because of the encouragement with such thoughts, Raihan began to refuse help from Lana. Even her behavior tends to refuse to speak the four Eyes with Lana.

It was okay at first but after she did so many times in the end Lana started to realize something was wrong here.

Planning is okay but sometimes fate moves one step ahead of them.

The more they both stay away, the closer they get now.

Lana had no idea what Raihan was thinking that clearly she was walking with the others to return to the halfway house. Because it is still in the same village so they do not use motorcycles but walk.

"Ray ...

"No need Lana, I can do it myself" Rayhan said before Lana could say what she wanted to do.

Hearing that rejection of course Lana became a little awkward. There was a soft hiss in his heart.

But Lana tried to smile even though it was a bitter smile.

Without feeling they arrived again at the halfway house, and returned to doing the routine in the house without any difference.

However, since returning from KKN Raihan began to retreat and always refused what Lana wanted to do even though it was in an effort to help her.

Although Raihan did not speak, Lana began to realize that Raihan also began to keep his distance.

Lana's heart is sad but can she be sincere with this.

Does Rehan consider her a brash woman trying to take on a friend's own boyfriend. Is Raihan starting to hate lana.

There are times when Lana wants to help Raihan with more, but when she herself Lana begins to realize that what she is doing is the wrong thing.

"Ray...

Lana sat alone in her room, feeling torn apart by deep guilt. She realizes that her feelings for Raihan, her friend Mia's boyfriend are deepening and this makes her feel like she is stealing her friend's own boyfriend.

The guilt weighed on Lana, and she felt an unstoppable emotional pressure.

"why am I doing this why is my heart not being honest? god, why should there be such a feeling?"lana thought sad.

Her heart feels hurt by this paradox, as she never intends to hurt Mia or ruin their relationship.

Every time Lana saw Mia, she felt uneasy and full of regret. He hoped to erase these feelings and go back to a time before, when everything was simple and their relationship was still purely as friends. However, reality is hard to change, and guilt continues to fill Lana's heart.

Lana understands that their friendship is valuable and she doesn't want to ruin it. He knows that love is something that cannot be controlled, but feels inappropriate and selfish because his feelings for Raihan have crossed the line that should exist in a friendly relationship.

"what am I supposed to do? I tried to stay away but why my heart....

"why doesn't my heart want to compromise, why?"

Lana tries to calm her heart thinking that she cannot control her feelings, but she can control her actions.

He is determined to respect the relationship between Mia and Raihan, and will never take steps that could damage their friendship. Lana had even tried to stay away so that her heart would no longer be adrift.

But why the more he wants to get away but they're getting closer.

"why can't this heart follow my orders? why like this?"

But guilt continues to haunt Lana, reminding her that she has been caught up in complicated and conflicted feelings.

In a guilty heart, Lana hopes to find a way to overcome these feelings so as not to ruin her relationship with Mia and Raihan.

He hopes that with honesty and sincerity, they can find a way to deal with this situation well, without ruining the friendship they have built over the years.

But how.