Girl In The Winter's
Chapter 37
“Senior.. It's not me that needs to be treated, but you.” Ayumi sat in Dr.'s practice room chair. Lee, who was now crouching in front of the girl, cleaned the wound on the knee using alcohol before finally applying the ointment and then covered it with gauze.
Although the task is finished but the man is still crouching motionless, his hand is now holding the tiny hand of Ayumi, “I'm sorry,” he said softly, his eyes looking into Ayumi's eyes with a deep sense of regret.
“I didn't mean to hurt you.. I was wrong.. she was right, I couldn't control my emotions.. I was so angry when I saw you two and listened to what she said.” Dr. Lee took a deep breath before continuing his words, “When I was darkened by anger.”
Ayumi felt as if she was looking at her lover who seemed to be suffering so much from guilt, she took a deep breath and smiled.
“You are like a child,” he said as he looked at Dr. Lee was surprised to hear his words.
“A-what?”
“Yes, you look like a crybaby little boy,” Ayumi sneered that made Dr. Lee widened his eyes but then smiled, “You know?” continue Ayumi while pulling Dr. Lee stood up and asked her to sit next to him, “When emotions defeat common sense then you will only be the one who loses the most,” he continued while staring at Dr. Lee is gentle, “You should start being able to control your emotions. If getting angry, cursing and hitting others can solve the problem, then I have done it a long time ago, but no! It will only add new and futile problems, so do not add to existing problems and do the pointless. Solve your problems with a cool head, problems will not be solved with just a punch.” Dr. Lee was silent listening to the words of the girl who was now taking turns to treat him.
“And about me and Erik. All you have to do is trust me, I just need your trust. I can't possibly let someone else's heart get hurt because of my own selfishness... So... will you believe me?”.
Dr. Lee looked at Ayumi a long time before she finally nodded, “Aah, I will go crazy for seeing you with her, but. well I will believe you.”
Ayumi smiled because she felt happy that the man before her trusted her and unwittingly hugged the surprised man who got a sudden hug from her lover, realizing her mistake Ayumi immediately let go of her embrace but it was too late because the sturdy arm was now holding her tightly.
“It's too late,” said Dr. Lee with a smile, “Aah, this is the most potent medicine to treat my injuries.” Dr. Lee increasingly tightened his embrace, he inhaled the fragrance of Ayumi's body deeply, filling every part of her lungs with a fragrance that always intoxicates her.
Gossip develops quickly about the injuries experienced by the handsome doctor, various kinds of speculation began to circulate and Ayumi was always part of the stories that were not true. Fortunately, Ayumi's job was done so she could go home and not have to listen to the questions her colleagues were asking.
Ayumi walked towards the bus stop, the fresh spring night air directly hit her body wrapped in a knee-length dark blue skirt with a long-sleeved light blue blouse top, brown leather backpack perched sweetly on his back, not to miss his faithful white earphones accompany attached to both ears.
He walked away with a heavy breath, his mind wandered to think of someone who was injured. Is she okay? Has the wound been treated? Ayumi pursed her lips thinking does she need to look for her whereabouts? He is now sitting in a stop seat, his head resting on a billboard of a cosmetics brand with a famous artist as his model attached to the bus stop.
He again took a heavy breath, now his hand was nimbly looking for Kevin's name in his mobile phone, but suddenly his fingers stopped, his eyes were looking at the phone screen seriously, his heart skipped a beat when he accidentally stomped the phone number list out, where there was an unregistered number. No. Who Joonie used to contact his sister.
After grappling with her own thoughts, Ayumi finally took a deep breath and was determined to contact the phone number. His heart beat violently when he heard the phone call, his legs swayed in tension, his teeth biting on his index fingernails, but after a long wait the man did not lift them. Is he probably hurt bad? Ayumi shook her head to dispel those bad thoughts, she was just about to hang up when a heavy voice greeted her.
“Hallo.” Ayumi gasped at the sound of Erik picking up his phone.
“Hallo.. Ayumi's?Is this you?” Ayumi took a deep breath to calm her heart.
“Iya, it's me.” Silent for a while, no one spoke until Ayumi finally remembered her intention of contacting the man, “Are you okay?”
“Iya.”
“Have you treated your wounds?”
