I'm Not an Actor

Take Clarisa, for example,,,

I haven't had the courage to tell Yoga about my pregnancy.

Yoga is no longer like children. Only his appetite was insane.

He always eats a lot of food. Whatever he eats. He did not ask for any strange food. The important thing is that I cooked it myself.

For me it's not difficult. Although sometimes I'm lazy to cook, but I force it.

Once I lied to buy a side dish at a warteg. Yoga, which recognized my cooking, rejected it. And at the end he asked to make a plump egg.

Since then, I have always tried to cook for myself. Even if you have to force yourself.

Today, I'm really tired. During the day I cooked and, as usual, cleaned the house.

Sorenya Yoga even took me to her friend's house, after dinner. I've rejected it, but Yoga keeps forcing. I finally did as well.

We were there until nine p.m. Actually, if followed, want Yoga until more night.

"I'm so tired, Ga. Sleepy too."

"Later home you can sleep in the car. I still have business."

"But I'm so tired, Ga."

"Yes, deh. We're going home now."

Face Yoga kayak fabric that has not been ironed. I'm pissed at me.

Even on the street he doesn't talk at all. Like I said, I slept in the car.

"Wid, wakeup. It's home." Yoga shook my arms.

I opened my eyes lazily. Then get out of the car and follow Yoga into the house.

Because I was still sleepy, my path was paved. I almost fell.

"Be careful of the road, Wid."

That is all Yoga says. Maybe he's still upset that I forced him home.

"Yes." Yeah." I went straight into the room. Without changing clothes, I went to sleep.

"If you want to sleep, clean the body first. You were from outside."

I am so sleepy that I will not listen. I pretended to be sound.

Lately I have been easy to sleepy, easily tired. Although not easily angry.

"Wid, I'm hungry again." Yoga shook my arm again. I can hear it because it's not really sound.

"At the dinner table, aren't there, Ga?" My eyes are so hard to open.

"I eat alone?" tanya Yoga.

I finally forced her to open my eyes. Then I walked out of the room first.

"Ga! He said he'd eat?" from the dining room.

Yoga is changing clothes.

"Yes. A minute!"

Before long Yoga also came with shorts and tee shirts.

"Aren't you eating?" ask Yoga.

"No ah. I'm still full."

I only eat for Yoga.

"I want some warm tea too" Pinta Yoga.

I also obey him. Yoga my husband. Whatever he wants, I should be able to serve him.

"You're so sleepy, huh?"

I just nodded as I supported my head with both hands.

"Yes already. You go to sleep first. I can eat by myself."

"Nothing. I'll accompany you to the end."

Suddenly my stomach was sick. I'm trying to hold him. I take water and drink it, to relieve nausea.

"What's wrong with you, Wid?" tanya Yoga is anxious.

"Sorry, I'm so nauseous. I'll go to the bathroom first."

I rushed into the bathroom and locked it. I also turned on the tap so that if vomiting is not heard Yoga. Poor him eating. Enatar even vomited together.

After being satisfied to spit out all my stomach contents, I went out and sat down again to accompany Yoga. He still eats.

"You why? Your face is pale?"

"What time?" I tried to smile so my face didn't look pale.

"Don't you?"

"Yes, you slept there. I'll be done eating soon."

"Tell him sleepy."

The effect of vomiting that drains energy and is exposed to water, making my eyes even sticky again.

"Wid. Do you want to join a pregnant program? My friend followed him and succeeded."

"I can still get pregnant naturally, Ga."

I don't really like that kind of program. Most even torture themselves. Not to mention the small cost.

Anyway.I'm pregnant now. Yoga is not yet known.

"But I want to have a child soon, Wid."

"If I'm pregnant now, how?"

"Ah. You're it. Prove that you're pregnant."

Yoga is challenging.

"If I could prove it now, what would you be mad at?"

I still doubt. He was afraid he was snooping again.

"The anger, yes. Even the cocks."

"Rare you sure?" I stared at the face of Yoga.

"Yes. Just prove. I want to give you a gift if you can prove it."

Wauws. If this is me the most. Dikasih gifts.

"What gift?"

"What do you want?" Yoga asked back.

"Look, Ga. We are not yet honeymoon. How about our honeymoon. Yeah, before we get preoccupied with the children's business."

"As far as you. What matters is that I'm asking for proof now. You want to honeymoon anywhere, I'll do it."

"Really huh?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"OKAY. Just a minute."

I went into my room and took my USG results a week ago.

"Now read." I put an envelope containing the UGS results.

Yoga that has finished eating, open it.

"What does this mean. Just a photo like this. I don't understand." Yoga showed it back to me.

"On the paper there is a description."

Yoga read the paper. His eyes immediately glazed over.

"So you?"

I'm nodding. Surely this time Yoga will not be craving. The time is the same for people who are pregnant. Can I work later.

I feel stupid myself. Why haven't I thought that since yesterday?

"A week ago, I went to the gynecologist. Not to check for pregnancy. I just wanted a consultation on why I was late for the month. I also said that we've tried to use a testpack, and the results are negative. Then the doctor examined me, let me find out what the cause was."

Yoga takes my story seriously.

"Continue?"

"It turns out that's because I'm pregnant. Even our fetus is not just one, Ga. But two."

"So that's why you asked me about the twins in my family?"

I'm nodding.

"Then why did the test itself negative results? Is the test not accurate?"

I tried to explain to Yoga what the cause was. According to the doctor's explanation. And a little bit of science that I read on the internet.

"OKAY. So from now on, you can't be too tired. I'll find a maid for you. You can't be alone at home either. Just in case you give birth."

I heard the word giving birth. My pregnancy was eight weeks. How can I give birth?

"Ga. Giving birth is long. Still half a year."

Now it's the turn of the dumb-ass Yoga. He really did not understand that pregnant people took nine months and ten days to give birth.

But at least I'm relieved. Yoga knew about my pregnancy.