
A few hours later...
I was dressing up in front of the mirror because soon someone would come to pick me up. I put on all-white clothes before going to the beach today. Don't forget I brought my little bag and my beach hat. I want to enjoy the day before I get back into action.
This morning I wore a short-sleeved blouse and a knee-length joking skirt that was both white. But even though I wear a skirt, I still wear short legging in it.
"I'm ready."
The clock on the wall of the room already showed at eleven o'clock in the afternoon. I went out of my room to welcome the holiday this time. I showed her my original attitude so she wouldn't be surprised again. Today I will try to give her some understanding. About who I am and my past. If he still persists with his feelings, maybe he was created for me.
"Eh, is he coming?"
I heard the apartment bell ringing. I rushed to the door to open it. With a beaming face I opened the door of my apartment. And it turns out that it was really him who came.
"Cecilia." He looked at me with a slightly different face.
"I'm ready." I'm semringah. No matter how romantic her face is.
The man in the white shirt nodded. I immediately locked the apartment door and set foot with him towards the parking lot of the building. I know that Alexander must have kept his word. He had calculated everything so as not to come late to pick me up.
"Sir."
When I got in the elevator, I greeted him. The elevator was just the two of us.
"Hm?" He looked towards me.
"Bunch," I said, pointing at this cheek with both hands.
I saw him laughing. "Basic." He rubbed my head with a beach hat.
Maybe the romance change on her face was due to yesterday's incident. Where I do not answer his statement of love with the word want or not. I just nodded to appreciate it. I haven't told you if I want to be her lover. And maybe that's why he's a little bit inferior today. I was mediocre.
Yes, understand. Called men. They also have self-respect. Repeatedly asking but not being responded to, of course, will also feel hurt. And maybe that's what Alexander feels right now.
Then when he arrived on the ground floor I forced myself to hold his fingers. He looked at me who was holding his hand. He immediately tightened our handrails until his whole finger went in between my fingers. We also continued to step foot into the parked car. We're going on vacation together today.
An hour later, on the beach...
All the way to the beach, we just stayed. Silence without a word that amazes me with his attitude. But even though he was silent, he kept holding my hand. As if not to let go and say don't go from his side. Maybe his heart is now broken because there is no answer from me. Or maybe he has another mind burden? I don't know.
We have now reached the beach. And maybe it's time for me to dominate the situation. Where I have to be more flexible and not keep my distance anymore. As a woman, it is certainly not nice to continue to ignore someone's feelings. And today I want to get closer to him. To a man who has been faithful to accompany me all this time.
"Huh ..beautiful!"
When I got out of the car, I saw a white cloud in the sky. Daytime weather feels hot but still cool because of the breeze of the beach. Waves also chases without stopping. Spewing foam in countless oceans. Probably the same as the number of sins and mistakes I've had all this time. But I hope the path to a better life is still wide open for me. I don't know who's going to anchor the household ark, I'll take it. Because I'm sure it's the best.
"Sir, we'll eat first, yes. Today I'm the one who deals," I said to the man in the white shirt beside me.
He approached me. "What do you want to buy?" tanyanya, we also stood next to see the atmosphere of the beach from the car park area.
"What do you want?" I asked as I poked the tip of his nose.
"Cecilia?!" He was immediately surprised by my attitude.
I also grumpily pinched both cheeks. "Where did the one who said yesterday that it had to be chickpeas. How come it's not snoring anymore?" I mocked.
"Why?" ask me with a spoiled tone. "Much debt, huh?" I guessed while bringing my face closer to him.
"Huh .. no." He breathed in front of me.
"Then?" ask again.
He paused for a moment and looked at me. He tidied up my hair bangs that were partially covered in hats. "I think of a princess who still doubts my feelings. Should I ride a horse so he can trust me?" it was her asking that made me want to laugh.
I really don't know what to say. I know what his words mean, but I can't answer them. I don't know why I feel sad to hear it. But at that moment I realized that I should not be carried away. I'm just happy.
"Prophe dong, Prince!" I poked his chest. "Everything needs a process. We're just close anyway. If quickly, then quickly also separate. Wanna?" my many.
"Cecilia?!" He seemed surprised to call the prince.
"It has. Don't think too much. As long as I'm with you, what should I worry about? Come on, let's go there!" I took her to the cafeteria on the beach.
When I turned around from before him, he pulled me close to him. And apparently, Alexander hugged me.
"Mr ...."
"Cecilia, I'm serious" he said, hugging me.
I couldn't say anything more in his arms.
"Don't make me wait too long. If anything can convince you, just say it. I'll try to fulfill it." He said again.
I felt the warmth of his body hugging this body. His heartbeat seemed to reach my chest. The rhythm is stable like there are no lies in it. I returned his embrace as comfortably as possible. I accept his feelings even though I can't answer them now.
"I believe you" I said, which made her hug me even tighter.
"You're first, Cecilia. Really." He said again.
I nodded in his arms. "Yes. Thank you." Thank you." I answered it too.
This afternoon is a witness to the feelings that are in the heart. Where Alexander expressed his feelings to me for the umpteenth time. It feels so selfish not to accept it. I was again only able to nod as a sign of accepting his feelings. But I can't tell you if I love him. I hope he is patient until that time comes.
I can't expect much right now. I only live while enjoying life once. I admit that little by little the wounds in my heart have been healed. And maybe soon I'll make a decision on this love. But it may not be completely as it used to be, because it all takes a process of time. So yes already. We will enjoy the holidays this time.
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...The cecilia...
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