
Two o'clock around the clock...
After lunch we finally decided to go home. But before that, Alexander asked me to accompany him for a walk around the beach. And because it was not good, I finally fulfilled his invitation. The beach is also crowded. There's no way he's messing with me.
Along the way we didn't touch at all. He walked on my lower right side of the surface. So we look just as tall. Though obviously I was only a couple of weeks when not wearing footwear. But somehow, when the streets had a deep impression for me. Alexander is not Jackson.
I said Jackson was a crocodile because he didn't want to lose at all when he found out about my transaction with Zea. I thought he was willingly caught in my trap. But in fact, I'm stuck in it.
Jackson kept me from tangling in my own trap. I feel like I'm the dumbest person on this mission. It had fallen down the stairs and now also had to bear the wound. It's a very risky job. But even regretting is meaningless.
Sir, what are you doing there?
My body is with Alexander, but my soul still thinks about it. I don't know what he's doing there, I don't know either. I wanted to call her, but I was embarrassed. I'm not who I am, maybe just a mere escape of desire. Jackson once said that during his two-year marriage, he had never been in contact with Zea. Because he said he didn't want to wear people's clothes.
Now I'm trying to get my life out of an erratic mind. Trying to open my heart to a man who's relentlessly chasing me. And now we're on our way home from the beach. I saw the weather start to cloud around. It may soon rain.
"Do you like the end of this holiday?" ask her while driving the car.
I thought for a moment. Alexander suddenly asked me how I felt while walking on the beach with him.
"Maybe you feel bad for just staying in the hut. I should have been surfing too." He expressed his wish indirectly.
"I can't surf, sir," I replied honestly.
He turned his head for a moment towards me and refocused on driving. "All that can be because it's used to it, Cecilia. If we don't try, we won't know how it went." His words seemed to lead towards our relationship.
I smiled while looking down. "Master, I'm an adult. I don't want to mess around." I try to understand what he means.
He was silent for a moment and laughed beside me. "You think I'm kidding, huh?" tanyanya while holding back laughter.
I shrugged, I don't know.
He looked towards me. "alright. Soon I will prove my seriousness to you." He kept driving his car.
I don't know why that last sentence of his made my heart dag-dig-dug unfavourable. I want to but don't want to. I heard a ringing from his cell phone shortly. I saw Alexander immediately wearing bluetooth earphones in the ears. He picked up the phone immediately.
"Hello?" I don't know who I'm talking to, I'm just waiting.
"Tomorrow, Mom. I'm busy right now." He called the person on the phone a mother.
Alexander looked at me. "Em ..," He was thinking about me. "Let me call again, Mom. A moment." He then turned off his phone connection with the earphones still in the ear.
"Who?" Suddenly I got to myself.
"Mothers. My mother," he replied as he continued to drive the car.
"Birth mother?" ask again.
He's nodding. "Mom asked me to come now. He said he had a lot of orders. He asked me to help him." Alexander told me.
"Order?" I don't know why I'm getting curious.
"Yes, Cecilia. I have a flower business living in the village. He asked me to come to his aid. But I said it was busy." He seems to be honest with me.
"It's okay, Cecilia. Don't worry." He smiled at me.
Implied from his face was like confusion to make a choice. I also realized from this situation. Then I asked him to stop.
"Master, just put me down here. You don't have to take me home" I said unkindly.
"Huh? What?!"
Alexander was surprised by my request. He looked at the rearview mirror and immediately pulled the car over. It just so happened that our way home was empty of vehicles.
Don't tell me he's angry.
I saw the look on his face change instantly. He seems unhappy with my words. But I also need to know myself. I can't make Alexander forget his mother.
"Cecilia." He reprimanded me.
"Yes?"
His face is unsightly. "Mom asked me to come but that doesn't mean I didn't drive you home. I'm not a man who leaves a woman by the side of the road." He seemed offended by my words.
"Eh, Sir. That's not it!" I panicked at once. He seemed to be holding back his anger on me.
"Then?" tanyanya.
"I just don't feel good because of me you're ignoring me. I think you should go there now." I'm suggesting.
Alexander looked at the watch in his hand and then saw me back. "You wanna come?" tanyakanya. "We'll be there soon and I'll drive you home." He promise.
Errn ....
I swallowed my own saliva. What he just said finally came true. I don't know why it could be like this. Suddenly his mother called and asked him to come. Is this a sign of nature for me?
How'this?
I felt like I was answering his question. But I try to keep a positive mind. Maybe it wouldn't hurt if I went there, proving who Alexander really is. Was he really what Jackson said at the time? Because it would be impolite to ask him directly. I'm afraid Alexander will be offended by my question.
"Sir, I don't think .. I'm fit to see mom yet. I'm afraid your mother thinks that's not about us." I'm looking for the right reason for rejection.
He smiled thinly. "Cecilia, you're too hard on yourself. I'm not the bad guy you're afraid of." He seems disappointed in me. He rested his back on the car seat.
Jeez ....
I was confused how. I saw Alexander rubbing his head too. He was frustrated facing me.
"Sir, as far as I'm concerned if a man brings a woman home is a sign that they're serious about marriage. I'm afraid of getting carried away. I'm not ready." I'm being honest with him.
Alexander turned his body towards me. He took my hand and held it gently. "Cecilia, at first I just went with the flow. But, for a long time I was really interested in you. Now tell me, what would make you believe me if I were serious?" his question made my mind fall apart instantly.
I am really confused. What am I supposed to tell him? His eye light implied a deep seriousness. I still want to have fun living my life. Would it be wrong for me to just shut up and not answer?