Fall In Love With Lover: The Temptation of a Beautiful Secretary

Expelled

My heart felt bitter as it came to a realization from the distant wishful thinking. I wish I could have Jackson, but in fact it's just a delusion of my mind. In reality I am only a woman employed by his wife, nothing more.

Mr ....

Then I set foot towards the door, trying to see it. Jackson no longer exists. He really left me.

I'm sorry, Sir. I don't intend to expel you.

I know that Jackson still wants to be with me. But again I need to know who I am. I cannot be carried away by the feeling of my heart. Jackson has not given me official status. So it's the same as hoping for a shooting star, reaping its own disappointment.

I immediately closed the apartment door and locked it from the inside. I try to shed this sadness. I leaned against the door and slowly fell down, sitting down limply. I sat behind the door holding back my tears. I lost my spirit when I knew where I was at the moment.

"It's a job risk."

The words of Jackson are recalled. At that time I also tried to normalize the chest that already felt tight. I held back my tears.

You are right, Sir. Youre right.

I should be able to forget what happened before I drowned even deeper. I can't be sad about this. It's been my risk, as Jackson said. And I have to be strong to face it.

An hour later...

I went through this night alone. I see no phone messages or calls from Jackson. My phone has now been wiped clean from non-essential numbers. When he came home he returned my phone and left only important numbers. I admit that he has good intentions to take care of me. But I don't know why I feel like he's so possessive of me.

Sir, what are you doing now?

I think I'd like to call him. I miss him. Back and forth I saw the cell phone had no news from him either. Then I tried to close my eyes, trying to knock on dreamland while hoping that happiness would be achieved. When is the time, I will wait. May God bless.

Have a good night, Cecilia. Dreams with the stars.

Tonight I tried to sleep, forgetting all the bitter things that happened. I calmed my heart and mind and knocked on the dreamland. Not long after, I remembered nothing else. I fell asleep with the wishful thinking I wanted.

Tomorrow...

This morning I woke up with a better heart and mind than last night. I entered work with a more relaxed look but still uphold the value of politeness.

I wore a long-sleeved pink blouse and a knee-length black skirt with side hemispheres. I also dress up cheerfully with the orange makeup that dominates my face. And some perfume sprays were ready to accompany me starting the day. I have to be tough in the face of whatever happens.

"Cecilia, this."

As usual, every morning Clara handed over documents to me to deliver them to Jackson. The document contains a report of the company's performance yesterday and only in the form of an outline only. Such as sales, purchases, profits and costs that have been incurred. Jackson asked every morning to report to him.

Actually Jackson has a lot of experts in running the company. But since the company is so big, I only know a few people. In this building I'm not all familiar with either, just a few people including Clara and Aurel. The rest I still guess who he is and from which department.

"Thank you" I said to Clara. He left immediately.

Come to think of it, Clara is beautiful. If Jackson wanted to, he would have been with Clara a long time ago. Clara is also younger than me, maybe two or three years different from me. It must be more interesting than me who is twenty-six years old. Or maybe Jackson really likes a mature woman? I don't know, maybe one day I'll ask Clara how close she is to Jackson. Times I can get information about how Jackson really is.

"Cecilia."

"Mr Hadden?" I stood up when I learned of his arrival.

"Jackson is?" He pointed to Jackson's room.

"There, Sir. Let me deliver," I said to him.

Hadden nodded. I don't know what the purpose of coming here is, I try not to care. I did my job as an assistant. And yes, I tapped on Jackson's door with documents to hand over. I saw Jackson reading the newspaper today.

"Excuse me, Mister. Mr. Hadden came looking for you." I gave her.

"Just go in" he said without looking at me.

So I allowed Hadden to come in. I put the documents from Clara on Jackson's desk. After that, hurry up to make tea.

"Sounds serious?" Hadden said hello to Jackson.

"Hm, yeah." Jackson then stood up, he to the guest sofa that was in the corner of his study.

"I heard there is an internal matter in the Group Space, is there anything to do with personal matters?" hadden asked as if he was scraping through information.

"Not really." Jackson turned on his cigarette butt.

The two sat opposite each other on the sofa in the room. I brought tea for both. The atmosphere of the room turned tense at once when Jackson and Hadden were talking about business. I don't want to go along either, I just let them talk until they get dizzy. I'll just do my job.

"Please, Sir." I'm serving tea to the table for Hadden.

"Cecilia, is your cheek like a bruise?"

Hadden touched my left cheek with the tip of his index finger. Jackson dropped his match on the table. The sound of the match made Hadden and I wake up and look quickly at Jackson. I saw Jackson pick up his falling match.

I don't know why I felt that aura of jealousy from Jackson. Since coming up until now his face was grim and did not smile in the least. Maybe he's angry that I kicked him out last night. Or maybe he doesn't want to talk much.

"Em, no, sir. It's just a little—"

"Get out, Cecilia!" Haven't been able to explain, Jackson already kicked me out of his room.

Hadden then pulled his hand. He looked towards Jackson who was looking down tensely. I also understand that Jackson is angry. I quickly walked out of his study.

"Sorry, Sir. Excuse me," I said.

I leaned down and immediately came out of the room. I don't know what's going on inside, when I close the door I see the anger implied from Jackson's face. Maybe he was jealous because Hadden touched me or because Hadden kept watching me when he came out of the room and didn't look away. I don't know, Jackson, it's not easy for me to guess his heart.

"Huh ...."

I was finally able to return to my activities after I left the room. Yeah, already. I just continue with the work today. I wish Jackson hadn't called me back.