
The sound of the music of the beach party is still heard clearly from here. I was waiting for Alexander to talk to me. I saw his right hand holding the steering wheel, his left hand holding mine. He seemed to want to talk but felt hesitant to say it. I am still faithfully waiting.
"Dear, are you okay?" ask her.
Alexander gulped. He looked towards me. "Would you do that to me, too, Cecilia?" tanyakanya.
"Huh? That thing?" I was confused by the meaning of the question.
"Yes." Yeah." He's down. "Are you also going to tell me what you said to Jackson?" tanyanya while looking at me.
My heart was shocked to hear it. Alexander thought about what I said earlier. I didn't take it seriously at all. I think the words I said to Jackson only affected Jackson. But in fact, he thought about it too.
"Dear, you're too emotional. There's no way I'd say that to you for no reason. Let's just say if the thing I did was because there was no need for a commotion between you. I have nothing to do with Jackson anymore. We just go with what is. Don't think about anyone else." I try to give him understanding.
Alexander nodded, but he looked sad. "You know, your words were so heart-piercing to a man. And I think Jackson experienced it too. I hope you don't falter after meeting her, Cecilia. I ... I'm afraid of losing you," he said in a pleading tone.
"Dear ...," I immediately hugged her. "I think this hug of mine could be the answer to your anxiety. I also hope you don't look like her." I calmed him down and let go of my embrace.
I saw her face so sad when I looked at her. He then kissed my forehead. Like I'm channeling feelings in my heart. The kiss feels soft and warm. I know if he doesn't want to lose me.
Soon I could figure out what Alexander's true character was. It turns out he is a typical man of taste. His heart is soft and afraid of losing someone. And maybe that's what's happening to us right now. He was afraid of losing me after Jackson showed up.
It seems we also do not need to be shy anymore in expressing the feelings that are in the heart. We are all grown up and know what is best for ourselves. And I hope this relationship can continue to the next level.
"I still want to know why you came here. But maybe it's better we get out of here" he said, pulling the pedal off the car.
I'm nodding. I followed his wish without refusing at all. Alexander immediately pulled the car out of the parking area of this beach party. We then drove home, leaving the beach to the south of the city. It looks like today will be a different day for us.
I know if Alexander's. He has a softer heart than most men. And as much as possible I'll keep his feelings as he keeps mine. For women it is better to be loved than to love. Gradually women can definitely reciprocate the love itself.
An hour later...
I've arrived at Alexander's apartment. This was my first time coming to her apartment. I see the contents of the apartment are not too much, just as necessary. But it is adequate and sufficient for daily needs.
I don't know why Alexander brought me here. However, I followed his will. Because I saw his face change a little since Jackson came to me. Either out of fear that I was wavering or indeed purely annoyed at the grim-faced man. I'm trying to be okay with it.
"Huh ...."
He slid his back on the guest sofa. I sat on his left side, carrying a drink I had bought before I got here. I saw him rub his own head, like a frustrated man.
"Dear, drink it." I tried to open a soft drink bottle for him.
He accepted my gift. "Thank you" he said, then immediately gulped a soft drink from me.
I also took a sip of the soft drink I bought earlier. Lemon flavor mixed with sparkling lime that refreshes the throat in hot weather like this. I also took off the blue shirt from him. I feel so hot. Don't know why I feel so mediocre when wearing this kind of clothes in front of him. Could it be that our hearts have started to get close and do not feel any distance anymore?
"Cecilia." He reprimanded me.
"You're so brave to come there alone in clothes like this. You're not afraid someone's gonna prick you?" askinya.
I put my hair to the side in front of him. "Like this?" my question, teasing.
"God ...." At once he held back a laugh while turning his eyes away from me.
"Why?" I approached him without feeling sad.
Alexander looked at me. Not knowing what he was thinking, it seemed like he was judging me right now. I also tried to be mediocre in front of him. I spread a sweet smile and then I put my palm on his chest. At that moment I felt his heart beating so fast. It seemed like his male soul was reacting.
He's still normal.
Until now I have not seen Alexander's biological attraction to me. Or does he want me to start first? But now I can make sure he's okay. Seeing me like this her heart was beating so fast. Especially if this is until we continue.
"Cecilia." He then rubbed my face.
"Yes?" I waited for him to continue speaking.
"Today I was afraid of losing. Can you always be by my side?" ask her with a hopeful look at me.
I'm nodding. "But I want a lot, you know." I took the tip of his nose.
He then kissed my hand. "Tell me anything I'll give you. But ... Don't leave me." He asked me.
I smile. Implied happiness and hope from the look in his eyes. I also put this head on the chest of his field. I also wish he would never hurt me. I want someone to always look after me and love me. Because I need all of that.
"Dear .. I got here I was happy because you wanted to accept me for who I am. But I'm really worried" I said honestly.
"Worry?" He's embracing me. Our distance is so close.
"Yes. I'm afraid your feelings will change after knowing who I am. My life wasn't as good as you thought. It might be said that I am a paid woman. It's just not up to sleeping with a lot of striped-nose men." I told him my thoughts.
Alexander embraced me tighter. "Cecilia, if you want me, I can give it to you. But if it's just a runaway, I can't, Cecilia." He said frankly.
"Dear?" I also looked at his face. I saw his face as if he was harboring fear of losing me. "I've cleared everything. Already, yeah. Don't jump again. I'm sure we can get through this together. I know if everything takes time. Then trust me if you're not like me." I asked her gently.
Alexander nodded. It seems like he is relieved now. "Thank you," he said. Shortly after, his phone rang.
I saw Alexander immediately take his phone out of his pants pocket. He then saw who called him. He also seemed reluctant to pick up the phone in front of me.
"Who's Dear?" I also want to know.
Alexander swallowed his saliva. "My father," said he, who made the speed of my heart beat instantly.