Friend Bed

Difficult Is Us

Hearing my words, Shakila also looked embarrassed. He rushed back into the room to put on his underwear.

A few minutes later, he returned to the table to enjoy his breakfast. Actually I'm done, but I don't know why I still want to be here to see her beauty. Oh, my God, I'm crazy.

"Your duties are all wrong," I said suddenly ventured after last night I had time to check his duties.

"I had a hard time doing that task, Brother," replied Shakila who now looked so awkward. But I can't help myself if it's implied a happy look on her pretty face that looks so adorable. Is he really happy when I talk to him?

"After breakfast, I will help you complete the task. Better finish your breakfast!" my beloved. I deliberately said so flatly, when at that time I was hiding my feelings that were so raging.

"Yes, sister" replied Shakila.

"I'll wait in the room!" I told him after seeing him finish his breakfast. I then walked to my room. A few moments later, Shakila entered my room with her books and laptop.

"Sit downstairs!" I said while pointing at the carpet in the room.

I then sat down next to Shakila, though I admit I couldn't control my feelings. We were even so close, I somehow saw Shakila was so nervous, even her heartbeat sounded so loud.

I then taught her to do her job, though while holding back such mixed feelings. Ah, I want this time to stop so that I can always be alone with him.

Finally, after two hours passed, I finished helping him finish the task. I could not control this heart when I saw the look of relief on his face when he had finished his task, until the reflex of these lips smiled at him. Shakila also looked glued to see the smile on my lips. Maybe he was surprised because I suddenly smiled at him.

"Shakila's quick break!" I said as I laid my body on the carpet. Suddenly Shakila went to bed beside me which made it very difficult for me to control myself. I then looked at her face, her beautiful face that looked so innocent. It felt like I wanted to hug her and kiss her whole body and face.

I couldn't control myself any more when I saw him close his eyes. I put my face right in front of his face and played my fingers on his face. And, it turns out that she seemed to really enjoy my touch to her. This is totally insane.

"Sister," he said softly as I looked at him with such a deep gaze. The call of big brother spoken from his lips actually made my heart so messy. I don't know what demon got into my body. This body is no longer controlled. Slowly, I approached her and grabbed her body.

Yes, I can finally hug this woman's body. The woman I crave, and Shakila's madness doesn't reject me. Argh how stupid I am, maybe he considers this as a hug between brother and sister. But not with me, I take this as the embrace of a man who loves so much the woman in front of him.

"Beautiful, I miss you so much" I said suddenly. Oh my God, this is crazy. I was so crazy that I said these words so spontaneously. I see, Shakila also seemed surprised to hear my words, but instead of moving away from me but she even more tightened her arms to me.

"I miss you a lot too, brother" he replied. Unable to leave, I was shocked to hear his words. 'Does he miss me too? He returned my embrace? Does he have the same feelings as me?' muttered.

Shakila was so shocked, the reflex that she let go of my embrace to him. Then sit on the carpet and start packing the task even though with a little awkward and misbehavior. While I can only cover up my feelings of awkwardness by pretending to play my phone.

'Damn why I'm so stupid! Shakila must be scared of me! Let's not think he's not-no to me!' I swear in my heart while cursing myself.

"Sister Darren, I'll go to the room first. Thank you for teaching me" he told me. I smiled to cover up my own shame and stupidity. He then got up from the carpet and walked out of my room and into his room in such a hurry.

I can only look at his passing while still staring. Stupid, that's the right word for me. I've made my own sister afraid because of my attitude. But this feeling is getting harder to control, so what do I do? Do I have to go and leave it to bury this feeling in my heart that is getting harder and harder for me to control?

I closed my eyes too, it felt like these eyes were getting sleepy even though I could not help myself if this feeling still felt so messy. Yes, I didn't sleep all night. It is very difficult to close your eyes when your heart is at war with your mind.

Without realizing it, I really fell asleep. I don't know how long I slept until I opened these eyes. The sun seemed to have shone so brightly.

"Oh it's twelve o'clock in the afternoon" I said as I looked at the clock on the wall. I got up from the carpet. Yes, I did sleep on the carpet next to my bed. My mind now feels above normal. The heart and mind were so out of sync, it even felt almost crazy. I then took a cigarette and smoked it on the balcony of my room.

While I was giving off a puff of cigarette smoke, I suddenly saw Shakila as she was sitting on the balcony of her room enjoying a snack and playing with her phone.

Moments later, I saw Shakila asleep in the recliner. 'Basins being so careless, how about he catch a cold?' I murmured when I saw Shakila who now looks so sharp.

I then jumped the wall between my room and his room. I cleaned the table full of snacks, threw the empty snack bag into the trash box and put a cup of used warm chocolate into the kitchen.

When I finished, I approached the balcony and raised Shakila's body onto her bed. For a moment, I saw her beautiful face and her body that was so seductive.

I sat down on the side of the bed and stroked her face, which looked so beautiful to me. My malevolent instincts were getting more turbulent, the more I could not resist this feeling.

'Lord, please forgive me one more time, forgive me Lord, ' I muttered as I brought my face closer and began to kiss her thin lips while slightly giving lummatan.

'Argh, it feels so good, shit!' my people when they realize that I am now so lulled with lummatan on their lips. I then let go of my lips, and how stupid I was then I just realized I had just finished smoking.

'May he be unsuspecting, may my cigarette marks not rest on his lips, ' I muttered as I walked away from Shakila towards the balcony of the room to return to my room.

Now I'm still staring at her from the balcony doorway, somehow it feels so hard to get away from her. 'This togetherness is a wound, shouldn't I go away to not increase the wound? I will try to be sincere with what God has outlined in my life, including your loss. Because I realized that I could never have you. This relationship is so difficult, because it's hard it's us.'