“Hmm.” That was the only answer that came out of Erik's mouth.
“Hmm... well then, I.. I just want to ask that.”.
“Ayumi, wait!” Ayumi will just hang up when Erik calls her name, “Can we meet now?”
“Erik..”
”This is the last one, I promise.” Ayumi fell silent again, letting her logic and feelings fight.
Ayumi glanced at Erik who seemed to have yet to treat his injuries, he still looked as messy as he had been this afternoon. Without saying much he took out the drugs he had deliberately prepared in his bag, and he began to clean the wound first before smearing it with ointment and closing it. Erik was just speechless about receiving the treatment, his eyes staring at Ayumi who was sitting before him without blinking as if he did then the girl would be gone.
“What do you want to talk about?” said Ayumi while putting her medicines back in.
“I will ask you one last time..Do you not want to go with me? Let's go to a place where no one will ever know us, just the two of us, together, forever. We will defend our love.”
Ayumi looked at Erik who was looking earnestly with his words, she was already tired with all this, whether it should be like what else she explained to the man that it was impossible to happen, he said, they have a family to take care of.
“Erik..”
“For God's sake, Ayumi, don't be stubborn! I know that you still love me!” Erik cried out in despair.
“I still love you! Are you satisfied now?” Ayumi looked at Erik with teary eyes, “But it's too late, Erik! It's all too late!” Ayumi exclaimed, and she could no longer hold back her tears.
“Ayumi.”
Ayumi brushed off the hand of Erik who was trying to reach her.
“Should it be like let alone me explain to you about our current position? Don't you understand what I said yesterday? You want me to remind you again? Well. You, yes you are Kim Seung Won, you are engaged to a girl you yourself told me that she loves you so much and accepts you for who you are, do you remember her? Are you now experiencing amnesia like you were when you left me?”
Ayumi said it with emotion that made Erik just silently stare because for the first time he saw the girl was fiery full of anger and also in pain at the same time.
“I beg you, Erik, enough! Don't come back to remind me of that reality, because it hurts too much for me.”
Ayumi looked at Erik with a hearty look, tears soaked her cheeks and it made Erik's heart feel pain as well. Again he had been selfish, he was only concerned with his own feelings without thinking about the girl's feelings. Of course, however Ayumi still loved her, her heart would feel pain every time she remembered that the man she loved had been engaged to another woman, but Erik did not even realize that, all he did was sow salt in each wound without knowing the taste.
“I'm sorry.. I should have known this, forgive my stupidity.”
Ayumi was only silent at Erik's words, she managed to catch her breath trying to calm her feelings, with her wiggly fingers she wiped away the tears that were soaking her cheeks.
“I'm too selfish, I'm sorry,” continued Erik while looking at Ayumi gently, “I shouldn't think that way because I know you will definitely reject her, and regarding Soo Hyuk.” Erik took a deep breath again, “ He is actually a good man, it is not his fault that women are willing to do anything for him, but. I can see the earnestness in his eyes when he looks at you, and for the first time she lost emotional control because of a woman.”
“But, you said he was..”.
“Soo Hyuk can never control his emotions when something hurts his pride, but not when dealing with women, if the woman cheated on him he just stayed looking for his successor and would not waste his power to punch people, but earlier? We're not even having an affair but look what he's done to my face.” Erik grimaced considering the injuries on his handsome face.
“I think he really has fallen in love with you,” continued Erik slowly while staring at Ayumi who was wide-eyed to hear his words, “I, but I will try to let you go because I believe you will be in the right hands, he will take care of you even if he has to sacrifice his own life, you are still my true love and don't ask me to forget you because that won't happen,” Erik took a deep breath, he looked up at the sky without stars, he looked up at me, I don't know what the man had in mind but Ayumi could feel that the man had made a difficult decision.
“And I.. I will try to love Yuri, although it will not be as big as loving you, but at least I will not make her hurt.”
Ayumi smiled bitterly at Erik's statement, although it was painful and difficult but that was what the man had to do.
“Tadi... I was called by my father, he said that if they had decided on marriage, we... we would get married before this spring ends.”.
As if struck by lightning Ayumi was wide-eyed to hear that remark, her heart seemed to stop, her body felt weak. He knew that this news would eventually come, but not so soon, not when his heart still could not turn away
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