Just Pasrah

the Lana and Kevin Agreement

Lana sits behind Kevin on a motorcycle, with her body trembling and tears streaming down her face. His usually cheerful and lively face, was now filled with deep sadness. The night wind blew gently, creating a piercing chill all the way to the bone.

The night was filled with silence that strengthened Lana's sad atmosphere. The dim light of the street lights created dark shadows around them, as if reflecting the darkness in Lana's heart. The atmosphere that was once full of togetherness and happiness, is now turned into empty and full of emptiness.

Although Lana was crying silently, the small tremors in her body revealed how devastated her heart was. The silence between them was increasingly pressing, creating an unspoken tension. Kevin, in front of him, curbed his emotions and simply looked forward with an indifferent face.

In the dark night mood, Lana continues to hold onto Kevin, trying to calm herself down despite the sadness that hit her so deeply. Although his cries were not heard, but his voidness and pain were so real. Behind the tear-mistled glasses, he tries to question his decision to believe in Kevin, but that trust is now shattered into pieces.

That night becomes a silent witness of Lana's grief, as if understanding that her heart has been broken. The sound of a motorcycle engine is increasingly heard, adding to the longing and emptiness in Lana's soul. Only the dark night sky, glittering with the stars, knew how fragile Lana was in the darkness of that night.

Kevin stopped his motorcycle in front of a red light, it just so happened that there was a supermarket on the side of the road.. Lana who was still crying tried to calm herself down and looked around with eyes that were still misty by tears. He patted Kevin on the shoulder, signaling that he wanted to buy something there.

"Can we stop here for a minute? I need to buy something" Lana said.

Kevin coldly looked at Lana, but then nodded indifferently.

"Okay, hurry. Don't take too long" Kevin said in a harsh tone.

Lana who was still smiling slightly tried to get up from the motorcycle, but her legs felt limp. He held back tears and went inside the supermarket, trying to gather strength to continue that simple task.

Lana went straight to one of the shelves in the supermarket, without saying a word. His eyes were still watery and his face looked tired. He focused on his goal, looking for the items he wanted to buy.

After finding the product she wanted, Lana immediately picked it up quickly. He stepped towards the cashier in a hasty step, placed the item on the cashier's desk, and immediately paid without much talking.

The cashier who saw Lana's state tried to give an understanding smile, but Lana did not look back. After she finished paying, Lana immediately left the cashier and supermarket quickly, leaving behind her without even turning her head.

Lana came out of the supermarket with a shopping bag in her hand. He saw Kevin was already waiting on the motorcycle, but before Lana got on, Kevin let out an angry voice.

"Why are you so slow? Let's get on!" kevin said in a annoyed tone.

Lana felt shocked and jolted by Kevin's anger. He raised his gaze and looked at Kevin with a surprised expression. The sadness that had been on his face was growing.

Quickly, Lana rode on Kevin's motorcycle, but their gazes met each other for a moment. The tension is felt in the air, and the atmosphere on the bike becomes tense.

Kevin clenched his hands on the handlebars of motorcycles, trying to control his anger. Lana just lowered her head, trying to hold back the cries and cover up the feeling that was starting to crumble.

They drove down the road with a stiff atmosphere. Lana's heart felt heavy, yet she chose to remain silent.

At that moment, Lana's self-confidence that had been held in high esteem suddenly fell. Now Lana felt herself so dirty.

Lana was relieved when she finally got home after a journey filled with emotional shock. She tidied up her messy hair and took a deep breath to try to calm herself down. His heart still felt heavy, but he knew that he had to deal with it.

Lana drops herself off Kevin's motorcycle carefully.

"Remember Lana with your promise, you can't refuse my wish if you don't want me to stay" Kevin said arrogantly.

Lana was silent but as Kevin was about to leave Lana still thanked him in a weak voice, although Kevin seemed to be unconcerned and did not give any response

It grievously saw Lana speeding away quickly, leaving her alone in her yard.

Feeling alone and hurt, Lana stared at the distant motorcycle with a look of disappointment. He felt a void in his heart, longing for the happiness they used to share. But this time, everything changed.

Lana walked towards the front door of the house with trembling steps. He tried to calm himself down and eliminate the disappointment that plagued. Arriving at the door, he took a deep breath and opened the door of his house.

The house feels lonely without both parents in it. Lana felt a deeper emptiness.

Immediately the sound of his shoes being jolted on the floor filled the air with tension. He hurried towards his room, feeling an uncontrollable throb of anxiety in his chest. When he arrived at his room, he went straight into the bathroom.

Inside the silent bathroom, Lana felt her chest tight and the sun within her was rising. He looked at the mirror with a shattered gaze, looking at the reflection of his weak and fragile self. Tears began to flow down her cheeks as guilt filled her heart.

"I'm sorry Lana , Mama , Papa," he whispered in a voice filled with sadness. " Lana ..lana.had disappointed you. Lana dirty... Lana doesn't deserve to be your son."

Her cries grew louder, and it sounded****** a rogue that echoed in the silent bathroom. Lana felt an emotional burden weighing down on her, and with every tear drop that fell to the floor, it felt as a reminder of her mistakes.

"Mama huhuhu's.. Mama.papa.safin Lana Huhuhu..

"Lana is dirty ma.hiks..hiks ..

She grabs the soap and rubs it all over her body, Lana is trying to ease the burning pain inside her. However, in the ensuing despair, no soap could cleanse this chaotic heart.

"No. papa... Mama huhuhu's...

Lana sat on the cold floor, hugging her legs tightly. She continued to cry, pouring all her despair into the darkness that was embracing her. His voice was filled with unspoken suffering, as if depicting boundless grief.

In that moment of despair, she felt separated from the love and understanding of her parents. He felt unworthy and felt compelled to apologize for all the mistakes he considered to be his failures. Her cries continued to flow, filling the bathroom with a deep void and regret.