Friend Bed

Sweetest Farewell

"Are you aware of what you're saying, Shakila."

"Very conscious, please don't go, sister. Can we be selfish for a moment? Don't we deserve to be happy too?"

"No Shakila, please don't act like this. We can't let Papa and Mama down. Didn't you say from the beginning that this was a mistake? When I realized it, why did you suddenly change like this, Shakila. Please don't act like this."

"But Brother...."

"Shakila, you're a good boy. You shouldn't be acting like this. You can't let Papa and Mama Shakila down, you can't let them down."

"Then should you go?"

"Yes, because that's the only way Shakila is. It's the only way I can forget you. This feeling has already tormented me too much, "

"Also torment me, brother."

"That's why we have to separate."

"But Brother..," I said restrained. I really don't accept his decision. It felt really heavy, I couldn't even imagine how heavy my life would be without her beside me.

"But what? Remember Shakila, from the beginning you always reminded me that this relationship was a mistake. Please don't falter with your stance, Shakila. Do not be easily persuaded selfishness and sheer ambition. This is a mistake, this is a big sin" Darren said.

"No Brother, I don't want to lose you" I said as I hugged Kak Darren's body. I really don't want to let go of his embrace. I really don't want to lose her, and I don't want her to leave my life, don't want her to leave next to me. I was also sobbing more and more in his chest.

The glow of twilight, as if to witness my love story as well as my sadness. The love and sorrow that are now fused into one, in a story. A story I can guess if there's only pain at the end of the story.

When I was still sobbing in Darren's arms. Suddenly, a knock on the door was heard.

TOK TOK TOK

"Shakila! Shakila, are you okay?" ask for a voice from outside. Spontaneously, Darren and I let go of our embrace. Hearing the knock from Mama Aini who was getting louder sounded. Brother Darren rushed away from my balcony room, he then jumped the wall to the balcony of his room.

Before she entered her room, she pulled the corner of her lips with both of her hands as a code to tell me to smile. I smiled too, though it was heavy.

TOK TOK TOK

The sound of knocking on the door was heard again. I hurried to the door and opened the door.

"Shakila, are you okay?" ask Mama Aini.

"Yes Ma, I'm fine. I've had enough rest. I'm fine Ma," I replied so as not to make Mama Aini anxious.

"Thank God, this is Mama giving you something. This is a gift from your grandfather, and your grandmother in Jogja," said Mama Aini while giving me a few packs of paper bags.

I also took the paper bag from Mama Aini's hand. Actually I was a little surprised by the objects given by Mama Aini, all these items are branded and branded goods, there are even some imported products that are not sold here. While I like both of Mama Aini's parents who are my grandparents from the village.

'Where can they give me all these things? Ah, I don't want to think about any of that. They might leave these things to their relatives. I'd better not think too much because my complex love story just so tormenting my energy and my mind, ' I murmured.

"Shakila, we're having dinner now!" mama Aini's orders to me. I nodded my head, and I was not hungry yet. But I don't want to make them suspicious.

I then followed Mama Aini's steps towards the dining room, seeming at the dining table already there Papa and Tristan. Shortly after I sat down, Darren sat right next to me.

Seeing his arrival, I smiled as well. Throughout the dinner, I was very upset to hear Papa and Kak Darren talking about Kak Darren's college plans to Australia. My heart ached and was so upset to hear their conversation. It felt like I was really not willing to let Darren go of my life, and the time for one week was really a short time.

Can't bear to hear Papa and Kak Darren talk, I also ended my dinner. "Excuse me, I'll go to the room first. There's a task I have to complete" I said to everyone at the dinner table.

"Dear, don't be too tired, Shakila, if you're having trouble doing your chores you can ask Darren for help. Is that Darren?" ask Mama Aini. I smiled faintly, while Brother Darren nodded his head.

"Yes Ma, I go to the room first" I said. Without caring about Brother Darren's gaze on me. I walked into the room with slow steps.

After entering the room, I then walked towards the balcony again and cried with all my might while looking at the dark and starless night sky. Maybe the universe knows how I feel right now, dark and shrouded by so much sadness.

"Don't I tell you not to cry, why are you still crying?" ask a voice that breaks my daydream. I looked towards the source of the sound and then wiped my tears violently.

"Please don't go" I said to her with a wailing look. But Brother Darren is getting his body closer to me. I hugged him back and cried in his arms.

Darren is still silent. "Can't, Shakila. Now even my feelings are getting messed up hearing the word love from you. I'm afraid Shakila, I'm afraid that this is getting deeper and I can't let go. It really hurts."

I can't say anything anymore either. My reason for saying so, is that Brother Darren is right. If this feeling gets deeper, it will be more difficult for us to let go. But not with my feelings that still can't accept all that. It's too painful, and pathetic.

I was sobbing, my arms tightened, and my eyes were closed. I forced myself to raise my face and look at Kak Darren even though with a face that looks so messy.

"Sister," call me soft.

Darren looked back at me with a smile while wiping my tears with his hands. I can feel the same pain through the look in his eyes.

"Shakila, listen to me. I know the feeling that we're getting between the two of us is a mistake. But I will never regret falling in love with you. It's a matter of Shakila's heart, and we don't know who our heart will anchor to.

Darren then pulled my chin. Our faces now felt so close, the distance between the two of us was further eroded. Brother Darren tilted his head back which made me hold my breath for a few seconds. Getting closer and finally our lips fused together.

I don't care if he's my brother. All I care about now is the feeling of me not wanting to part with her. Brother Darren grabs me gently and slowly and seems to enjoy my lips so much. I felt so devastated and wanted to give up everything I had.

Not only did Brother Darren smear my lips, I also returned his lips. Decakan for the sake of a break now began to sound, we did kiss for quite a long time, until finally we let go of each other's kisses.

"Sister," I said back.

"May I have one more time?" asked Brother Darren and his crazy I nodded. Brother Darren lifted my body without taking off our kisses and then took me into the room and sat our bodies on the sofa.

"Sister," I said as Brother Darren let go of our kiss.

"What's wrong?"

"Don't do whatever you want to me. Make tonight the sweetest farewell between us. I want tonight to be a night I can't forget all my life."