I'm Not an Actor

Seeing his lover

Ana drags her suitcase and puts it in the trunk of her car, still with tears Ana starts driving her car to a public funeral.

Right in front of her mother's grave, Ana poured out all her heartache to her Mother.

"Well, I'm sorry Ana because Ana has done mamah, sorry Ana mah... uuuuh uuuuhhhh.." apAna again broke in front of her mother's grave, it feels like he met and hugged his mother directly, but now Ana can only embrace his mother's headstone.

"Well, I'm really alone. Now brother risti hates me even more, if only mamah did not conceive and give birth to me, surely at this time mama, papa and kak risti live happily. Not only am I the cause of mama's absence, but I've also laughed at mama, I can't be the proud son of mama. Forgive me mah. uuuh.. uuuuhhh.." Ana's tears flowed down her cheeks, she felt alone and had no life support.

Two hours after she had spilled all her turmoil in the tomb of her mother, Ana decided to stay at the hotel for a while, while thinking about her next steps.

Arriving in the hotel room Ana looks at her flat stomach in front of the mirror and ana gently caresses it.

Then ana pulled out the ultrasound results from inside her bag, Ana looked at her deeply.

"Hello baby." said Ana while stroking her stomach back, Ana's eyes began to glaze over, her tears began to pour back.

Not one bit terbesit in his mind to dismiss what else tried to abort the fetus in the womb even though he was very confused about what he had to do in front of him with the fetus that he conceived, although he was very confused about what he had to do in the future with the fetus, but he loved his baby very much.

Moments ago ana began to remember the figure of Julio, a figure that now she really hated. Ana is not expecting to have him and does not expect Julio to accompany and care for the child together.

Ana wiped away the remains of her tears, she stroked back her flat stomach very gently.

"Baby, I will always love you. I believe we will get through this." he murmured.

That night Ana made a decision for herself and also for the fetus in her womb, Ana is very understanding of the stigma of society against women who get pregnant out of wedlock is a great disgrace.

Moreover, she was pregnant with a man who had married, of course it would be the material of gunjinga and the ridicule of others.

Ana who wants to check her savings balance via internet banking only realized if her phone is left at home.

"Akh it's morning I go to the ATM to check my savings balance" he muttered, then he laid his body on the bed.

The next morning Ana after breakfast at the hotel, Ana checks her savings balance at the nearest ATM. In the car you start calculating the estimated cost during pregnancy and give birth to her child later.

Ana feels that the balance in her savings is only enough for her life for the next few months, it means that Ana must find extra money to connect her life with her child, at least until her child is born.

After calculating the cost of his life budget, ana then looking for travel for himself went to the house of his late grandmother's house in the village.

Finished business travel is done, ana spur his vehicle to the car showroom, ana want to sell his car to increase his business capital later and for the cost of his life and his son.

After getting the price according to the agreement ana stroked the front of his favorite car that his father gave him as a gift for his 17th birthday, it was the last time he met his father.

Ana does not know the existence of her father and stepmother, but every month her father never forgets to transfer money for his daily needs and for his tuition fees.

Actually it is heavy for ana to sell her car, but at this time ana really needs a lot of money for her life and also the fetus in her womb.

After all his business is done, he returns to the hotel to rest and prepare for his departure tomorrow morning.

At 07.00 am the travel party picked up ana at the hotel, the minibus vehicle drove to grandma's hometown ana.

"Okay baby, we must be happy. start a new day" Ana stroked her stomach gently and affectionately.