I'm Not an Actor

Gotta want....

Damar leaves the house with his heart and heart broken, considering that Ayu may have given herself to Tristan, though honestly his little heart says no. But he said there was no way Tristan would have returned the money if he didn't get what he wanted. Moreover, the money went into Ayu's personal account.

Arggghhh.....Damar looks frustrated, he hits an innocent steering wheel and knows nothing. His current feeling was completely chaotic, he could not think clearly because of the jealousy and fire of anger that burned his heart and soul.

The shadow of Tristan peppering his wife continues to overshadow Damar's mind. He really doesn't want it to happen, or it has already happened, Damar thought.

"Why would you do that to me Yu?. Why are you doing it?." Damar murmured as he hit the wheel again.

No Damar, no. Ayu cannot betray you. Do you see honesty in his eyes?. Didn't you hear him swear he didn't?. How could Tristan just hand over the money, if he didn't get what he wanted from Ayu. Argggh....Br*ngseekkkbw.

An inner war was occurring within Damar's heart at this moment. His heart felt that Ayu was telling the truth, but the other side of his heart said otherwise.

Damar drove his car at full speed, without knowing where to go. He just wanted to avoid the worst possible thing he would do to Ayu when he was emotional. Damar does not want to say or be rude to Ayu, as he did a few years ago when he accused Ayu of betraying him, until finally he regretted.

Other Side

Ayu is still crying in her room, considering that Damar might currently hate her, as well as the fate of her household that she thought might really end. Although from the beginning he knew all this would happen, he still felt the pain.

It's okay you hate me mas Damar, the important thing is you don't have to lose your company and you don't live suffering. I have to be sincere, yes I have to be sincere. I hope one day you understand Damar. I do all this because I love and care about you. Inner Ayu.

He then went to his children's room to send them packing their clothes, while he himself packed Gara's clothes.

"Where are we going, mah?. How mom told us to get dressed. We want a vacation, huh, huh?." Tanya Alana, who was only met with a fleeting smile by Ayu.

"Vacation?. Asiick!! Where are we going on vacation, Mah?. To the beach?." Tymphal Gara's.

"No dear. We're not going on vacation. We're going to Bandung." Ayu replied, holding back her tears that were almost dripping.

"Asiiik to Bandung. I miss my grandparents in Bandung." Sahut Gara happy.

"We want to spend how many days in Bandung mah?. Is papa coming too?." Ask Kanaya. Ayu was silent, but her hard-earned tears she had withstood from earlier finally fell down on her cheeks hearing Kanaya's question.

"No dear, papa's not coming. Papa...papa much work." Ayu answered her three children with a trembling voice, holding back her nearly broken cry.

Ayu had finished packing Gara's clothes, then she walked out of the room. Her crying broke, as soon as she closed the door. It hurt so much to leave the husband he loved, but this was better than Damar to throw him out first and have to hear Damar's hurtful words like that time.

Her tears flowed more and more when she remembered the event. She immediately went into her room for fear that her child or art would see her crying. Ayu decayed, sitting on the floor of her room, leaning against the door of the room, as she still felt the tightness of her chest, imagining the fate of her son, after this, after she parted with Damar. Especially because it was so close to Damar.

Come on Ayu, you don't think about it. Now you better get your things done, before Mas Damar comes and comes back to bed you. You have to remember, right now he must hate and be very angry with you. He will never want to hear your explanation or anyone else when he is angry, remember that. Ayu said in her heart.

Adzan maghrib reverberated, Ayu immediately rushed to take ablution and perform maghrib prayer. She prayed fervently, begging for the best for her and her family. He accepted all of this. He then recited until the time of prayer isya came.

Ayu finished praying, her heart and mind felt calmer now, even though her eyes were still damp and red, because she continued to cry. Ayu asks Tina to take her children to dinner, because at this time she herself does not taste to eat. All this time she always advised her husband, no matter how much trouble he faced, not to forget to eat, but now she herself does not want to eat.

Ayu took a travel bag, put in some clothes as well as her personal items, which she bought with her own money. He won't bring any of Damar's gifts, except for the shophouse certificate.

The clock was at half-nine in the evening, but Damar had not returned yet, Ayu was very worried about her husband. He was afraid of Damar doing anything, or doing something bad. Protect your husband wherever he is, O Allah. Do'a Ayu in her heart while putting her clothes in.

Shortly thereafter, the door opened. Ayu hoped it was her husband, and it was Damar who opened the door. Ayu turned her head at a glance, a feeling of relief mixed with the feeling of fear she felt at the same time at this moment. Ayu did not dare to look at the face of Damar who was currently standing approximately two meters behind him.

"What are you doing?." Damar's voice rang out in Ayu's ear, making her heart suddenly beat fast. He believes Damar is still angry and will return to talk about Tristan.

"I asked again, what are you doing?." The voice asked Damar sounded a little up and up, making Ayu even more sure Damar was still very angry with him. Ayu sighed before she replied." I. I'm just taking care of my clothes." Answer with a stifled voice. "You don't have to throw me out like you used to. I know enough to get out of this house. I know, you don't believe anything I tell you. Again I said, I did see Tristan, but I swear, I didn't. Whatever Tristan tells you, it's just his way of destroying the happiness of our household. I just love you Mas Damar. I never betrayed you." Ayu replied without turning around, with tears constantly falling, but she immediately wiped it, and put her clothes back into the travel bag.

Damar stepped his feet closer to Ayu, then grabbed the clothes that Ayu had just put in the travel bag. Ayu flinched, especially Damar directly threw the shirt and his travel bag with rough.

"What are you doing Mas Damar?." Ayu asked in shock as she looked at Damar.

Damar looked at Ayu with a look that Ayu could not understand. The look on Ayu's face changed to see the expression on Damar's face, as well as the tears that bore the river in her husband's eyes. Ayu knew her husband was not doing well at the moment, but there was no look of resentment in Damar's eyes at her.

"A-a-aaada what mas?. Why are you ..." Ayu did not finish her words in surprise at Damar's treatment which suddenly hugged her tightly while crying.

TBC💚 💚